Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of the characters created by Stephenie Meyer. I own my OCs
Author's Note:
There will be lemons in this story in Chapters 2, 8, 9 & 21. And also a little semi-lemon in 11. This fanfic is about all the Cullens but mainly centred around Carlisle and Esme. Each couple gets two lemons each.
Alice
I have no memory of my human life, no memory of ever wanting to be a mother. When I woke up a vampire, all I could think about was blood and my visions of Jasper. After I found Jasper, we set out to find Carlisle and his family of vegetarian vampires. I knew that being vampire meant I was barren, I would never have Jasper's children but I accepted it. I was happy going to school, shopping and loving my family. I'd never thought a lot about motherhood but maybe a child might have been nice. I mostly felt bad for Esme and Rosalie, they had wanted a child for decades. Bella hadn't really thought about wanting children until she got pregnant with Renesmee, all she knew was that she would die for her.
Rosalie
I remember wanting children even as a human, children with Royce. The thought made me sick now. Sick to my stomach. Even after what Royce did to me, I was miserable about being barren. As much as I adored Emmett with all my heart, finding him only made it more painful because now I had someone to picture having children with. He was extremely happy with vampire life and I was happy to be with him. I loved Renesmee but no matter what, I would never be her mother. Bella was her mother. But my heart still ached.
Esme
I had a son in my human life and for the first time, things seemed wonderful. I had left an abusive marriage to have my baby in safety. But I lost my beautiful, darling boy when he was just a few days old; lung fever. I saw no reason to live after that and jumped off a cliff. It was just fate that Carlisle was working in the hospital where I was brought. I loved him and wanted to have his children but he explained to me that the only thing he could never give, as vampires, was a baby of our own. I was barren. We gradually built a family of teenage vampires around us and one little hybrid who grew so fast. Despite my love for my family, I regretted that I would never bear Carlisle's child and see it grow up.