Silver Tears

Chap Chap # 1- Depression

DISCLAIMER: DON'T OWN INUYASHA. IF I DID, KIKYOU WOULDN'T HAVE EVER EXSISTED OR WOULDN'T HAVE COME BACK! SORRY KIKYOU FANS, BUT I THINK YOU'RE OUT NUMBERED.

Depression, when the darkness of one's heart consumes the entire soul. It has lead to death in many ways, death of body and death of soul. The consuming of one's morality is a stage in every life, some are blessed enough to overcome the bitter shade with help of others' purity and heart. Those are the souls who aren't alone in this haze-covered world. Others aren't so lucky. I have been in that dark abyss before, where everything turns into your greatest fears, you are overcome by the permafrost that layers your core until you go completely numb to everything, no feelings whatsoever. Little did I know that my savior from the icy hell would be the one who would cruelly thrust me back into it. The one who obtained my hope, my trust and even though I hate it, my thawed heart. The fates, no HE toyed with me, making me vulnerable, how typical of my supposive life. Everyone's supposed to have a purpose in life; I'm guessing mine is to be screwed with for entertainment of those who look down at me. The onlookers seem to be growing in numbers. What fun. I have no idea why I don't consider suicide an option. I suppose that it's because suicide seems too easy, too weak, not that I'm strong anymore. No, weakness is superficial and strength is surreal. I don't want the pity that some of the so-called people provide, it just means that their way of "life" is to look down on others, even those who have an uncorrupted essence. My heart was not only broken, but also frozen, again. Once more, I relived the memory of my misfortune.

FLASHBACK:

A beautiful 15 year-old girl with a-little-past-the-butt raven hair and stunning silver-ish gray eyes walked out of her Kyoto, private school cheerfully. Her life was going great, for once! She had been able to live on her own (besides her pets), she was extremely smart, beautiful and physical in addition to her many talents and she had a wonderful boyfriend who, she thought, loved her back. The stunning young woman strutted down the sidewalk, smiling and humming beautifully. Her hair was pulled up into two low pigtails and her short uniform skirt showed off her tan, long legs. Any and every guy wanted her, but knew she was taken by a silver-haired hanyou.

She stopped to wait for him to drive her home like he always did. She waited and waited, but he didn't come. So she called his cell phone…he had turned it off. 'Why would he do something like that? Crap! He might be sick! I better go check on him, just in case.' That's when she heard something in the very tall bushes. She cautiously walked over to see what it was. She looked through the bushes and gasped in pure horror.

"Inuyasha, did my plan work? Have you been able to get her to fall in love with you? You know I missed you a lot. For a while there it looked as though you started to REALLY love her. But you wouldn't ever do such a thing. Now, can you go find her so her soul can be mine? After all, you want me to stay beautiful don't you?" the hated Kikyou said, tracing a circle on his chest.

"Anything for you, my love." Inuyasha said bending down to kiss her, but he had a spark of regret and sorrow in his golden orbs.

"I-Inuyasha………H-how could you?" She finally was able to make out. Then, she began to grow angry, "I can't believe I trusted you a-whole! After you said that you LOVED me! I can't believed you tricked me!" She began to feel tears threatening to fall. 'I feel like I want to puke!'

"K-Kagome?" Inuyasha stuttered, still holding Kikyou by the waist. Kikyou smirked and said, "He won't have to find you now. Inuyasha, love, would you bring me her soul?"

"Get the hell away from me! I won't let a –itch like you have my soul!" Kagome said, starting to run. Inuyasha chased after her. She ran extremely fast for a human. Finally, he caught her by her arm. She gasped in pain as his claws pierced her skin, causing her to bleed and fall. Suddenly, a silver fire surrounded her, making the hanyou jump back. Icy, silver tears burned her soft cheeks, as the dam broke loose. She stood up, her knees weak and her whole body trembling. Her eyes were filled with indescribable hate and agony. He felt a twinge of guilt, but still tried to grasp her in his claws. She surprisingly punched him hard in the face, and then round the house kicked him in the gut. He eventually passed out. She took that opportunity to leave.

END

Now, I'm sitting here, wishing that time itself would stop. But time will never stop nor will it rewind or fast-forward its self. At least not for the child of no past and depression. No, not for me.