Mixed Emotions
Summary: A drabble about Sakuno's feelings after rejection. RyoSaku.
Disclaimer: Too bad. I wish I owned it too.
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She had told him.
She said how she had felt about him for so long.
"R-Ryoma-kun. I li-like y-y-you!"
She had prepared her heart for rejection.
At least she thought she did.
"Sorry. I don't feel the same way."
When he had said those words, her heart shattered into pieces.
She wasn't ready afterall. For rejection.
"I was too hopeful." She thought after she fled from the scene and ran straight home.
That night, she cried her heart out.
She let all of her love for him pour out onto her pillow.
She let all of the pain dissolve with each tear.
She probably shed more tears that night than she could've in a lifetime.
She had loved him. That's why she was crying for him, for the feelings that would never be reciprocated.
"But he doesn't love me." She had realized that after all of her crying.
And so, in the middle of the night, Ryuuzaki Sakuno vowed to never shed another tear for that Echizen Ryoma ever again.
Even though her heart was still in pain and in shock, she would try.
She would try to get over him.
Even though she loved him, he didn't.
"There's no point." She decided.
She decided that there was no point in chasing after a love that never was.
And so she would try.
But the next day, when she saw him, her heart started to hurt again.
Tears threatened to fall despite her vow to never shed another tear for him.
"Why?" She asked herself as she stared at the non-chalant expression on his face from across the room.
She was confused.
What was she to do?
She told herself that she was going to get over him, but the farther away she pushed herself, the more it hurt.
The truth was, she still longed for him.
But which hurt more? His rejection or her vow?
What could she do?
What should she do?
Was she to listen to her heart, or her head?
Was there really any point to her love in the first place?
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Sakuno went from being in love, to pain/hurt after rejection, to a decision of independence, to confusion about her feelings, to hopelessness. It does happen in real life.
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26.06.10