Title: My Own Personal Sunshine

Rating: M

Pairing: Ichigo x Ryou

Summary: This wasn't the way she thought her life would end… but now she was here she couldn't think of any other way for it to end. But little did she know it was just the beginning.

Disclaimer: I don't own Tokyo Mew Mew

OK so here is the deal. I have written a fair few chaps for this story and I am going to upload them one at a time... maybe two at a time if your lucky. But the only way your going to be able to read the next chaps is if your REVIEW! :) Hope you like my story!

Chap 1 ~ The End & A New Beginning

This wasn't the way she thought her life would end… but now she was here she couldn't think of any other way for it to end. Pain blinded her thoughts as she lay motionless on the cold hard cement. She couldn't even remember how she got here or how this had happened.

All she could remember was pain… ripping through her body like nothing she had ever felt before in her seventeen years alive. She knew the job that had been forced upon her when she had willingly became a Mew would come with the risk of a few broken bones here and there.

But this…

What she was feeling right now was more than anything she could have ever imagined. She had always thought of herself as the strong one… the one that was meant to hold the group together. And over the past three years of being a Mew she had done exactly that without a second thought to what it would do to her own well being.

Unknown to anyone else she took her role as the leader very seriously. And that included helping her friends that had quickly became like sisters to her when they were hurt physically and or mentally. She wasn't even sure if Shirogane or Keiichiro knew of the one power she had received when she became a Mew that she kept from the others.

This power unlike her others that she used to inflict pain was used for the exact opposite. This power let her take away her friends physical and mental and absorb it into her own body so it would be her that would have to deal with the pain that not only had been inflicted on herself but also everyone else.

The other Mews simply thought that it was something to do with their Mew genes and it aloud them to heal faster than normal humans could. But little did they know it was her that was relinquish them all from the pain so they wouldn't have to feel the agony that she felt almost every day.

She knew that even though she was a Mew didn't mean her body wasn't some what human. And over a long period of time like three years for instants taking in all that physical and mental pain had taken a tole on her body that no one knew about.

It had started off as a few little aches and pains here and there, nothing that effected her daily routine. But then after the first year it had become a little bit more intense at least once a week she would be unable to get up without cringing in pain. Her limbs would then regularly start to lock up and her legs would start to give way causing her to fall to the ground which would only cause her more pain.

If anyone asked she would just pass it off as clumsiness which everyone bought into without a second thought that no one could be that clumsy.

After the halfway point into the second year of being a Mew she started to develop different symptoms. It started off with dizziness and then turned into a few fainting spells ever now and then. But that was before it turned into something much more.

It was like she was waking up from a deep sleep but in reality she was already awake. She wouldn't be able to remember certain things… little things. Like what day it was. But then it turned into her forgetting things like what month it was before it finally turned so bad she wouldn't be able to remember what year it was.

But none of this scared her and she just excepted it without giving it a second thought knowing that if she was going to keep her healing powers a secret than she couldn't go around telling anyone.

Somewhere in the back of her mind a small voice was telling her that what she was doing was suicide but she had always ignored it pushing it into the deepest darkest corner of her mind.

That was until now.

Now that small voice had become very loud and taken over all her thoughts telling her what she had done to herself was suicide and now she was going to face the full consequences of her actions.

So as she lay god knows where unable to remember where she was anymore she couldn't help but let a small very weak smile grace her lips. If this was how she was going to die the only thing she was going to regret was that she wouldn't be able to take her friends pain away anymore.

Letting her eyes give into the heaviness of her eyelids she let them flutter closed as the she felt the warm liquid she already knew was her own blood pool around her limp form.

She could feel it trickling out of her nose and from the side of her mouth dropping down to the ground. She could also feel not only the new wounds but also the old wounds start to open up again spilling more and more of her blood out around her seeping through her already blood stained clothes dampening them even more than they already were.

She knew how awful she must look laying here on the ground her leg arched into a strange position, her clothes damp with her blood, her face pale from the blood loss and her hair knotty and half hanging in her face plus covered in dirt and fresh blood.

But she really didn't care about her appearance right now because she could feel it coming now. The darkness was starting to creep its way over her already weak mind engulfing it into the pure blackness she had sworn to herself she would never let take her.

But it was to late to think about that now and that once small voice that now sounded so loud was the only thing keeping her inches away from death. She could hear the weak barely noticeable heartbeat that only just reached her ears as she used the rest of her strength fighting back the darkness for as long as her beaten body would allow her to.

It felt like forever but finally the battle was one… and this time she was not the one who was victorious. So as her mind went limp along with her already limp body she only just registered the voice that called out to her before she let the darkness take her.

"ICHIGO!"

That was the last thing she heard before it was finally over.

Because today was the day she died.