Entirely Myself
Entirely in Vain
To say before one dies
That life flows through one's eyes
Cannot be a falsehood
For I can see.
I damn the muse
That gives me thought
This is my chaos
And I seek my dharma
Completeness of nothingness.
Grey silence when chaos burns out.
It began thirty decades ago
A rune gave to me a face not my own
He gave to me his destiny
Then I was spirited
From the circle of hell
He would have to find
Another puppet
The earth complied
And wind defied
The coming years were a heavy
Burden on my heart
Because the world's days are numbered.
Because the world is going to end.
Because God is a cruel bastard.
Because the runes are his instrument.
And we are all pawns
Trapped in this never-ending cycle
Never to know; never will
Except for me.
Only me.
Cursed with knowledge.
My predecessors' wind
Guides me, taunts me
Mocks me, helps me
Sees me, wants me
But never lets me sleep
For it's too much to bear
Recalling when the notion started
Has become impossible
But one day I decided
It was going to be me.
Only me.
I would stop this.
I will end this.
I left her hermitage
Never looking back
Remembering fondly
But bitterly
Time lulled on.
The world moved ahead.
Getting closer it its end.
Time, it slowly flowed
My plans were almost realized.
I had the means to do it.
The rune was to be destroyed
My rune, myself
Then the endless circle,
Cycle, will stop
It'd be a land for us.
Without god, without them
Without his chaos,
Without his dharma
Without his nothingness,
His predestined annihilation
But clearly I should have known.
One Hundred and Eight Stars
Glittering in the sky
And writ in stone
Following a banner
Following Tenkai
I really should have known.
In her arms, I am held
As my hope dies with me
As my machinations cave in
In the arms of the woman
I should have loved
Was this really for mankind?
Or just a way for me to die?
Am I that selfish?
Am I such a fool?
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't know.
My life… everything.
Everything was entirely myself, but entirely in vain.