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Chapter title: Perfection Doesn't Last Forever

Cammie POV

I close my eyes and sigh as I breathe in the crisp spring air. In this moment life was almost perfect. Zach had gotten back from a five month long mission yesterday. He wasn't supposed to come back until next week, but of course with him being the best of the best, he finished the mission a little early, and was able to come home. It was a surprise to me. Coming home after work to our apartment that had been so lonely lately, to see him lounging on the couch. So many emotions came over me in that moment. Shock, relief, and finally pure joy.

That night we did our usual post mission ritual. Hot sex filled with need and desire. And let's face it we both needed each other. Five months. Five months we went without seeing each other, touching each other, kissing each other. So last night was pure bliss, we reconnected through love.

I was interrupted from my thoughts with the door to our apartment slamming open. Zach walked in carrying the groceries he had went out to buy. Then slammed the door after him. He seemed quite agitated and I couldn't help but wonder why. I took a few strides from our living room over to our kitchen to help him out with the groceries. Once we were done he just stood up and glared at me, body stiff.

"What?" I asked a bit defensive not knowing what I had done wrong.

He just continued to glare at me and walked into the living room. I followed him and sat down on one of the plush chairs while he sat on the couch. After a few moments of painful silence he finally cleared his throat and responded in a bitter voice, "I ran into Jimmy today."

"You mean Josh?"

"Yeah Josh" he said rather tightly.

I looked up at him confused. He was all tensed and his fists were clenched. "Okaaayyy?" I drawled on clearly showing my confusion.

He just rolled those gorgeous green eyes at me and murmured "As if you don't already know."

"What?" I was really confused now. He whirled on me.

"Don't play dumb with me Cameron! Joshua already told me that you two were seeing each other while I was gone!"

"Excuse me?" I couldn't believe the words that were coming out of his mouth. Was he actually accusing me of cheating on him? Now I was angry. My blood started to boil as colour rushed to my face. How could he believe what Josh said? Did he not have any trust in me? "I was not seeing Josh. In fact the only time I did see him was the odd time I passed him on the street. Other then that, that's pretty much it!"

We're both standing up now, eyes blazing. "What do you mean pretty much it?"

His fiery voice contrasted my mine as I hesitantly replied "W-well we went for coffee once."

"And the truth comes out!"

At that moment, I noticed a vein popping out on his neck and knew he was really angry. I desperately tried to calm him down. " Zach" I whined, "it's not what you think!"

"Well, what is it then?"

"We only went out for coffee once and nothing happened. I was lonely here without you and only had Bex, Macey and Liz to keep me company. One day I ran into Josh on the street and he suggested we go out for coffee. So I thought "What the heck, were only going as friends" and said sure. When we did go out for coffee though he confessed to me that he still loved me and wanted me back." At this part his fists clenched but I continued. "I told him that I didn't feel the same way because I loved you."

"Loved?" he said skeptically.

"Love you" I assured, "I love you! No one else just you. Can't you see that?"

"I don't know Cam. "

"What do you mean you don't know?"

"I don't know if I can see that you love me anymore. "

"Well if you can't see it, couldn't you feel it last night in our bedroom!" I was getting a little desperate. I mean this is ridiculous, he should trust me.

"Yeah, but it felt different. Like your love wasn't only for me. Like I wasn't the only one receiving it." His tone was cold and hostile. His emerald eyes pierced mine and it felt like he was looking into my soul. Then he suddenly looked away like he was revolted with what he saw. He didn't see the tears start to prick at the back of my eyes.

"Zach, I've been your girlfriend for six years. I love you and would never cheat on you. Especially not with Josh. Can't you just trust me?" My voice was almost pleading as I said this.

"Well I've been away. So anything could've happened while I was gone."

"You've been away on missions many times before so why is this one any different?"

"This has been my longest mission yet. And this time it was different cause you went out with Jimmy!"

"I met with him once and nothing happened!" I replied outraged.

"Well he asked you out and you said yes so that makes it a date!"

"Zach give this up! We're 23! We should be able to sort this out like adults. I already told you I don't love him! I love you! In fact Josh is a total ass now that I think about it cause he told you that we we're hooking up when we weren't. Urghhhhh" I just want to kill Josh. He just wanted to make Zach jealous, but Zach believed him. So we're basically in this fight cause of Josh. I should've never gone out for coffee with him. I mean of course he'd try and brag to Zach that we had went out and that I was still his. Ugh, I should've never said yes to him it seems to have really screwed over my relationship with Zach. Who is way more important to me then Josh.

"How can I trust you?"

Those five words made me furious. I suppressed my tears and started fuming. I took to steps forward closing the distance between us. "Trust me?" I yelled all up in his face. "Trust me? No! No you don't even get to talk about trusting. Who are you to talk about trust Mr. Zachary Goode former member of the Circle of Cavan, whose crazy mother was trying to kill me! All those times I didn't know if you we're the good guy or the bad guy. And I still don't even know now!"

He glared down at me and for a moment I thought I saw hurt flash in his eyes before his face became a blank mask.

His whisper sent shivers down my spine, and not the good kind. "How can you even say that?! Don't you dare bring my mother and the COC into this. You made this mess yourself yet you're making me seem like the bad guy. I was always there for you. I was always there for you!" He repeated louder.

"I need a walk" he said bitterly before turning to leave, slamming the door behind him.

The tears finally came out. Hot and thick. What was I thinking? Of course I knew that he was the good guy. Always was and always had been. Now I'm definitely the bad guy with insulting him like that and going out with Josh. Zach's right this is my mess and all my fault.

With those thoughts I decided to get ready for bed. It had gotten quite late. Where had the afternoon gone. I sigh as I climb into the bed and position myself on the very edge. However, I don't fall asleep. I just sob until my tear ducts run dry leaving my face salty.

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I'm still awake when Zach comes back. It was 1 am and he'd been gone since 10. He thinks I'm asleep as he tries to be really quite while stripping off almost all his clothes, just leaving him in his boxers. I don't dare open my eyes but feel the sheets rustle as he gets in. I don't feel and of his body heat and know he's sleeping on the edge of the bed too, leaving an area separating us that is too vast for my liking. I hear his breaths even out and they eventually lull me into a fitful sleep.

xo Val

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