Sometimes Sacrifices Have To Be Made

by BB-Jate-MiSA

[CBPC Entry] Very few people in this world would have done what he did. I’m not glad it was him and I don’t think I’ll ever forgive him for what he did.

Sometimes Sacrifices Have To Be Made.

CBPC Entry

To be honest I thought we would go on forever. You always think that wouldn't happen to me. Those things happen to other people. We were Bones and Booth, a pair. But if I had known what was to come, I never would have taken him for granted.

When I heard, what had taken place it was an out of body experience. I kept asking if they were sure. Sure it was him. But in the back of my mind I knew it was him. Very few people in this world would have done what he did.

It was a tragedy, wrong place, and wrong time scenario. He was in a diner, at the side of a major interstate when a fight erupted between customers. One pulled a pistol and Booth somehow got himself in the middle. More than one person would have died that day, but sometimes sacrifices have to be made. I'm not glad it was him and I don't think I'll ever forgive him for what he did but at least I have the piece of mind that he died a hero.

Looking back on it now I realize how blind I was, no not blind, afraid. I wish more than anything I had just said something, maybe just asked him out for dinner. I can't remember his face now, its blurry; well to be honest everything is blurry nowadays. But I do remember the fun we had, how I could just talk for hours and he didn't have to say anything but I knew he was listening.

No point on dwelling on the past, is what I used to tell myself but now the past is all I have. My future will not be long, the end is near and I can accept that. A lot of things I have just accepted. The man I married, I can accept that he loves me. I tell him I love him too but I will never, not in the way I loved Booth. My husband doesn't know it now and he never will, that is my secret, I will take with me to the grave.

If there is one thing I want…it's not to change the past, but my strongest desire is for my son to know, its not ok settle, never settle for second best when you can have the best. I settled for second best when the best was right under my nose the entire time.

Note: Very sorry my my terrible updates on 'I'll Be Right Back', the next chapter is under way. Thank you so much for your reviews and encouragement. BB-Jate-MiSA