A/N: Hey! WriterzBlock12 here! This is basically a collection of Nalu one-shots and drabbles. Each one can either be fuff, angsty, friendship, or just plain romance! Hope you all enjoy!

I don't own Fairy Tail nor the characters. Hiro Mashima does.

Another A/N (sorry):

Theme: angst

Letter: A

Name: Adventures

Adventures

We had gone on so many. So many adventures that it didn't seem like it would ever stop. But it did. It was over.

I walked along the river with my hands behind my head while Happy flew nearby me. It had been a long day, the only spark in it was taking down the double headed sea monster on the mission. The spark was dull though, barely flickering. It had only been Happy and I, it still hadn't felt right even after all this time. It never did feel right because she wasn't there with us, with me.

I walked some more trying not to think. It used to be easy, to just let my mind run blank or maybe try to think of something more uplifting to put me in a better mood. I learned a long time ago it wasn't that easy to forget about that night no matter how many steaks or beating up Gildarts daydreams I have. I always thought about that night, always. Right now, my thoughts were wandering to her again, except this time it was so much more vivid. I didn't want to think of it, but my head...no my heart wouldn't let it. I always eventually shattered on this day, yet I was determined not to this time, that's what she would have wanted. She would have wanted me to go on more adventures and more fun times, but I wasn't able to complete them, not really, not without her. And god dammit I tried. I tried every fucking day to be happy, to move on for her, but I couldn't.

My hands dropped from behind my head, instead having them loosely at my sides. I think Happy was speaking, but I just couldn't keep my attention on my friend. Happy was trying to move on too. I remember her always leaving piles upon piles of fish in her fridge sometimes because she knew Happy would go searching through her food so she might as well buy some for him, at least that's what she said. I knew she got those slimy raw fishes and hauled them to her apartment just to see Happy get well, so happy about his new snack. He was a mess the first month, but he moved on; he still remembered the good times he had with her, but he was able to still live up to his name like she asked. I wasn't. Even when Happy was so sad he wouldn't eat fish for a while, he still tried to cheer me up. I appreciated it, but it wasn't working.

I guess Happy had stopped flying because he spoke up a little farther away from me, "Natsu?"

I turned around to see Happy flying still in the air, "Yeah, What is it?"

His eyes weren't on me though, they were trained behind me unwavering. I followed his eyesight and found where my feet were leading me just a moment ago accidentally. Lucy's apartment. I had always made sure not to go there, especially today. I knew I would fully explode like I had two years ago.

"Lucy."I couldn't help but whisper her name. I hadn't said it in so long, yet it felt so right. It felt like everything was back to normal just for a second. For a second I believed Happy would fly me up to her window and we would go 'break in' like she said. It felt like she was inside her apartment writing or taking one of her extremely long baths that would make her hands all wrinkly. I remember always calling her grandma when I saw her fingers like that. Happy would go along with it saying how he already saw some white hair in her blonde locks even though neither of us saw such a thing. Of course she would do her usually Lucy thing by racing to a mirror to check if what Happy said was true. When she found nothing she would yell at us saying something along the lines of how we should be grateful she even let's us stay here. I knew she liked us here. People may call me dense, but with Lucy she was always an open book to me.

Happy and I just stared up there as if we were expecting her to pop out of the window to say hi. But she didn't. I felt Happy's eyes on me, but I ignored it still looking up at the building. Eventually, a short plump lady came walking out. Her voice was raspy when she spoke, "What do you think you two are doing her? Hmm?"

I stared at her for a moment. She looked familiar, but I couldn't remember her name, "Hey! I'm Natsu!" I tried flashing her a smile, but it was forced yet again.

Happy came up from behind me with one of his grins, "And I'm Happy! You're the landlady, right?"

That's who she is! Lucy's landlady. I could tell Happy purposefully excluded Lucy's name from that sentence. Maybe he was still trying to save me from breaking down or maybe he was saving himself from falling apart. Thinking back Happy had only really used her name when he saw me crying at the graveyard. At the time I thought everyone had left. I had waited until the ceremony was over before going back to her gravestone. I had wished so badly that her name wasn't on that piece of stone, I had always thought it would be on a novel she wrote. I remember sitting down on the grass at my knees in front of her gravestone just crying. The sky had been so bright, so cheerful that it didn't feel right. I wanted to share this beautiful day with her, I just didn't want her to be stuck in the ground. Happy had come searching for me and had found me like that. When I looked up for the first time since coming to the gravestone I found it was dark. Apparently I had been there for almost the whole entire day.

Shaking the memory away, or at least trying to, I turned my attention to the landlady once more. She wasn't wearing Lucy's old clothes like she used to. When she continued on speaking her eyes were still squinting at us, "You both were Lucy's friends."

I felt myself mentally shudder at the word were. Acting like nothing was wrong I responded, "Yep."

"After two long years you two hooligans back? I expect the rent money to be paid for a year by tomorrow!"

"A year? Shouldn't it be two years... wait! Nobody has moved into her apartment yet!"

She adjusted her dead animal scarf while speaking finding the carcass for interesting, "Umm, yes. You only need to pay for a year. And yes, all her things are still there." Her voice sounded farther off. Lucy must've burrowed her way into this lady's heart somehow, "Now if you'll excuse me! I have some shopping to get to." With that she took short strides getting farther and farther away from the two.

"Natsu? Are you okay?" I hated that Happy was asking me that, I should be the one making sure he's alright.

"Ya, I'm fine. Hey Happy, is it okay if I went in there by myself." It wasn't a question, just a statement seeing what he thought.

Turning my head I saw he was for the first time conflicted with something besides Charle and fish. His expression turned normal all of a sudden and so did his voice, "Aye! I'll be at the guild hall to get some yummy fiishies!" It was fake, and he knew that but the attitude Happy had about this made it easier... even if false.

Then Happy was zooming off in the direction we had come from leaving me alone just like that night they buried her. I didn't even glance at her door and instead climbed up into her window. Maybe it was old habit or me yet attempting to feel like she was inside there and everything was back just like how it had been two years ago. Either way I made myself not think about it when I crawled through the door. Instantly I was hit with Lucy.

All of her things were in the exact same spot as they had been last time. Her smell was still here making it the only source of smell I got. I saw her papers disheveled and a book nearby on her desk. The bed was slightly messily made instead of how she usually makes sure there isn't any crease or wrinkle in sight on the bedspread. That's right. She was in a hurry because I made her for the mission. The mission that would end everything. I hated myself for a long time for pushing her to go on that job, I still did. Shaking my head... again I made the thought disappear from my mind knowing Lucy would be mad at me if I thought that way. Yet it was still in the very corner of my mind haunting me.

Going over to her papers on her desk I picked one up clearly seeing it was her letters to her mom. Her handwriting was neat and girlish. Sometimes it would get slightly untidy towards the end making me believe her hand had started to cramp on the extra long letters she wrote. I saw little side notes she would write to her mom that made a laugh escape from my lips. Even after so much time she still made me laugh. I didn't like reading, actually I hated it, but this was Lucy's writing. I read another one, and it wasn't a letter sent to her mom. It was a letter sent to me. My eyes studied the piece of paper over and over again still not comprehending it:

Dear Natsu,

You've been gone for a long time now, maybe the time apart hasn't been as vast as some other people, but I think some how it's worse. I miss you. I miss you so much Natsu. I keep dreaming that the guild was still together and you and Happy were at my apartment just eating away everything. I miss that. Now I'm trying to work my way up top on becoming a Sorcerer Weekly publisher some day. I remember when you were the only person that saw my writing, I think you have made me be able to go out there with my work. Maybe becoming a publisher isn't my dream job, but it's something with writing and that's what I love. Right? Why am I even writing this damn letter? I's not like I'm going to send it even if I could. You know what Natsu? You hurt me Natsu. That's just one of the things I'm probably never going to tell you. You know what else? I'm mad at you. You left me a note! One small tiny not saying were leaving. That broke me, it broke me cause I'm in love with you. I'm in love with how you smile, how you can be so dense, how always leave me smiling, how you stand up for what you believe in, how you protect the ones you care about most of all. I love every single thing about you, and that's another thing I'mnever going to have the guts to tell you so I might as well say it here. I love you, Natsu Dragneel. I want to keep going on adventures with you forever.

Love,

Lucy

Then I snapped. I couldn't help it anymore, being in her apartment, everything so clean and neat just like how she had it, and worst of all reading that letter. She loved me. Just like how I love her. But it was too late now. I would never get to tell her how I felt, never get to make her laugh, never hear her laugh. Never see her smile. Never see the face she makes when she's on a writing streak, or how she furrows up her eyebrows in concentration and determination during a battle. Never get to tell her about my fights. Never get to hear her stories. Never see Lucy, hear Lucy, or be with Lucy. Never go on adventures with her like I had promised. Never.

Another sob took over me making my shoulders shake as I fell to the ground on my knees still holding the letter to me like a life line. The room that was once filled with her warmth was now overshadowed by the darkness that consumed me. I would soon learn I had stayed there even longer then I had at her grave, the same day Lucy had died two years ago. Our adventures together were over. More tears streamed down my face.

A/N: Sooo I hope you all enjoyed! I just had this thought in my head and couldn't get it out. Just to make it clear the letter was after Natsu left and Lucy's death was after things started settling down after the big war. So I guess this is in the future? Idk... XD

-WriterzBlock12