AN: I am back with another story and hopefully it's really good. I think this story is totally different what I ever read or wrote. The story and background is mine and all characters are accredited to Dick Wolf. Enjoy!
Casey sat on the bar stool, smiled at the bartender, and waving at her to come.
"Casey?" The bartender smiled. "I haven't seen you since we broke up? What brings you here?" The woman leaned over the table and kissed Casey on the cheek.
Casey smiled, "Wow, Alex? I did not expect to see you, ever again…" Casey berated herself for being cruel to her ex, although how much Alex deserved it. "I was fired," she finally answered Alex's question.
The blonde suddenly frowned, "You are telling me that Cougar fired you? I thought she wanted a piece of your ass!" Alex joked.
"Her name's Petrovsky." Casey annoyingly corrected. "She is now Director and CEO of TD Bank." Casey sighed, "Can I get your strongest drink please." Casey said, remembering the reason she came there.
Alex nodded and walked off and soon came back with a drink at hand. "Don't drink too fast." She winked, "I have to work but if you stay and you are not too drunk we can catch up." She smiled and walked to the next customer.
Casey sat there deciding whether to ruin her sobriety or not. One thing Alex did not know was that after the break up, Casey had a break down. Her whole life just tore apart. Granted she was the one who ended it with Alex, but if she knew the consequences she would have thought twice, or maybe not because she realized that relationship with Alex was a huge lie.
Of course like most alcoholics she convinced herself that she didn't have a problem until she was almost arrested for drinking and driving, thank god she knew that cop or it would have been the end of her.
Olivia took her to her first AA meeting almost two years ago and she hasn't drank since. Olivia and Casey grew up together. They were next door neighbors and the best of friends.
Casey felt bad for herself, but she felt even worse for Olivia. Olivia wanted to become a detective but each time she applied they always gave the spot to a younger woman or a more experienced man.
Casey slowly pushed the drink away and breathed. She waved Alex to come over, "You always know who is legit here, right?"
"Right… what? You want to take a girl home?" Alex asked, hesitantly.
Casey shook her head, "I need stability in my life and I think a girlfriend would do."
"Um…well like I said, we can catch up." Alex pushed.
Casey shook her head, "Um... I know but I need a girlfriend," Casey said wondering why Alex wasn't listening.
"And I am telling you we need to talk." Alex answered back and went on to serving drinks.
Casey got off the bar stool and walked onto the dance floor. This blonde woman eyed her and walked towards her.
"OMG Casey! I didn't know you batted for this team!" Serena smiled.
"You usually don't tell subordinates-"
"You still hate me because I got your job?! Get over it Casey and move on, it happened three weeks ago! You need to get your stuff together. You are really, really, smart and talented and qualified for almost every job." Serena smiled at her as she twirled.
"You really think so?" Casey answered.
"Yes."
"Do you want-"
"To ditch this place later? Yes."
They both smiled at each other and danced the night away.
At closing, Casey went towards the bar and signaled for Alex. "Hey, can we get a rain check for tonight. Maybe, lunch. I am free always or at least until I get a job."
Alex glared at the woman behind Casey, and looked back at Casey and her voice softened, "I really wanted to catch up tonight."
"And I am now busy tonight," Casey smiled as she grabbed Serena's hand. "Want my number?" Casey asked.
"I'll just give you mine. You call me whenever you are not fucking a random girl," Alex said bitterly. She wrote down her number and handed it to Casey.
"For the record, Casey and I worked together," Serena responded.
"I wasn't talking to you, skank." Alex said almost wanting Serena to try something.
"Um…Serena lets go, don't worry about her," Casey pushed Serena out the door.
"Who they hell does she think she is?!" Serena yelled.
"Look, we'll get in our separate cars and you follow me home, ok?"
"Yeah, yeah." Serena took a breath.
Alex told her coworkers to clean up and then took a drink for herself and sat on the bar stool.
"Hey, Lexy you ok?" Roberto, the manager, asked her.
She nodded, she was not one to spill her guts to someone, and the only person who could do that was Casey.
She did realize Casey ended it with her for a reason. She lied about everything, her life, her job, her childhood, her arrests, and even her name, but what she knew she didn't lie about was her feelings for Casey and those were real.
She never let anyone in. She didn't want anyone in, her past made her scared for her future and if Casey knew the real her, she just knew deep down Casey would have told her she didn't want her anymore, and that would have been worse. She would have been rejected.
No one wants to be rejected.
She realized, the day Casey found out her name wasn't Joy, and was actually Alexandra Cabot, that Casey wouldn't have cared if she was arrested for petty theft, marijuana, and even public intoxication. Of course those are the things she was caught for. She got away with millions of dollars with a click of a mouse, never to be traced again. She drove drunk and hit a man crossing the street, and she was glad he was ok because she was going to turn herself in.
Once Casey was out of her life she decided to live it clean so that the next person who comes into her life won't have to go through the hurt Casey did.
She just hung out with the wrong crowd in her younger years. She could have gone to college, and become something great.
However, in despite of her past, she could not be more proud of herself. She changed for the better. She has a steady job that she doesn't need. She is loyal now and she keeps her promises. She hasn't gone near marijuana since Casey. She has an apartment and she is quite happy with her life.
Of course, something is missing and that's someone to share her life with.
She doesn't have any preference to gender, but lately, women have just been on her mind.
"I am going to head out." She rose form the bar stool and walked out the door.
She entered her car and drove to her apartment.
She had a vest on that barely fit her slim body, but somehow she always got herself to look so sexy in it.
She entered her apartment and locked the door dropping all that was on her arms to the floor.
She scanned her messy apartment and sighed. "I really need to clean this place." She walked by the small kitchen and entered her room.
She quickly rid herself of any clothing and snuggled under the covers.
Something about sleeping in the nude gave her this freedom. Clothing constricted her.
She had nothing to do the next day so she did not put on her alarm clock.
Casey was on her mind, and wouldn't get out.
She started to remember how Casey felt and her smell. How Casey's bright green eyes would look into hers with such longing and want. She remembered how Casey would smile at her. She remembered when Casey would say 'I love you' her pupils would dilate.
She missed the smallest of things like Casey's cleanliness, her touch, her voice, and her lips.
She finally was lulled to sleep remembering her past.
AN: So give me your comments and should I go on or not. Review and tell me what you think about the story so far.