Disclaimer: I don't own Durarara! Why? ! Nah but it's okay, Shizu-chan is willingly to accompany me to the game center! I'll beat him in Tekken! /certainly not going to happen

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Prologue: Pace

Slower.

This is getting slower.

The earth.

The earth is getting its rotation and resolution moving slower in a gradual pace. This is getting bored. Old.

But I don't care. The earth is not my concern.

The earth is not my world.

Even though I love the most perfect living being inside it. Humans. Bible said that they are the perfect living creature the God ever created. And the fact is, they are imperfect, it's the truth. The truth I've always held in my palms. The truth I've always believe.

The truth I've always interested in.

I love watching them from afar. Inspecting their action and reaction towards each other. Taking notes of their behave. Laughing at their foolishness. Sending some happiness and also despair. Changing their world upside down, better or worse. Grasping their futures.

Yes, I'm the God.

Their God.

Controlling them and guide them, taking them to whatever way I've chosen for them. Giving them chances, good or bad. Giving them hope, fake or real. Deciding their fate, die or alive, hell or heaven.

That's my world.

That's where I live in.

The dark side of their world, their human world. From here I could lead them, patching them together pieces by pieces like some scattered puzzle. Move them one by one like pawns on my chessboard. And burn them like useless, hopeless bunch of garbages.

My world is different.

Because I'm not even human.

Neither a monster.

I'm not the same species as them.

I'm but Orihara Izaya.

But then, there something in my world that keep making it imperfect. 'A piece of puzzle' that's not fit in its place, when I give 'it' some pressure, force 'it' with all my strength, 'it' just bounced out, slipped from my hand, scattered the pieces around it. Something that I can't control. Something that beginning to twist my world bit by bit. Making me re-arrange my own world that 'it' wrecks without even realized how much damage he'd done to my world. I keep getting rid of it, it'll always come back. Interfering with my plan to make my world, 'mine'.

No matter how fast I run away from him..

This monster could always found me.

Heiwajiwa Shizuo.

Yes, he's not a human either, nor a God like me, he doesn't intelligent enough to control the lowlifes. But I hate him. I hate him for crushing my plans. I hate him for destroying my human's future that I've chosen for them. I hate him because he's against me. I hate him for his unpredictable acts. I hate him because he's not human and I don't have any control above him.

I hate him because he's interfering with my humans.

I hate him because he's not mine.

I hate him because I can't make him become mine.

He's not mine. He's not anyone. He's not the God's. He's individual. He owns himself. The only one that's not in my grasp. The only one that cannot be held by my hands.

But I love him.

I'm the God, love him, love a monster, a lower being than my lowlifes.

I love him, because he's the one who would oppose me.

I love him, because he's not afraid of me.

I love him, because he entertains me.

I love him, because he's not the same with the others.

I love him, because he's having everything that I lacked of.

I love him, because he'd always shown me something that beyond my expectation.

I love him, because he's a monster.

I love him, because he's the only thing I hate in my world.

I love him, because he's the one that always stays being himself.

I always do love him. I got even more love him when I knew he won't ever love me back. I'm a God, but he makes me feel human. He cracks my world. Crushing every pieces through his chases of me. Making me fall into the deepest realm of adoring him.

He makes me feel alive.

I love him for that whole reason.

I was hoping he knew, but, my world, and also the earth turning too slow for me. Our usual game of cat and mouse suddenly got ended faster than I hoped it would be. I was always preferred to be a watcher and wait for him to catch me, and now he always waits for me to be caught by him. I remembered back then he's always gasping for air and I'll be gave my winning smile to him, but now, it's not too hard seeing me trying so much to breathe and then some worry flickering in his mocha eyes.

Why?

Why the God like me have to feel this way?

I'll kept running until my last breath, because if I stopped I'm afraid he'll catch me and then this game will end and bore him, because he's hating me and all his desires is just telling him to kill me, get rid of me from his sight. I'm trying so much. I'm trying so much to keep any bond with him. Trying so much to keep him thinking about me. Filling his brain and dream about me, even it's just because he hated me.

But I am not afraid about him going to kill me. What I'm afraid of is because if he caught me and killed me, I won't be able to see his face, touch his body, feel his warmth or hear his voice. I'm really afraid. And that's the reason I've keep running away from him.

I'm really afraid he left me behind.

I'm really afraid, when I no longer could run away from him.

I'm really afraid, when I'm the one who should chase him.

I'm too afraid because this humanous feeling flooded my insides. Tearing my title as a God from myself. Peeling my mask of arrogance. Cornered me, making me questioned myself, what am I exactly?

I hope this era of me being a human is never came.

I hope I would stay as a God.

I hope time would keep like this forever.

I hope he won't know about this feeling.

And even though I don't believe there's any God beside myself, I pray, I pray for my world, to stay as it is. Don't change. Don't change me. Don't change the time. Don't change my humans.

Don't change Shizu-chan.

Don't change the bond I've worked so hard to be as close to his heart.

Even though it's just a bundle of hatred and grudge.

I know I'm just a coward. I'm just a flea, who keeps running away. I don't want to face outside of my world. I want to keep in control. Keep to be in the highest place where I could always be a watcher.

I do that because I've realized. And I'm afraid.

It's not the earth that getting slower.

Nor my world.

Nor my Shizu-chan.

It's me.

It's just a single me.

The God itself.

Such a gloomy mood Iza-kun.. pfff-

FIUHYAY! Yeaaaah, I know I haven't finished my other fic, 'That's why I hate fanfic, Shizu-chan' UvU;

But I just got the idea when I was… pooped.. *terrible timing indeed*

Anyway this is just the prologue, and this one is going to be angst! Yeah! Um, actually It's my first time doing angst but don't worry, this won't be all gloomy like this prologue, I still give my best to make it as warm as possible~ Oh, also, this one is a rated T and it's… 'safe' huahahahaha!

And I still continue doing 'I hate fanfic' don't worry! Teheee~ Please wait for the next chappie! I'll submit it together with the fifth chappie of 'I hate fanfic'!

Thanks for reading~!