Despairing, she ran to his house. Tears streamed down her face, her heart was surely imploding upon itself. She dug her nails into her palms, wishing she had her beloved razor, wishing she hadn't thrown it away, wishing she hadn't done it for him. As she thought of him, images filled her mind. His burning eyes staring into hers, whispered "I love yous", his large, calloused hands roaming her skin… Pain sliced through her chest, she clenched her eyes shut, as if that would stop the pain, she never imagined anything could hurt so terribly. She let out a whimper, pushing herself to run faster, pushing him out of her mind. Her long brown hair whipped out behind her, her muscles burned in agony, she opened her eyes and collided with something. Large arms caught her before she fell to the ground, large familiar eyes stared down at her. "Bella?" a deep voice asked, full of confusion and worry. Her eyes swam with fresh tears, her voice frail, and very soft, "Jake…", she whimpered painfully, "Jake… make it go away…please!" His brows pulled together in confusion, he held her tighter, pulling her into his chest, "What Bella? I don't understand?" She buried her face in his chest, trying to smother her pain, "Make the pain go away, make him go away, please…." Jake frowned in confusion, and picked her up, bridal style, and brought her inside. She didn't even struggle, she was limp, which worried him more. Bella never liked it when he pushed the boundaries of their friendship, any unnecessary physical contact was forbidden. He brought her up to his bedroom, set her down on the bed, and turned to close the door. When he turned around, Bella was standing right there in front of him. She looked so beautiful, as sick as it was… Her big brown eyes glittered, her cheeks were flushed, her hair was slightly disheveled, her small pink lips quivered, as she took a breath. "Make it go away Jake, if you love me… make it go away" Jake groaned in frustration, "Bella, honey I don't understand. What do you want me to do?" She frowned slightly, her expression hardening. "Kiss me." Jake's jaw dropped open, "W-w-w-hat?" Disbelief colored his tone. "KISS me, Jake! Kiss. Me." She drew in a ragged breath, biting her lip, her eyes fierce. "Kiss me now" Jake's brain whirled, this was what he had wanted for so long, he wanted her, but not like this. She wasn't thinking clearly, she was in pain, she would regret anything he did. He shook his head. "No Bella… I ca-" she interrupted him, her voice soft, pleading, "Please Jake?" She moved closer to him, her lips brushing his, "Please…", she whispered. She stood up on her toes, without warning, and pushed her lips against his.
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