I do not own Camp Rock.
This is a one-shot song fic.
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Song by . . . How Many Times
Mitchie didn't sing at the first Final Jam and Shane forgave Mitchie about the lie she told about her mom. Since Mitchie didn't sing at Final Jam Shane doesn't know that Mitchie is "the girl with the voice." Everything else is the same.
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This was the first time I was singing in public; and the song was about my on and off again boyfriend who was sitting in the front row. The famous Shane Grey from Connect 3.
I walked out on stage once the lights dimmed. I was nervous, the only person who heard this song was Nate who did the music and who was the only person I talked to about my problems with Shane. When I stood at center stage the spotlight was placed on me.
"This song is calling "How Many Times". I hope you like it." Nate was behind the curtain on the keyboard and started playing the notes.
I closed my eyes trying to forget I was on stage and bring forth all the feelings I felt when I was writing this song.
If you were hurt like I was before
Ladies turn up your radio
Cause I'm gonna sing this one for us yeah
See they complain about our attitudes
Talk about the things we do
To me it seems so obvious
They like it, they keep coming back
For more
All the hurt and pain came rushing back. Yelling, tears, anger, and lies played over and over again in my head. I opened my eyes and looked him in the eyes.
You're always so quick to up and criticize
I got my flaws and yes I realize
I've became so hard to deal it
'Cause this part of my heart is so tired
How many times, how many times, how many times
I caught you on the phone with her
I tear fell from my eye as I remember him leaving me alone in his bed to talk on the phone with her and acting like I couldn't hear everything he said to her. Every I love you, every I don't care about her, every time you leave me for her.
How many times, how many times, how many times
Did I take it back and you broke my heart
"We're over Mitchie." Every time he said those words and every time he came running back was more heart ache piling up. Every hateful thing he said to me, every kiss he give her when I'm in the next room over. He broke my relationship with my best friend.
Oh this song knows how I feel
You betrayed my feel
Oh and the moral of the story is
How many times?
How many times?
Our sister, our sister Mary (real love) she used to tell us about this in the 90's
Oh oh I used to say that I'll never be no never never me
But it's 2011, and I feel I can't get any lower (lower)
"I love you baby." I could only wish he would say that to me again, but he stopped. Only to her; only to Caitlyn. My best friend went behind my back and started dating him. "I don't love you Mitchie, I love Caitlyn." Every time he would come back and ask me to be with him. Every time my heart would break.
Take out my anger on any and everybody that comes around
I became so hard to deal with
'Cause this part of my heart is so tired
I couldn't function without letting my anger out on everyone around me because I was too weak to take it out on him or her. I couldn't break it off with him. I loved him. I was in denial.
How many times, how many times, how many times
I caught you on the phone with her
How many times, how many times, how many times
Did I take it back and you broke my heart
Oh this song knows how I feel
You betrayed my feel
Oh and the more of the story is
How many times?
How many times?
I couldn't do this anymore.
How many times must I cry?
(I'm so tired of crying)
How many times have you seen my tears?
I can't cry over him anymore, I can't continue living like this with him.
And how many of yall going
Through the same thing?
I've become so hard to deal with
Cause this part if my heart is so tired (I'm so tired)
My heart is tired of all the pain, cheating, and lies. I lost myself in him and I need to find me again.
How many times, how many times, how many times
Oh I caught you on the phone with her
How many times, how many times, how many times
Did I take you back and you broke my heart
Oh this song know how I feel
You betrayed my love
Oh And the moral of the story is
How many times?
How many times?
I loved him and I cared about him, but I just can't do this. Not anymore.
How many times do I gotta get hurt
To know it never ain't gonna get no better?
How many times, ladies, have you been hurt
And you know in your hear it won't get no better?
You, you
This one's for you
You, you
This one's for you
When I was finished singing I wiped my face free of the tears with my hand, smiled at the audience, and walked off the stage. I could felt lighter. I felt like my soul could finally be free from all the pain I've been through for the past year. When I got behind the curtain Nate pulled me into his arms.
"Are you alright?" He asked slowing rubbing my back as a few more tears fell.
"I feel good. So much lighter."
"He's crazy to treat you the way he did Mitchie." I pulled away when I heard two sets of foot step approaching.
"Mitchie," Shane said when he reached us with Caitlyn behind him. "You were the girl I was looking with last year." He pulled me into a hug and kissed the top of my head.
I shook my head and pulled away from him and stood next to Nate. "That's great," I gave a dry laugh. "You find the girl with the voice once she breaks up with you."
"Come on Mitch, you know I love you." He gave a small smile that I use to love, but now just irritated me.
"No Shane, the only person you love is Shane Grey. I'm tired Shane, I can't go through this again." I tear fell down my face.
"I just found you Mitchie, I can't lose you."
A tearful laughed broke out of my mouth and I shook my head. "You had me for a whole year Shane. I'm the same girl you constantly broke up with for her best friend. The one you mistreated, yelled at, pushed away. The same one who heart you broke over and over again." I ran a hand through my hair out of frustration. "I can't, I can't love you anymore Shane. I can't love someone who doesn't love me. I can only take so much until I finally give up and you broke be, constantly belittling me, criticizing everything I do, cheated on." Nate placed his arm around my shoulders to comfort me and Shane eyes locked on it. "I'm done. Being with you changed me and not in a good way. I will never be that girl you made me ever again." I moved Nate arm from around my shoulder, placed my arm around his waist, and walked away with my head on his shoulder, leaving both Shane and Caitlyn.
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