I sat at the desk in my room and stared down at the small white envelope. I knew that I shouldn't feel the stab of pain in the place my heart should be, since it has stopped beating over 80 some odd years ago. Never the less I felt as if someone and reached inside and ripped out what was left of me. The envelope taunted me, its gold rimmed edges beckoning me to open it and destroy whatever small amount of sanity I had left. As if the envelope wasn't enough of a clue Bella's sent saturated the paper and was making it impossible to think. I turned away in my chair having decided that I would not defiantly not be opening it to find Alice standing obtrusively in my doorway. Normally, I would have heard her before I turned but she was just so damn fast. "Yes Alice." Do you want me to just tell you what it says? she thought. "NO!" I screamed getting up from my chair and putting my headphones in my ears, as if that would help. It was too late I could already see it in her thoughts. The inscription was in gold letters and it read:
Chief Charlie Swan and Mrs Renee Dwyer
Cordially invite you the wedding of their daughter
Isabella Marie Swan
To
Jacob Black
That was it for me. "Get out!!" I screamed and hurled a CD case at her head. Alice darted away her head down in obvious remorse. I know that I shouldn't take it out on her. After all it was not her fault that I was so damn masochistic and had decided, against the advice of my entire family, to stay here in Forks long after Bella had made her choice. It had been nearly four years since that day and I could and always would remember it as clear as a bell.
After the fight with the newborns Bella had spent every minute at Jacob's bedside. Nursing him back to health, never sleeping even when Carlisle and I insisted that she rest. I didn't say it at the time but I knew her heart was changing even then. I could see it in her eyes. The way she looked at him while she stroked his face and said "Please Jake, please get better I need you." I cringed a little at the memory. If I had known then I was absolutely positive when I brought her back to Charlie's house. I watched her sleep that night and she tossed saying only "I'm sorry Edward.". I knew it most absolutely then, I had lost her. She woke the next morning as if whatever she had dreamed about that night had finally made up her mind. "Edward, I don't even know how to say this, because it is the hardest thing I will ever say." she said voice shaking, eyes tearing in the corners. If I could have cried I would have too. She began to stutter something incoherently and I embraced her. "Its all right." I said soothingly. I had to keep it together. Seeing me fall apart now would only make this worse for her. Even knowing she was about to reject me forever was not enough for me to ever see her hurting. "I understand Bella, you love him. You cant help who you fall in love with." she sobbed into my shoulder. "I was so sure Edward, I was so sure it was you. Then Jake got hurt and I started thinking about what it would of felt like to lose him. I couldn't breath Edward, you see when I kissed him in the woods that day I saw everything. I saw our whole lives together, I saw our children Edward!" Strong as I was I had to turn my face just slightly to the right to prevent her from seeing the earth shattering pained look on my face. I composed myself and turned quickly back to her. " Bella, my only wish is for you to be happy. I cant let my selfishness get in the way of that. Jacob is a good man. I have known that these were your feelings for quite sometime. I only thought it best that you come to terms with it on your own." then she looked up at me with those eyes, those beautiful brown eyes and I nearly crumpled. " I should go. You'll be wanting to go see him soon anyway." I said making my voice as steady as I could. She kept her head down turned away from me but shook it yes. I got off the end of her bed and started towards the window. Thinking about it now makes me wish I had only be an eighth of a second faster. It was then that she caught me and made me make two promises. Promise number one was that no matter where in the world I was I would come see her once a year…..forever. The other was that no matter what I would never do anything to purposely bring harm to myself. She was of course referring to last winter and the stunt I tried to pull in Italy. Of course I agreed and so now here I am wallowing in my own misery. My only feeling of content came from the knowledge that she truly was happy and safe. For that I was truly grateful.
I came back to the present when I heard Jacob's thoughts coming from downstairs
"Edward, lets go I need you!!! SHE needs you. They've come for her." I ran with lightning speed down the stairs and out the front door. Jacob, in his wolf form, stood at the foot of the meadow the look on his face told me who he meant before I could hear it in his mind. They was the Volturi !!!