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Intro - Mei Lin
All my life...all my life, I've been so curious, so mischievous...I'm 18 now, I've just graduated from high school and I have an awesome boyfriend named Syaoran. Wow, I don't even know where to start with him. I've known him forever...so long, I cant even remember, growing up I've been learning martial arts with him and I started dating him a year ago. He's a great guy...but.... ...it's funny...someone like me growing. Aw long as I can remember, I've been curious asking many question and experiencing many moments. I would ask those pathetic question when I was a kid like "why are there so many stars in the sky, what are those?" and "why is the sky blue" and "where did I come from?". Of course, nobody would answer me then...but now..it's different
I've done too many things in this life already... whether it may be good or bad. As I've explained about my curiosity, in elementary I would climb the apple trees in my neighbor's yard wondering why they never pick the highest apples. I've never got caught, but it was thrilling climbing so high up onto the tree with the leaves rustling in the wind. Even for a moment I would feel like I was somewhere else. Growing up in junior high, I've learned about changes and guys. Guy's have been my target for the longest time. I would wear the most revealing clothes to school, hoping that guys would notice me. I wasn't bad looking, so I was sure that I could get more attention. I loved seeking attention, it was something I was born with. It was great though, wearing mini skirts, halter tops to school, it was until they made the stooped dress code where I stopped and my clothes had more cloth on them.
I've gone white water rafting, sky diving, bungee jumping, I've done possibly everything, you just name it. I have money, I can afford anything I want. In high school, I was introduced to something that not only used a lot of your money, but I learned how I could gain it all back. Drugs. My curiousity of drugs, why would anybody even want to do something to hard youre body. I've tried so many, from pot to morphine to something as simple as weed. I gotta admit, my life was great, and looking back at it, there's no regrets. It's just..i've done many mistakes, having my aunt who is coincidently Syaoran's mother needing to bail me out of jail. I remember the first time I drove, I wasn't even legal yet, but it was still so fun. I've crashed a few cars racing, I was so curious why guy's loved cars and racing, I've raced many times, and as usually, I got the answer. It's thrilling, even tho it's life-risking, it's absolutely worth it.
I guess you could say I've met the wrong people, beucase there's so many things to do in this world. Those people also answer a lot of my questions even though there were many I was too embaress to ask them. Such as, why would anybody stay up late and go to some dark place with blasting music. Raving, drinking, clubbing, arcades. I don't understand how there are so many people who do nothing but stay home all day. But I guess everybody's life is different.
Mine as well, I guess I SHOULD move on with it..i AM 18..i AM an adult now...I AM doing into university next year...I don't need this kind of life..this is getting serious, I have a whole future infront of me. I need this, I need this break, away from here, away to be able to adapt to a more subtle life, to be able to be a mature young women who is ready for her future, life and reputation.
Me. Mei Ling. I can do this, it's just the beginning of summer, two months isn't long. This is my decision, my choice, and I will stick to it.