(Author Note's)
I don't Twilight . Only the plot in here it's my.
This story takes place on New Moon.
Chapter 1.
Memories…
"Bella, we're leaving." We'd have to start over soon regardless…
He stared back coldly…
I can't stand it anymore, not this pain again; even though I close my eyes and the fragments of that day keep playing.
"When you say we-," I whispered.
"I mean my family and myself" Each word separate and distinct.
"I'm not good for you Bella."
"My world is not for you"
The words.. that hurt the most.
"Bella, I don't want you to come with me."
"You are not good for me Bella."
He didn't love me because I wasn't good enough for him…
It's all that really made sense. But I can't help to love him.
"I can't"
"I don't want to stop loving you"
… I don't know how to stop the pain.
"Bella!"
Are you listening to what I said.?
Charlie was here…? On my room. Turning around I saw that I was on the kitchen.
Yes.. I murmur.
"I'm sorry Bell's I don't think you can keep on like this."-Charlie's voice was sad.
You're leaving to Jackson Ville with Rene.
"Yes Charlie…"
Ok, I will talk to Rene tonight. You're leaving in a week.
I close my eyes and open them again. I was in my room again. Perhaps I was having a dream …yes Charlie was in my dream.
"he's right I have to leave… I will leave…"
Charlie
"Rene, she agrees to go with you this time."
Are you sure Charlie? I don't want her to do something drastic or you know what I mean..'
"I know" It actually took me by surprise.
"But it's for the best Rene." I don't want her to go but she's not living any more. Been far away from Forks It's going to make her good.
"There will be nothing to remain her of him."
"Oh, Charlie…" -Rene starts sobbing.
"I know"
"Good Night Rene."
"Good Night Charlie"
Rene..!
Yes Charlie.?
"Be prepared to see Bella."
With that Charlie cut the line.
Bella
I have to leave…but were should I go.? In front of me was the meadow. All the flowers in different colors…so alive and Beautiful.
" I'm going to the meadow tomorrow.."
"Yes…I will go"
Staring to the window I can see the night disappearing and the morning coming…
I stand up and went straight to the shower.
Bella, what are you doing so early? Charlie asks confuse.
"I'm taking a shower"- my voice came in a hoarse way.
But Bella It's 4:30 am. –Charlie's voice was filling with concern.
I turn around to the window Oh…?
Did you want to shower first Dad? "I can wait."
"No honey… I shower already…"
"Charlie" Bella's voice was still hoarse.
"She has never called me Charlie." He thought.
Yes, Bella.?
"I Love You"
"I'm so happy to be your Daughter. You're the Best Dad"
OH…Bella.."
Charlie couldn't take it anymore. Embracing Bella and kissing her cheeks and forehead he cries. He cries for all the tears that Bella no longer shed. He cries for the human in front of him. For the girl in front of him that didn't looks like Bella… his Daughter.
"His Beautiful and only Daughter."
"His Beloved Daughter."
For first time I see Charlie crying. I wish I could cry too. But I can't, not now. I don't feel embarrass like other times when the emotional thing come. So I hug Charlie my Dad, with all the love I can pour. The love that belongs to him and the love for Rene. Yes this embrace should have both loves.
Charlie
Not willing to break the embrace I know I have to. This has to be a progress the start of her healing .
"I'm sorry Bells"
For what Dad?
"I'm the one who is sorry for not realizing that I'm hurting you"
"But I understand that I have to leave for the best"
"I don't want you to be sad anymore Charlie."
"Once I'm gone you won't be sad not you or Rene"
Turning around Bella went inside the bathroom to give Charlie a tissue.
"I'm going to make coffee for you Dad" Can you wait a little.?
"Yes, Honey I can wait for you" Kissing once more Bella.
"Go wash your face Dad" Bella tell him with a smile.
Full with happiness Charlie run to the bathroom. Meanwhile Bella go down to the kitchen.
15 minutes later, Charlie is waving Good Bye to Bella on the other hand a thermo full with coffee for the day.
Pulling out of the drive way…
"Yes, Bella it's coming around." Perhaps later she will be available to come and visit….? No …. What I'm thinking ?
"I will be the one visiting Bella from now on."
Only if she wants to come, that will be a different story but I will talk to her and I will go to her place instead. No matter where the place is, I will be there.
"I have to call Rene to tell her."
Bella have smiles…!
Bella
Charlie it's gone now I have to take a shower.
I want to go the meadow..our meadow.
"But I don't want to go like this."
No … have to go to Seattle to buy a dress.
"Yes a dress"
Inside the house I start looking through all the pictures. Charlie it's going to be all right.
"I know he will, just like Rene."
Alice
I don't understand Edward, he shouldn't have let Bella. I don't see Bella doing well.
"She's so sick."
Who's sick? Eleazar ask
I turn around to see that none of my family can hear me.
"Bella" I say trying to whisper the lowest I can.
"Oh"
Looking around, Eleazar also whispers to me.
"I think you should go back and bring her. I can change her If you want to."
"I know it's not my place but it's different from her, from what you have share with me and Carmen. "
I know what I'm telling you Alice.
"I know from experience with the Volturi."
"No one it's in the house now."
"We can talk freely" Carmen tell them while join up, follow by Jasper.
What did you mean with the Volturi Eleazar? Jasper asks confuse.
"They are Mates, this is not just an infatuation with each other." Marcus use to tell me about the bonds of the vampire mates and the vampire mated with a human. He always told me that the best thing you can do, it's turn the human as soon as possible. That way the vampire won't put the human in danger.
"You know what happen with Jasper" And Jasper listen I'm not judging you.
The more time the vampire takes to change the human, the more he will be against the change, no matter how many times she or him beg for the change.
But why honey? Carmen asks him.
He falls in love with the humanity, the simple thought of changing the human will bring pain. For the sole reason that the change it's painful.
The connections between the two are different.
"It won't be long before one of the two snaps" –Eleazar was concerned.
What did you mean with snap? Alice asks him with fear.
The one that suffer the most is the human mate. The human mate either loses its mind or…. Die.
"NO…"
"Jasper we have to do something." Looking around to face Jasper..she can see the remorse, her remorse for leaving Bella. And the pain of Jasper for what he believe it's his fault.
Not waiting for Alice Eleazar continues.
"The Vampire either loses his mind turning into a wild beast or Die."
I turn around to see Eleazar…and I couldn't see him.
Bella was wearing a dress…
A beautiful black gown that embrace her curves, strapless and big on the bottom lace around the gown.
even when she has lost a lot of weight… she looks beautiful.
She was smiling..admiring her-self in the mirror.
Jasper
I saw Alice turn around and her eyes weren't looking to Eleazar.. She was having a vision.
Alice…! I call her.
"Alice.., honey comes back."
Alice turned her face to me.
Jasper I saw Bella. She was smiling while trying a gown.
I don't understand Bella never like shopping. And a gown.
"Did you think that she's losing her mind as Eleazar said."
The fear emanating from Alice was overwhelming…
"Alice please calm down…"
As soon as she notices my emotions she tries her best to control hers.
What exactly did you saw?
Bella trying a gown…a black gown. That's all I can see Jasper but I don't like it. She looks happy but there's something..I don't know."
Alice, please look again into her future.
Closing her eyes and opening them again…fast. She was in a vision again.
Alice
Bella it's wearing the gown. Her hair up in an old style. She's in the meadow.
The meadow that Edward shows her… or at least a similar one because in this one all the flowers are red. And there it's snow around the place. It's scary… the table in the middle of the meadow. A melodious voice, and someone waiting for Bella to sit down.
"I want to go..!"
Jasper…! I scream.
Jasper…! I sob.
Alice wakes up…! Jasper was in front of me now.
Alice what's wrong?
What took you so long ?
What did you see Alice?- Carslie was next to me. Esme on the other side.
Rose and Emmett on the other side of the room.
"you have been screaming for hours." –Jasper concerned voice take me by surprise.
Hours ..? But I just closed my eyes…
"No, honey that was yesterday."
What did you saw Alice.? –Emmett speaks for the first time in weeks.
I saw Bella… she was wearing a Black Gown. She was in this meadow… it was strange. Even when there was snow all around the flowers were …, were never touch it by the snow. Also all the flowers were red…. such deep red.
She went to sit down in the middle of the meadow. There was someone waiting for her.. a table for two.
But something was not right. I was terrified. I only saw them and I start looking Jasper. I wanted to fly from them.
"I'm going to check Bella"
Japer will you come with me?
Alice who was with Bella?
Edward won't be happy? –Rosalie hissed.
I don't care Rosalie..! I growl..
"I know you don't give a fuck about Bella but I do"
"If, he don't want to be near her…so be it." But I'm coming back for Bella.
Alice who was with Bella…! Grabbing Alice by the arms she finally paid attention to Jasper.
"I don't know "
That person has not made a decision.