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Lynnie

Grissom-

I have no idea how to start this. Or to finish it for that matter. I'm not one to give up a fight and you know that. I'll claw and bite until I win. However, I also know when it's time to stop and cede to the inevitable...

Now would be that time. Better late than never, right? I've been fighting a losing battle while living with one life perk: the thread of hope (corny, I know). What we have- had- have.. it's been amazing, but not what I hope'd for it to be. It doesn't go far enough down to count.

Remember, I'm not sure how I'm suppose to put this...

I hoped that we'd have something... something like you and Catherine have. I'm jealous. I never paid much attention to how much so until I was watching all of you go-karting yesterday. I saw your eyes when you'd look back at her. It was blatenly obvious. I saw them and saw a look you've always given her and never me (or anyone else). It suddenly hit - the way you look at her, the way you act with (and to) her, the way you are able to talk to her with such ease that you have with no other person. Your face is blinding when her and Lindsey are around. Even Lindsay... I think she may be the only child you can interact with without breaking into a sweat. Grissom - Gil, I want you to be happy. While I may qualify as a moth in your collection... Catherine is by far your most prized butterfly.

I can't believe it either.. As a CSI, you'd think I'd have seen the evidence a long time ago...

In the envelope attached to this is my resignation. I dropped this off late this morning so the team wouldn't see me. It would be a little much even for me to admit. I moved once because I thought what I needed was here. I'm going to move now because I know it's not.. I need to leave. When I'm done healing and I'm ready I'll call you guys.

Go to Catherine... slow or fast... whatever. Turn this.. this.. platonic marriage you two have into something amazing.

Well, that's it.. See ya around, Grissom.

Sarah Sidle

Gil Grissom took off his glasses and pinched the bridge of his nose. He couldn't read her in the car on the way to her house last night. As he dropped her off, she gave a small smirk before getting out of the car. Sitting here now, he knows it was her way off saying goodbye. Was it really that obvious with Catherine Willows... They'd been through a lot. He remembered her coming to his house for a few days when Eddie would get really bad or in turn when he went to her house after his surgery. He'd been to all of Lindsey's birthdays and they were together at some point for the holidays. "..platonic marriage.."

"Knock, knock.."

Gil looked up to see the woman from his thoughts right in front of him and he couldn't help but smile at her. "Hello, Catherine."

"Stopped by to get my jacket. Lindsey's occupied with Greg for a minute..."

"Ah.. I was just heading out. I'm supposed to be off."

"I know.. What'cha reading?"

"A letter.. Sarah left. She dropped it off with her resignation this morning." Gil didn't know how Catherine would react. He knew she was hurt when she found out about him and Sarah. They usually had no secrets, but he couldn't tell her. Deep down he guessed he felt a little guilty.

Catherine looked at him. "I see.. You okay?"

"Yeah. For some reason.. I don't know. So what are you and Lindsey up to this evening?"

"Going to pick up pizza and rent some movies. Wanna join us?"

Gil Grissom couldn't think of a better way to spend a night off. "I'll bring the ice cream and popcorn." "...your most prized butterfly.."

FIN