Author's note: Hey! Welcome to my first attempt at writing this could be disastrous but ah well lets give it a try! Just want to preface this by saying I've never done anything like this but thought it would be fun (we'll see haha), so this fic is basically my way of getting started, I chose this title cause, well, who doesn't have insecurities? I figured why not try and apply it to some bladers – this will mostly included the obvious ones and each will get a short chapter to themselves. I'm going to be realistic and say that I can't cover every character just whoever I think I can apply the title to (I might even try different headings in the future depending on how much free time I have).

So this first one is going to be Kai cause I have had some headcanons for a while now so why not J. Also these are set during the in between bits of V-force and G-rev and perhaps post G-rev.

Disclaimer: the rights of Beyblade belong to Takao Aoki.

Insecure was never exactly a word Kai would have associated himself. Prideful? Yes. Sure of his intentions? Yes. Insecure? What exactly did he have to be insecure about? Sure, his formative years had been taken away quite callously away by those who should have had his best interests at heart, it happened, it was in the past and of course he could have sat everyday thinking about it and wishing things were different. He didn't ask for it, Tala, Bryan, Sergei and Ivan, they certainly didn't ask for things to have gone the way they had but like them Kai decided the only option left was to move on and not dwell on the past, he unknowingly took a page out of Tyson's book and opted to make the best of his future.

Still we all have those little insecurities that bite away at us and Kai himself knew he was no exception to this. So this brings us the current state we see the former Bladebreaker in. Sitting and staring aimlessly at the group of individuals before him in the dojo's backyard with varying forms of 'water sports', if that's what Tyson, Max and Daichi were calling slipping, screaming and shouting. He cast his eyes over to Rei, the Chinese blader opted for sitting on the sidelines. It was a gloriously and annoyingly hot day for the Pheonix blader he loved the heat but this was borderline sickening. All the boys had chose to forgo wearing shirts, even the modest Rei sat in a pair of swim trunks as did the rest, except Kai. Kai decided the most socially acceptable way of being cool but still covered was a t-shirt and shorts.

"You are officially insane" Tyson commented to Kai as he walked past the moody blader to the kitchen to get his sixth glass of orange juice that day.

"I don't see how Tyson I've barely moved all morning what could I possibly have done to warrant the insanity today?" Kai threw back sarcastically, not in the mood to be riled up by the younger teen.

"You have to be insane to be sitting there WITH a shirt on, come on Kai are you afraid that I have a better six-pack? Well at least you don't have your scarf on I suppose that makes it better"

"Tyson I'm just saving you from embarrassment by leaving it on" and with that the older teen got up and disappeared inside.

Kai walked down the hallway of the dojo and decided he could at least cool off with a shower. He desperately wanted to be sitting in the cool with no shirt on, not that he would tell Tyson that. Stripping the White material off he stood in front of the mirror assured himself that he would in fact put Tyson to shame with his perfect physique. He was content enough with his body and didn't see that he needed to prove that to anyone but at the same time it wouldn't be a major factor in joining the others. Rather than ponder on that Kai turned awkwardly in the mirror to get a better view of his back and grimaced when he saw the litany of scars that marred his back. "Yeah that's why" he thought and cast his mind back to the darker Abbey days. Each scar held a memory, some significantly darker than the others, some from failure (in Boris' eyes), some from training – they all varied. He realised that they were probably his biggest insecurity. Kai accepted that as a team they all had their scars to bare, especially considering the battles they had been through, Hell he even realised that he was somewhat jealous of Rei being able to sit a flaunt those he had received from his match with Bryan all those years ago.

But then again why would Rei be afraid of showing them, they all knew how they happened, Kai was more unhappy about the fact that if he went out there, scars blazing he would undoubtedly be inundated with questions and while he had come to accept his teammates as a mini made-up family and had definitely grown to be more open with them there were still parts of his past he felt were better off not shared.

"You know… there's a cream type thingy my mom used to use of stretch marks…" Max interjected and startled Kai in the process. He visible jumped by the American's remark and inwardly chastised himself for not checking he had locked the door.

"What are you talking about" Kai instantly put up his usual front of 'I don't care' and 'why are you talking to me?' but couldn't deny that he was somewhat intrigued by the thought of what Max had to offer.

"Your scars Kai, I just happened to be walking by and I seen the way you're judging them. If you don't like them why not try and fix them?" Max's always tried to put his friends best intentions forward and Kai was somewhat happier that it had been Max that caught him and not one of the others who surely would have bombarded him with questions.

"It's not that simple Max I don't think there's a 'miracle' cure to get rid of these"

"I know that Kai but would you not be willing to try something? For your own self esteem? Personally I don't care that you have scars but if it would make you feel better surely you'd want to try it?"

He hated to admit that Max had a point but nonetheless he shrugged of the teen's kid suggestion with a "yeah ill think about it" and continued about his business, locked the door and had his shower.

The next day Kai decided to take the advice of the blond and found himself rather awkwardly browsing the local pharmacy shelves cursing under his breath that the cream Max suggested would have to be in the 'feminine and maternal care' section.

"So you took my advice! I have to say im flattered that the mighty Kai actually listened to me!" Max exclaimed a little to loudly and cheerfully for the Phoenix wielder's liking.

"A word of this to anyone and you die" with that Kai made his way on about his business, secretly thankful for someone to have helped him, it was these types of thought and care from his teammates that he didn't despise.

Sooo that's it! I was surprised that I was able to ramble on for longer than 200 words. If you liked it or anything please leave a message or reply of any kind I'm happy to hear feedback and stuff. Next up will probably be Hilary but I don't know when exactly, hopefully some time soon!

Thanks for reading anyway!