Last Goodbyes
I never wanted this, to leave you, Rukia, so soon, I never wanted to die like this, but I wouldn't want it any other way. I always knew though, I always had this feeling that the day I'd die it would be for you and with you by my side. But I never thought I wouldn't be able to say my goodbyes. But I guess we all can't have what we want.
From the day I first met you, Rukia, you turned my life around, each day I died more and more until you came and gave me the power to protect the ones I held dearest to my heart, the ones I love, just like you.
You gave me strength; no you were my strength, my will to go on living a life that I had abandoned oh so long ago when my mother died. It was you, Rukia, who saved me, not me who saved you. My life would've been a living hell had I never met you, had you never come, I would've died so much earlier than this.
You say that these scars are your fault, that I would've been so much better off without you, you said that I was stubborn and stupid, and yeah Rukia, I may be all of those things, but you accepted me none the less, you didn't judge me by my hair color, but who I am and who I have become because of you.
Don't blame yourself, my fait was sealed a long time ago, there was nothing you could have done about it. I know it'll be hard for you in the future, but you will have to try, promise me Rukia, that you will try not only for me, but for yourself because I'll live on within your heart and in your memories, just like I always did.
It would be wrong to ask you to wait for me, so I won't. Don't stop smiling, Rukia, it is really amazing, the way you smile, so please don't stop for me, heck I recommend you do it more, there's so much that I want to say, but there is so little time left to say it all.
So in the end I guess all I can do is thank you so…
Thank you, Rukia, for everything that you have done for me. Everything you have helped me become. You make the rain in my heart stop falling and that's all that matters. You asked me one last question "What did you want in life, Ichigo?" It took me a while to get the strength to say my last words but I just thought that you should know that… Before I close my eyes to rest in an eternal slumber, all I really wanted in life, Rukia, was to love you.
Now that my time has come, I am not sad, I have no regrets except that I waited too long to say this to you…Rukia, I love you.