A Light In The Dark Chapter 1, a kingdom hearts fanfic

-You think you can beat me. Wow, how deluded you are.

~She looks like an angel, but she sure as hell doesn't act like one

-Like a moth to a flame, I keep coming back to him.

~She's my guiding light in the dark……

*please note that this follows my own story line. It sorta goes with CoM and Days. Sorta…….

~A Light in the Dark~

Chapter one: 'Don't you miss when we were that innocent?'

Prologue

Castle oblivion is mostly used as a research center for the Organization. I say mostly because I know what else it's used for. I know this because I live there.

I'm a special kind of, well, I'm not a Nobody per say, I have a heart, but it's not all there. I can feel, but. You know what? I'm called a Light and that's all you need to know.

Instead of the traditional black Organization cloak ensemble, I wear a white cloak with a black chain and beads.

I'm where the hearts of the Nobodies reside. That fact enables me to feel what they want to feel. I also have small pieces of memory. If I wanted to, I could bond with them.

But most of them resent me, Saïx especially.

To make things harder on me, there's only one Light at a time. When one dies, another is born.

So the only person I can truly trust is myself.

My name is Ixchel {Pronounced excel} I have orange hair and chocolate brown eyes and this is my story.

Chapter one:

I watched silently from a balcony as a portal appeared on the ground floor, near the entrance.

"Well, let's see who else Saïx sent to play." I muttered and vaulted over the banister and landed in a crouch on the ground.

Only one person came out. He had flame red hair and shocking green eyes with teardrops underneath them.

He looked at me with narrowed eyes. I got a flash, no not a flash, a name, his name.

"Axel." I breathed. This happened every time I met a Nobody I haven't encountered before. I shook my head and approached Axel.

"This way." I muttered, ready for the verbal abuse that all Nobodies give me.

"The name's Axel. A-x-e-l. Got it memorized?" he asked. I stopped dead

"You okay?" he asked sarcastically.

"You don't resent me?" I asked quietly.

He laughed. It was a nice laugh. "Why would I resent you? I don't even know you."

I feel my face fall. Of course. "Ignorance really is bliss." I muttered.

"Just follow me." I sighed. I was sent to guide him to his comrades. The ones that verbally abuse me and resent me. I can tell it's a learned habit.

I guide him through the maze I call home until we reach the level where the Organization is using for research.

"Finally." Scoffed Larxene. I just stayed silent. I know from experience, especially with Larxene, that that's the best option.

I made a 'here-you-go' gesture to Axel and turned and left.

Soon I was back in my room. It was nice; I was allowed to paint it so I painted it a light blue. There was a piano in the corner and a desk with a computer in another.

I smiled and walked over to it. Playing the piano was my escape. I decided to play Love Hurts by Yiruma. It's a sad song, so full of emotion, but yet, I feel that there's a tiny bit of hope in there. Like the music is saying 'don't give up.'

But, that's just me.

"Well what do you know?" I heard Larxene exclaim sarcastically. "She's actually good for something!"

I felt my face flush with anger but I stayed seated at my piano bench. I heard the rest of them laugh, except Axel, I didn't hear his laugh.

"Hey Demyx maybe you two should do a duet!" Marluxia joked. I heard Demyx play a few lousy notes and they laughed.

I felt my throat burn and a few tears fell on the clean ivory keys of the piano.

"Hey! She's crying!" I heard Larxene shout, delighted. "Maybe Demyx can make them dance!!"

More tears fell and I muttered to myself "O, beware of jealousy; it is the green-eyed monster." quoting Shakespeare.

"What was that?" Larxene coos sarcastically.

"O, beware of jealousy; it is the green-eyed monster, which doth mock the meat it feeds on." I snap at her. I whipped around to face her and was a bit pleased to find that she was taken by surprise.

"You're jealous." I say simply. Not angrily, not smugly, just stating a fact. "You have nothing to be jealous of." I tell her. "Your life is much simpler than mine, you have people you can trust where as I cannot let anyone in."

I turned back around and started to play kiss the rain. I improved some lyrics. {A/N: I suggest you look up 'kiss the rain sung by Heine Dao' on youtube. That's whose lyrics these are.}

VRS 1

I often close my eyes

And I can see you smile

You reach out for my hand

And I'm woken from my dream

Although your heart is mine

Its hollow inside

I never had your love

And I never will

CHORUS

And every night

I lie awake

Thinking maybe you love me

Like I've always loved you

But how can you love me

Like I loved you when

You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 2/3

I've never felt this way

To be so in love

To have someone there

Yet feel so alone

Aren't you supposed to be?

The one to wipe my tears

The one to say that you would never leave

The waters calm and still

My reflection is there

I see you holding me

But then you disappear

All that is left of you

Is a memory

One that only, exists in my dreams

CHORUS

And every night

I lie awake

Thinking maybe you love me

Like I've always loved you

But how can you love me

Like I loved you when

You can't even look me straight in my eyes

VRS 4

I don't know what hurts you

But I can feel it too

And it just hurts so much

To know that I can't do a thing

And deep down in my heart

Somehow I just know

That no matter what

I'll always love you

VRS 1

I often close my eyes

And I can see you smile

You reach out for my hand

And I'm woken from my dream

Although your heart is mine

Its hollow inside

I never had your love

And I never will

So why am I still here in the rain?

I finished and heard nothing. Whether they had left or were still there was beyond me.

I turned to see only Axel leaning on the door jamb.

"Larxene got bored and left, the rest went with her." He said in way of explanation.

"Why didn't you go with them?" I asked, almost silently.

"You sing good." He shrugged, "And you're good at the piano."

"Thanks." I managed a weak smile.

"You remind me of someone." I heard Axel mutter.

"Well it can't be someone I know. All of the Nobodies I know verbally abuse me." I scoff, slowly opening up to Axel.

Then Axel got a mischievous glint in his eyes and grabbed my wrist.

"Hey!" I protested. He opened up a portal and dragged me through it.

When we stepped through I found we were on a clock tower.

"Ummm… Will you let me go?" I asked timidly. I don't do heights. Or cramped spaces.

"No." he answered simply and dragged me around to what I guess was the front of the tower. There was another Nobody. Roxas was his name.

"Hey Axel!" Roxas exclaimed, "You're finally back!"

Did I mention that time at C.O. passer much faster than most places? No? Hmmm….. Are you sure? Whatever.

"Yep." He smirked. "And I brought along someone." He said, motioning to me.

"Hi." I said weakly. "Can you let go of my wrist now? My hand's numb."

"What's numb?" Roxas questioned as Axel let go of my wrist. I cringed from the sudden flow of blood to my hand.

"For me it'd be when my blood flow gets cut off." I shot Axel the evils which he pretended not to see.

"For you it'd probably be unfeeling, which you technically are because you don't have hearts." I shrugged.

"So you have a heart?" Roxas asked, intrigued.

"It's complicated." I sighed, running my finger through my short hair.

"Here." Axel said, shoving a Popsicle in my line of vision.

"Sugar is bad for me." I mutter, embarrassed. "Almost as bad as alcohol."

Axel looked at me like I had three heads and Roxas looked confused.

"Verbal abuse isn't the only way they torment me." I tell Axel. "Drinking games with Larxene, Marly and Vexen are fairly interesting though."

"What are you talking about?" Roxas asked. I walked over and ruffled his hair.

"Don't you miss when you were this innocent?" I ask Axel while pointing to Roxas. My defenses were completely down and if they wanted to hurt me, now would be a great time to do it.

"Do you have a multiple personality disorder?" Axel asked.

"No, I just trust you now." I said, shrugging. Then I made the mistake of looking out at the town and felt my face pale.

"Heights - bad – scary -." I said, terrified. I began to black out and felt the rushing sensation of falling.

I woke up to a rocking motion, like someone was carrying me.

"You think she'll be okay?" I heard someone ask. Roxas that was it.

"Do I look like a doctor?" I heard a sarcastic voice reply. That'd be Axel. When he had talked I felt vibrations so he must be carrying me.

Silence then……

"Roxas, don't poke her." I heard Axel sigh. They had stopped walking.

I felt myself being set down and my head resting on…. Grass? Now that my face was closer to the ground, I could smell grass and moss. I figured now was a good as any time to wake up.

I sat up and rubbed my eyes tiredly. "Ugh, how long was I out?" I muttered.

"Half an hour." Axel replied.

"Axel said that you can sing really good." Roxas said, trying to be helpful.

"It's nice to know that someone appreciates me." I smiled.

"I was wondering if…" he trailed off.

"I'd sing. Sure, my voice might not be that great right now but I'll give it a go." I shrugged. I closed my eyes and began to sing.

When you walk away

You don't hear me say

"Please, oh baby, don't go"

Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

You're giving me

Too many things

Lately

You're all I need (Oh, oh)

You smiled at me

And said, "Don't get me wrong I love you, but does that mean I have to meet your father?"

When we are older you'll understand

What I meant, when I said "No"

I don't think, life is quite that simple

When you walk away

You don't hear me say

"Please, oh baby, don't go"

Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

So simple and clean

The daily things

Like this and that and what is what

That keep us all busy

Are confusing me

That's when you came to me

And said, "Wish I could prove I love you, but does that mean I have to walk on water?"

When we are older you'll understand

It's enough when I say so

And maybe

Some things are that simple

When you walk away

You don't hear me say

"Please, oh baby, don't go"

Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning?

Is a little later on

Regardless of warnings

The future doesn't scare me at all

Nothing's like before

When you walk away

You don't hear me say

"Please, oh baby, don't go"

Simple and clean is the way that you're making me feel tonight

It's hard to let it go

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning?

Is a little later on

Regardless of warnings

The future doesn't scare me at all

Nothing's like before

Hold me

Whatever lies beyond this morning?

Is a little later on

Regardless of warnings

The future doesn't scare me at all

Nothing's like before

"Ugh. That was horrible." I coughed. "This is why I never sing after I wake up…" I muttered.

"Are you kidding?" Roxas asked.

'He's so child like.' I thought fondly. I mean, seriously this is a 15-year-old who acts like he's twelve. It's adorable!!!!

"Will you sing another song?" he asked hyperly.

"And actually look at something this time." Axel spoke up.

"It isn't my fault I'm self-conscious." I muttered.

I sighed and looked at Axel before I started singing.

In you and I there's a new land

Angel's in flight