A/N: Before You read this, I'm letting you know that I don't own Glee. Lol if I did, I'm sure the plot and heartache would be minimal or something. Characters are probably OOC and I'll probably class this as AU as Rachel only has a crush on Finn and nothing more. Now that's out of the way, enjoy.
Can you imagine yourself dying? Quinn could.
Maybe it wasn't as bad as she thought, after all, these feelings Quinn felt were natural for a woman her age. No one truly knew who they was when they were this age. But of all people to awaken the sense of something she'd never felt before. Not only was it questioning her taste in women, but her sanity. Could she really have a crush on someone so . . . plain and annoying?
Quinn ran her fingers through her silky blonde hair and let her hands linger on her head for a second before walking out of the girl's toilets, her head looking down at her rose-patterned skirt that matched her red cashmere cardigan. Although she wouldn't normally wear these types of clothes, it was freezing in McKinley. Though not freezing enough not to wear a skirt. She picked it out just hoping that she'd noticed.
As if god himself was listening, no other than the person Quinn was thinking about brushed passed her, their head bent low and their study books close to their chest, as if they were invaluable objects that could cause the world to crumble or to bloom in to Eden.
"Sorry" was what Quinn wanted to say, even though she had no reason to apologise, but what came out was a strangled 'uh' instead. She had already started to lose words around her. How pathetic. She wasn't like this with Finn, though then again Finn never truly made her feel like how this woman was making her feel. Annoyed was mostly how she felt about Finn now. He's such an idiot.
Quinn watched her go by, watching the way her shoulder's hunched over. The way her deep purple sweater hugged her upper body so tightly she was surprised the girl wasn't struggling to breath. But Quinn's gazed wondered to the girl's lower half, looking as if in a trance at how the girl walked. She was noticing how tall her legs were and how firm her behind looked in a pair of sky blue short shorts. Soon Quinn felt herself beginning to fluster. She continued staring as the girl moved her left foot in front and then her right, and Quinn couldn't help but feeling that she was looking at a fashion model on a runway. Without realising, Quinn was biting down on her lower lip, her eyes still on the back of the girl that made her question her being, amongst other things.
When all of a sudden the girl stops walking in the hallway and turns to look at her.
It's like a knock to the chest as soon as their eyes meet, and Quinn looks away hoping that the girl doesn't catch her staring. So what if their eyes met for a mere second, for all the girl knew, Quinn could have just glanced up at her.
But then the girl starts walking towards Quinn. Panicked, Quinn side stepped away from the girl's toilet door and quickly starting walking to her own locker, trying not to look as if she was running away from the girl.
Quinn glanced back and saw the girl was still following her. Quinn hoped that the girl would stop following her and just forget about her and turn back and continue on with her day. It's not like the girl won't see Quinn again. In fact she'll see Quinn after this period.
But the girl continues to follow Quinn until she's at her locker.
As the bell rings, the girl is upon Quinn and by her side. The girl is a little too close that her right arm is brushing Quinn's own, which makes Quinn feel slightly happy but also uncomfortable. Quinn didn't really like being close to Finn. Ever since the incident with his breath, Quinn was distant with a lot of her friends. All because of Finn and his tuna and garlic breath. But maybe she'd change if it was this girl that was so dangerously close to her.
"Hey Quinn" said Rachel, her voice sounding strangely soft and gentle to Quinn's ears.
Quinn cleared her throat and decided to turn off her emotions immediately. She can't show Rachel Berry how much she's crushing on her. Was this what was happening? Was she actually Crushing on Rachel Berry? Preposterous. However, weirder things have happened.
Quinn instantly puts on her "Oh god, not you" mask that she's worn around Rachel for as long as she can remember and turns to her, her eyes staring holes into Rachel's smooth-looking forehead and her mouth a thin line.
"What do you want Berry?" said Quinn, her tone so icy that it could send shivers down spines of most people.
But Rachel starts to smile, her evenly bright white teeth showing, and Quinn's mask falters for a second, and only a second, before its back again.
"I just thought I'd say sorry for bumping in to you!" said Rachel and goes to rest her hand on Quinn's shoulder but frowns when she remembers that she can't and put's it back around the books that are close to her chest.
"It's fine, really" Quinn said and she lets her mask soften and her tone become less icy.
"It's not! I should have been watching where I was going-"
"Honestly Berry, its fine"
Quinn turned to watch as Rachel lowered her gaze to her shoes, and suddenly a dull ache began to form in her chest, along with a slight tightness. Because Rachel was so close to her, Quinn could smell her perfume. It's smelt of something sweet that reminded Quinn of strawberries, but also something fresh, something like roses. She was so close to touch, that Quinn could practically stick out her tongue and lick Rachel's lips, her tongue starting from the corners of her mouth to slowly around the edges of her bottom lip and then making its way to her upper lip before finally brushing her own lips on to Rachel's.
The thought stayed in Quinn's mind, the amount of scenario's playing in her head ranging to other ways her tongue could be used on Rachel's body, until the feeling of eyes on her face snapped her from her daydream.
"Quinn?" said Rachel, her eyebrow's slightly raised.
"Huh?" said Quinn, turning back to face her locker.
"Are you okay? You seem preoccupied" said Rachel, her voice sounding worried.
"I'm fine" Quinn started to fiddle with her locker space, arranging the books in her locker, anything to not look at that face.
"Quinn, you were just drooling"
Quinn slammed her locker door shut, making Rachel flinch slightly. Quinn turned to face Rachel, her face showing her "What do you want. Now" mask, and watched as Rachel started to stammer.
"I-I was just pointing out that something was wrong and that maybe you wanted to talk about it, I mean you honestly haven't been yourself in Glee Club because you've suddenly started looking at me with these intense eyes and I was thinking that since we're sort of friends that we could discuss what was the problem and move forward"
Quinn laughed mockingly, her eyes looking from her locker back to Rachel. "The amount of times I've told you that I'm fine is more than enough Berry. I admit, I may be out of it for a while because of problems that I have to face myself, however I do not need your friendship, nor do I need you to point out that I've now got dry saliva on the corners of my mouth" Quinn started rubbing the corners of her mouth
"Well it's actually on your chin-"
"The point is" said Quinn, cutting Rachel off before she could finish, and wiping the drool off her chin before dropping her hand to her side. "Is that I don't need you looking out for me. I'm fine, Berry. Don't make a big deal out of it" and like that, she left a puzzled Rachel Berry by her locker, and walked away towards her next class.
But Quinn wasn't expecting Rachel to accompany her towards the class door.
"Quinn" said Rachel, her voice firm.
The clicking of Rachel's high heels made Quinn stop and turn to face her.
Rachel was staring up at Quinn with the same puzzled expression, her mouth slightly ajar, with a crease in her perfect forehead and her hazel eyes that reminded Quinn of chestnuts roasting in a fire.
"I know that we haven't been friends for long" said Rachel, starting off low, but when she saw Quinn avert her gaze, she raised her voice a little higher "And I know that we've had our differences in the pass but I thought that we were moving forward? That we were actually getting along . . . that maybe you were actually my friend" Rachel trailed off and lowered her gaze.
It was just the two of them in the McKinley hall now. Everyone had gone to class except them. They were alone. The body heat of all the warm bodies that were in the McKinley hall was dying like a flame left out in a storm, where the batting of the relentless wind tries to extinguish it.
Quinn looks around them, hoping that no one is listening, or even in the vicinity. She looks at Rachel with a softer face now, discarding the mask that she always wore, and replaces it with a simpler one. Her true face: the one that stares at Rachel intently with a level of respect, admiration and an unknown quantity of lust. Quinn smiles at Rachel and puts her hand under her chin and tilts it up softly.
Rachel looked up at Quinn with confusion and was about to speak when Quinn hushes her and put her index finger to her Rachel's lips.
The action made Quinn gulp and her body shiver.
"We are friends, Berry" Quinn started off in a whisper, her index finger now stroking Rachel's lips. "But I don't want to be friends. I want something lasting. Friendship is easy to come by. Relationships though"
Quinn watches as Rachel's face turns a bright shade of pink and her eyes can't seem to meet Quinn. Rachel's eyes are wide with shock and her books drop to the floor.
Quinn wondered if she was doing the right thing. It wasn't only a second ago that she was trying not to show her feelings to this girl and get rid of her. But why did she suddenly decide to go for it now, of all times? Was it because there wasn't prying eyes and the voices of idiots surrounding her that she finally worked up the courage to speak to her?
No, it was because Quinn knows herself better than anyone else. Quinn knows that she wants Rachel Berry. She's always taken the initiative to get what she wants. She's done it with every guy she's dated. She's thought about them and wondered what they'd look like on her arm, to see the faces in the hallways drop in amazement that she got the guy they've all wanted; to feel superior to those underneath her.
But why Rachel Berry? She wasn't a guy and neither did she make others feel superior when they were next to her, instead on more than one occasion, the only things Quinn's felt when next to Rachel Berry is the stinging sensation of strawberry slushy on her face and tangled hair. But that's in the hallways.
Rachel made Quinn feel special in a way that no other person has made her feel. She's made Quinn feel hope and happiness that she never found in her past. Everything about Rachel Berry made Quinn feel safe. And that's why Quinn needs Rachel. To feel something good.
Quinn thinks of this in the few seconds she has, and looks at Rachel, her face still pink.
"I may regret this, but at least you'll know what's been wrong with me and why I've been staring at you so intently" said Quinn, her voice as soft as cotton and as low as the humming of a car engine.
Quinn stopped stroking Rachel's lips and stared at her, her chest heaving as she took a much needed deep breath, and a smile spreads to her lips.
"Rachel Berry. I think I'm crushing on you"
A/N: How was that? Was that good? Hopefully it was so that you can leave a review and tell me what you liked and what you didn't like, I'm always willing to listen =). Anyway, here's what I want to explain to you guys that have read it to the end.
This isn't a one shot or anything, it's actually going to be chapter-like. the catch? I'm going to upload the chapters the same day's Glee airs. Basically I have this as a schedule.
Remember, Glee comes on every Tuesday at 9/8C so I'll be releasing the chapters every Tuesday at a similar time.
The second catch? I'm from the UK which means that 9/8C for me is 2AM, so Releases could be delayed. I just thought I'd share that with you guys and let you know that it'll be updated every Tuesday unless stated otherwise.
I really hope you guys enjoyed the first chapter and uhh, yeah that's it. enjoy!