Disclaimer: I don't own Fushigi Yuugi.

REALIZATION

Yui's POV

It has been a long time since the fight of Suzaku and Seriyuu ended. Everything was peaceful now. Miaka was dating with Taka, a guy that really looked like Tamahome. Maybe he was Tamahome; after all he promised to her that he will cross the boundaries that separate them just to be with her. Miaka was really lucky unlike me.

I sighed and sunk myself onto my bed sheets and finally doze off.

"Miko...Miko..." I suddenly heard a very familiar voice.

"Miko...I'll...Miko..." the voice sounds like it's finding something and it kept repeating the word Miko.

"Miko..." I heard it again. I looked around but I can't see a thing. It was all black.

Suddenly I heard someone crying. "Miko...why?" it's a voice of a man crying and something tells me that I've heard it before but where?

Then a blue light dazzled upon my eyes. When I looked at it closely, I saw a man standing. He was looking at me.

"Miko..." he said. Was he one of my seishi?"

He was smiling now. "I'm here...I'm here..." he called and spread his arms.

"I'm here; can't you see me my Miko?" I wonder who he was. What was he talking about?

I woke up that morning when I heard my alarm clock rang next to my ear. I tapped it to shut it off. I slowly got off my bed and faced the mirror. My hair was a big mess when I saw it. I sighed heavily. I took my hair brush on my dressing table when suddenly my eyes caught a light blue ribbon lying on top.

It made me think for a moment. "This ribbon..." I took it from where was it lying. "I thought Suboshi has it."

I sat down on a chair and stared at it for a moment. I could clearly remember how he looks like. His brown hair, tan skin, tall build and the best asset he have was his crystal blue eyes. He really looks tough outside but actually he was really kind. I suddenly giggled.

I stared at the ribbon again. Then some thoughts flashed in my mind.

I have never really known him but it seems that he was just close to me. I can say the he was the loyal seishi that I had. He was always protecting me and always there for me.

Then I remembered the man in my dreams.

My eyes widen as I looked at the ribbon that I was holding. "Was he that man?" I asked myself.

My heart suddenly twinges. He was always taking care of me when Tamahome turned me down. When I felt I was alone he was the one who having the courage to stay with me even though I pushed him away? I used him in my evil deeds, to take Tamahome away from Miaka. I really never realized how much he cares for me when he was still alive.

I looked myself on the mirror. Tears were forming on both sides of my eyes. I tried not to cry but my tears were unstoppable. It flowed down to my cheeks.

"Suboshi..." I blurted. "I can never expect you to wipe away my tears now that you're gone."

I stooped down my head and felt my tears dropped on to my hands on my lap.

I'm the dumbest person alive. I never realized how much you love me and now I can see you Suboshi. I can see you in my heart but the hardest thing I know was that I can never hold you in my arms...

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