Fighting for destiny.
Usagi sat on the shore of the lake looking out of the park. Thinking how beautiful it was today. The sun war bright. The lake was beautiful shiny with a beautiful blue aura. It had been six months since Galaxia. There had been no more fights, no evils, no battles nothing to keep her life busy. Or so the others thought. She had been secretly training to become a better princess, to prepare to be queen. She would have told them but Mother told he she was destined to do it alone. That way if anything happen she could handle it by herself. Usagi agreed. She knew it was true sense she had to be strong before and fight Galaxia alone.
Everyone notice she acted different, distant but said nothing. They assume it was cause of everything that happen. They assume they knew her heart. They thought she had fallen for Seiya. That she loved him. Yeah as a friend and brother (or sister) that always made her laugh, she blushed at that thought. That is reality Seiya was a woman in her true form. You think the other scouts crush on the others would have stopped when they found out they were really women. That always made her think did her friends like members of the opposite sex? No she won't think about that. Usagi Loved Mamoru her Mamochan. With all her heart. She was so happy to be with him again. After the fight he was scared to leave her. Even thou he would never say so she sense it. She would never tell him sense six months ago her powers have gotten strong and their bond powerful. There was so many things she kept for them. Every sense she been training she had been visiting her mother Queen Serenity once a week on the moon to discuss her progress and to discuss things she would need to work on. Her mother had just told her last week she was proud of her. For all her hard work.
That she was so glad her daughter was growing up to be a fine woman. Usagi smiled, made her feel like all the lying was worth it. Tonight she would have to see him, they had a date. She would not break it even thought she needed to train more. The more she train the more her powers grew and her memories of the past were coming back with the powers when the came out. It was amazing the things she experience on the moon kingdom. The passion she shared with Endy all them years ago, made her blush to think about it. It would keep her up at night thinking of the love they had then. She only prayed that one day their love could be that passionate again. She knew it was a different time those things was not allowed now. Everyone thought that she was with him caused of destiny and him of it.
No one would know she always liked him and slowing fell in love with him when they first met in this time. He wasn't like any other man. His eyes so passionate but sad at the same time. When you look at him your heart started to beep faster and faster. Like the blood in your veins could come out at any minute the way he made her heart felt. In reality she starting going to the arcade then more and more secretly hoping to see him to have a battle with him like she called it. Because with her cause her light scared him. Simple things like that always made her feel like her heart was on fire. I am ahead myself now laying here at the lake thinking of my feeling lately always make time go by so fast. Usagi looks down at watch 5oclock time to go. She told Mamochan she would be at his house at 5:30.
She wanted to be early lately she has for all there dates. The girls she didn't bother what's the point, she loved Rei but even when she was on time she still jumped down her throat about something. That always upset her she loved Rei like a sister but Rei treated her like a Red headed step child. She chuckled to herself about that comment. Two weeks ago she met with them and walking up the temple she heard her say to the other girls "If it wasn't for me she would have cheated on him with Seiya, I am telling you she still loves him. It doesn't make any sense why she torturing Mamoru like this" Torturing him what she is talking about. I always wonder what she met by that? That day I turned around and walked off I rather not hear it. I don't think I am hurting my love, it hurts me knowing I can't tell him yet I been training and learning for our future. I don't like hiding nothing from the man I love.
Enough with my thoughts I promised tonight was for Mamochan. At last I am here. I knock at his door. I hear a sound them the door opens to reveal those deep blue eyes of his "God I could get so lost in those eyes" I catch myself saying out loud. He smiles, chuckles and pulls me close to him closing the door behind him. I giggle realizing I most have sounded silly. Then he holds me like he is scared for some reason I might leave. I am puzzled what has upset my love.
"Usako" said Mamochan
'Yes my love" said Usagi
"Do you know how much I love you"said Mamochan
Now I know something is up, Mamochan God I love him but he is not one to talk about his feelings I understand he had been alone most of his life and I know he feels if he says it out loud that I might disappear. But I know something wrong with him if he is talking about his feelings.
As on cue he looks at me and smile before I can say something, "I know I don't say it very often twice I have only said it out loud to you" "But I hope you do know I do love you so much" "I'll be lost without you in my life my Usako"
Well about this time my eyes was in tears, tears starting to come out of eyes and rolling down my cheeks. I always known he loves me but to say it out loud and say it was just caring voice and touch just makes my heart ready to come pounding out of my chest.
Finally I get the courage to say something after staring at his declaration of love.
"Mamochan, you don't have to say it for me to know you love me" " I can see it in the way you look at me, in the way you smile and laugh towards me" You are the most caring sweetest man I have ever know. Every time you touch me my love I feel it in your touch. When we touch my whole body feels on fire. I have seen your love not through words my your actions. I have seen you risk your life for me numerous of times I have seen you die for me more times than I can count. If that not love then I scared to know what love is. Because if it is any deeper than what I am feeling now well I don't think my heart can take it, it pounds enough as it is around you." "Beside even if you did not love me it still would not change the fact that I love you for all of time."
He looks at me and for the first time in a long time it looks like he could cry. Like he was scared of something and it suddenly went away.
Suddenly he throws himself at me holding me tightly. I am surprise but I like it.
"Mamochan what's wrong my love, please you are not one to express your feeling so, it doesn't bother me but I feel as something is bothering you my dear" "Tell me you know I be there for you always no matter what it is"
He looks down at his feel then I hear him sigh
"Usako"
"Yes Mamochan"
"You just been so distant from me lately, I thought I did something wrong and you were doubting our love. I am sorry for not having faith in us my sweet please forgive me"
My heart stops when he says it, no mamochan I am think you should forgive me, it's not your fault my training been talking me away from you. Then I decide maybe, just maybe I'll ask Mother for permission to tell my prince what's going I sure Endy would stay back and allow me to continue. He is looking at me waiting for an answer. My poor prince, I have caused you pain I am so sorry. I feel like I could cry I would never want to cause him pain.
"Mamochan", I say as I walk to his couch and sit with my head buried in my hands and I sigh. He walks slowing to me and sits beside me talking his hands in my hands. "Usako whatever it is we can get through it together"
"Mamochan believe me when I say I love you and I trust our relationship to the fullest but you know as princess of the moon some things are not that easy for me." He looks at me weird like I started talking another tongue.
"Usako what do you mean?"
"Mamochan ever since the last fight everyone else might be getting a break but I haven't had a break! I know that doesn't make much since but I can't say anything else till I get permission to tell you everything"
"Usako permission from who?"
"My mother Mamochan Queen Serenity "
"Oh" That's all he said before he looked down at the floor and he look like he was gathering his thoughts.
"Mamochan I am sorry I am not allowed to tell what's going on, but I promise I am not in danger and when it's over I can tell you everything." "But everything will benefit the future and in the end us I promise" "I love you Mamochan" "So please understand that apart my life for a while will be distant from you and the girls. But this must stay between us I am sure mother will get on me for telling you this much"
"Oh Usako I am sorry, I didn't mean for you to get in trouble with your mother. I just felt I did something to upset you and that I was losing you" "I would never want Queen Serenity to get mad at you for telling me what's going on"
"I know my love. But I owe you this, I can't stand hurting you I am sorry I hate lying to you. I hate been distant from you and the others. I hate not being able to tell you everything that's going on in my life but very soon I will be able too. I promise my love"
"I know Usako I can be patient as long as I know we are fine I am ok. And also as long you are not in no danger from whatever you are having to do for your mother then I am fine. Whatever you are doing do it well my love I have faith in you completely. Through these last months since I been back I realize some things. You say I don't have to say my feeling for you but I feel I need to start saying it. Sides I like the look in your eyes you get when I do say it"
"Oh my love you are too good to me" I say as I jump in his arms and start kissing him. I feel so loved when I am with him like nothing else matters.
We sit there for about another hour, our date forgotten. Laying here in his arms just makes me feel so alive. So wonderful like the whole world could live off our love. In a way I feel like it could.
Finally I rise off of his chest and look at him and I kiss him tenderly on the lips.
"Mamochan I think I need to leave, I don't want to but I think I need to talk to mother I feel her calling me"
"Oh I hope everything goes well send my regards and love to Queen Serenity"
"I will Mamochan I will, If it is not late I call you when I get home"
"Ok Usako and I promise I will not say anything to the girls or Luna"
"Thank You Mamochan you are wonderful" I say as I kiss on the cheek and start to walk away.
As I walk away to the door he runs up to me all of sudden and I say "Yes Mamochan"
He just smiles and says it's nothing except "I love you my dear sweet princess with all my heart I just wanted to say that to you before you left. And also give you this" I smile and before I could question what he was going to give me I feel his lips press against me and it ain't one of our normal kisses which is tender and soft. This is hard and passionate and wonderful and alive. Just like it used to be a thousand years ago. He is kissing me long and hard. My knees start to give in and I feel numb inside but wonderful. Don't know how to explain it like fireworks is going off in my body. Finally we both come up for air and all I can say is "Wow" "I think you been holding out on my Mamochan".
"I could say the same for you too my Usako, goodbye my love safe trip" as he says and kisses me on my cheek and I start to walk out the door. Wow I am thinking as I get in the elevator. I guess I got my wish from earlier if he starts kissing me like that all the time I going to have to chain my self to him. Wow. I know I ain't going to get any sleep tonight. I thought my memories keep me up but that kiss wow. That was pure heaven.
I leave the building and set my sites on a place to teleport where no one can't see me leave. So I decide to go to the part near the rose bushes. Even thou it is beautiful there not too many people go there for some reason.
I look around and see no one around and I start to focus my energy on home to the moon and in a second I am gone. All there is light left as my body is teleport to the moon.
I get there I look around I already transform to my princess form by the time I get there.
Didn't take me long to find mother. She looks at me and smile so sweet.
As I look at her I wonder what is she going to say. Will she stop me from telling Mamochan anything else or will have to make Mamochan forget everything I have told him so far.
Then as she looks at me it's like she read my mind she smiles and pulls me in her arms. Mother God I love her I wish she was on earth with me too. I think as I am standing there in her arms.
"Mother I am sorry I just didn't want him to think that I didn't love him that something was wrong between us"
"Shush my sweet daughter I understand but remember you can't tell him anything else I don't want your training to get messed up." "Just to let you know my daughter I felt someone come through the time gate Pluto assure me that, that the person was safe and you knew them" "Who is this person traveling thru time to see you my daughter"
"Well mother I assuming it is probably my future daughter" I said as the hurt you could see thru my eyes. Don't get wrong I love my daughter even thou I ain't had her yet but it's like she hates me like she doesn't want to believe that me Usagi is her future mother she can believe Mamochan is her future father but not me. It feels like she will only accept me as a big sister type.
"Serenity, you don't sound too happy about that is something wrong, do you not get along." said Queen Serentiy
"Well no Mother we don't at least we didn't the last time she was here. Or the time before She was with me for almost a year and half Mother and in a way I feel like she does not accept that I will be her future Mother that I will not amount to the woman I am in the future. Does that make any sense?"