Disclaimer: Not that this really infringes any copyrights, but yeah. I do not own scrubs, and I do not own the quote from House.
Inner Turmoil
I'm not gay.
At least, I don't think so.
I'm attracted to my wife. Well, ex-wife. And I'm pretty sure that Jordan is a she.
So I couldn't be gay, right?
Maybe I just don't want to be gay. Maybe I call him girls names so that I won't feel as bad about being attracted to him. Maybe I'm in love with him.
He looks up to me. I normally refuse to admit it, but I know it's true. He idolizes me, and the only response I can give is sarcasm. The only way I can handle him is by being a complete jerk to him.
"the instinct of love toward an object demands a mastery to obtain it, and if a person feels they can't control the object or feel threatened by it, they act negatively toward it."
Yeah. That would explain it. I feel I can't control him. I am so sure. Because it's so very hard to get him to do whatever -anything- I want.
Actually, why is it so easy to get him to do what I want? He follows me around like a puppy, even when he doesn't actually need me. And when he does need help, I'm the first person he comes to.
Could he be in love with me?
No, of course not! He's just over-dependant. He knows that I'm more experienced in the medical field. That's why he comes to me first. It has nothing to do with his feelings for me.
Not that he has any feelings for me.
Not that I would care if he did have feelings for me.
Not that I have any feelings for him.