Summary: After Becoming. Buffy travels to LA and meets the 'Queen of Vampires' but it's not what you'd think.
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Disclaimer: I don't own anyone. Joss owns Buffy and co. And Lilith owns herself.
Rating: PG
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"But you did something good, right?"
"I dought me did. But in the eyes of God I was evil. I was the one who created the first vampire. Therefore earning the title 'Queen of the Vampires'".
"Oh." was all Buffy could say.
"Don't worry me child." walking out of the kitchen, Lilith walked to the back door and motioned for Buffy to follower her into the backyard. "Now come, we have
much to do."
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Buffy followed obediently outside to find herself staring at a large, very large garden. "It's like Eden." she whispered.
"That's why I like it so much. Even thought I refused to go back to Eden, I still loved it. This is kind of me own reincarnation of it." She smiled proudly.
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3 months later
Buffy walked silently around the garden, admiring the work that must of gone into it, before she sat down where Lilith was sitting, in the middle of a large circle of different colored flowers. She still was thinking about Angel, as she observed the black thorned roses just outside of part of the circle. They reminded her of Angel, beautiful and deadly. Everything seemed to remind her of Angel, the bright sun, a flower, fire. She could go on forever.
"Now child." Lilith said interupting Buffy's thoughts "let's talk about Angel."
"Angel." Buffy murmured, even his name brought tears to her eyes.
"Tell me about him."
"He, he was Angel. Tall brooding, cryptic guy."
"What was it that drew you to him?"
"I don't know, he was so strong. And caring. The first time I met him he warned me about the Harvest. I didn't know he was a vampire then. Then he kissed me. And of my god what a kiss. Then he vamped out. I was so scared. We tried to kill each other. Then tried to make it work. It was all my fault...." suddenly Buffy realized she was babbleing. "I'm sorry to go on like that."
"No, no, me child. Go on. Tell me, what was your fault?"
"Him changing. Becoming Evil. We didn't know about the curse. I needed him so bad." Buffy was crying now, tears running freely down her face
"It wasn't your fault child. How were you to know?"
Buffy was silent, thinking about what Lilith had said, "I guess you're right. But how is he going to forgive me for sending him to hell?"
"He already has."
"What do you mean?"
"Buffy, you've been here for 3 months now. He has been back for 2. He forgave you the moment he came back. But he's searching for you right now."
"He's back? Searching for me? How do you know?"
Lilith cocked her head to the side looking at Buffy.
"Oh yeah the all knowing thing. But still I can't go back right now. I don't think I could face them just yet."
"It be your choice child. You may stay here as long as you want. Eventually he will find you if you stay for too long." Lilith said getting up and walking back into the house. Buffy stared after her for awhile, before laying down on the grass and watching the stars. She soon saw a falling star, and made the wish she had made a million times over. That Angel would forgive her. She wanted to believe Lilith. Wanted to know that Angel had truly forgiven her. But she didn't know how he could.
"I sent him to hell. Oh could he forgive me?" She asked outloud to the stars, tears once again flowing from her eyes.
"Because he loves you." Buffy heard the voice behind her say. She knew that voice. But was too afraid it was her imagination, to turn around.
"Angel?" she whispered, barely audible.
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Well do I keep going?