Hey! Well, I wrote this a long time ago, but I just got it posted. This is about how Kikyo feels so alone and betrayed. Everything she had known is gone. She is dead and she finds that all of her loved ones have moved on...Have replaced her. This is told from her point of view and I think that this is how she really feels, even if she doesn't say it in the show. Well, that's all. I hope you enjoy!
Note: I used to be a huge Kikyo hater. But now I know just how she feels and I understand why she wants Inu-Yasha dead and why she hates Kagome. C'mon, guys. I know you'd probably feel the same way. Well, if you hate Kikyo, read this anyway. Perhaps it shall change your mind about this tragic priestess.
Disclaimer: Inu-Yasha belongs to Rumiko Takahashi (I think that's how you spell it...). I own nothing. The first quote is actually from the show, said by Kikyo. It belongs to Takahashi as well.
"Before I die.... just one more time... I wanted to feel that I had hope."
Why? Why is it that all that I wished for, all that I wanted, was robbed from me? Why can I not have what I wish for? Why is it all gone from me? Inu-Yasha....I did not betray you. I was tricked by Naraku. I could have saved myself from death, but I chose to go to Hell so that I would be with you. I am brought back to the land of the living to find you alive and already in love with another woman. My reincarnation. She is a fake, Inu-Yasha! Do not trick yourself into thinking that she is me. I know that you do. When you look at her, you see my reflection. Why not ask her if she remembers our first kiss or the way you used to hold me? Why not ask her about the time when you first told me that you loved me? Does she remember? Ah, she does not. Because she was not there. Because she is not me.
I have come back to the land of the living against my will. I did not wish to come back. I did not wish to come back to this land, my home, that has changed so much. I did not wish to see the one whom I loved so much fall for another woman, one who resembles me so much, yet is so different. She may look like me, she may have my powers and the Shikon no Tama, and she may even have part of my soul...But she does not possess my heart nor my mind. She does not have the same emotions, the same thoughts, the same life. She is not me. Yet, it seems as if she has now taken my place for all of those I left behind. I died, so you find a girl who looks like me and allow her to take my place? I am gone so you replace me? Am I that easy to replace?
You have all left me.
All of you.
Inu-Yasha...You left me for Kagome. And my dearest younger sister, Kaede...you defend Inu-Yasha when you should be on your sister's side. I just want to live a peaceful life here. I just want to be left alone from all this hatred, from Naraku. I want to be able to restart in a new village and become the greatly loved Priestess Kikyo once again. But I cannot, for I scare off all those who start to care for me. They find out that I am supposed to be in the land of the dead, that I do not belong here with them. And then Sayo...One who resembled my beloved sister so. I did not wish for you to have to see that. I did not wish for you to have to carry that memory throughout your life. I loved you so much, Sayo. I thought that Kaede was back with me, back before that fateful day...And then I scared you off. Sayo, forgive me.
Don't you understand?! All of you! Forgive me for all that I have done! Forgive me for becoming what I am! Forgive me for betraying you. Do not return the deed. I do not wish to feel betrayed both in death and life. I just wish to be loved. Just loved. I wish to go back to Hell. Please. Let me go back. Let me go back to where I belong. Please.
Please.