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Prologue:

Let the rain fall. Every drop that shatters on the ground will eventually just join its brethren in the long journey back to the sky. Let the rain fall, for in my life in Forks, the only certainty is that the rain will come. So let the rain fall, and shatter on the ground into a million pieces, so that it may rise again to wash the million sins of today away.

Let the rain fall.

(A/N: I know this prologue does nothing for the story, honestly, it was just something that came to me when I decided to start writing this story, aka, 5 minutes ago. However, I really like it, and felt it would set the mood nicely. Also, it gave me the title. Enjoy!)

Chapter 1:

BPOV

It's getting late, already almost midnight. The moonlight plays peek-a-boo through the ever present heavy clouds of Forks, casting slivers of light in the puddles.

As always, I am just walking, biding my time until I have to go home and face the music. I used to try hard to make my father, Charlie, happy. I would clean all day, and I would have dinner cooked and ready for him the moment he got home from work. However, through the last few years, I learned that he will always find an excuse to not be happy with me, so I stopped trying. Now I spend my life hoping that he didn't stay up to wait for me. I have no friends, and no life, so I just wander around until I am tired, and hope he is asleep when I get there.

I still clean up after him at night, because otherwise my 'home' would be even worse. Besides, it kept me busy, so I could minimize the amount of time I spent 'sleeping'; that is, if you could call what I did sleeping.

I let out a quiet sigh as I made it to my front door. I listened intently for a moment to try and tell if he was awake. The TV was on, but that didn't mean much. He often times fell asleep with it on.

I took a deep breath before I opened the door quietly and walked in. I closed the door behind me, and crept deeper into the house. It was then I heard it. A snore, coming from upstairs.

I let out the breath I was holding, and sighed in relief, before walking to the TV and turning it off. Tonight was a lucky night, Charlie was asleep.

I got onto cleaning, getting rid of all of the empty beer cans and liquor bottles from the day, cleaning spills etc. I then cleaned up his takeout containers.

Once I was done cleaning up and had the laundry going, I went into the fridge, and grabbed the makings for a sandwich.

I generally didn't eat much, because I didn't have time after he left for work in the morning to eat, and get to school on time. Not to mention, he didn't keep much stocked in the kitchen, and if I kept it to one thing a day, I usually would luck out, and have the food last until he thought to get more. So I usually just had something small to eat at night.

By the time Charlie's alarm was blaring for him to wake up, the laundry was done, as well as my homework, and I was sitting in my room, fighting the sleep I knew I needed. My alarm clock would go off in another forty five minutes, and as long as I made it to then, I would be moving around, and that would be enough to keep me awake.

I waited for Charlie to leave for work before I left my room and showered quickly.

Twenty minutes later, I was heading out, my hair still drenched from my shower. I never bothered to dry it, because really? What was the point? I lived in Forks, where it was almost always raining. I wasn't going to waste ten minutes of my day drying my hair just for it to get wet immediately after.

An hour later, I arrived at Forks High School. The parking lot was bustling with students rushing to get inside from the rain. You would think having lived here all their lives, they would be used to it by now.

As I made my way inside, I made my way through the hallways, trying to stay unnoticed. I wasn't very well liked around here. Many of the students had a great love for fucking with me. I can't say I blamed them. That was what I was best for. However, that didn't mean I had to invite it.

"Jess, are you going to that party tonight?! It's supposed to be wild. Crowley is throwing it" I heard from beside me as I grabbed my books from my locker.

"Of course! What else am I going to do on a Friday? I can't wait. Plus, I think Cullen is going to be there. God I would love to get a hold of him." Jessica Stanley gushed to Lauren Mallory, the girl who asked her. Jessica and Lauren were two of the most popular girls in the school. Super slutty, super bitches, with less clothing on than makeup.

"You wish, Jess. He totally like, hates you." She said. "Besides, he is totally bad news anyway. I heard he does like, heroine, and crack and stuff."

"I like a fixer upper. Besides, I am sure he fucks like a rockstar." Jess said.

At that, I gagged a little, and closed my locker, and made my way to my first class, away from the disturbing conversation.

Edward Cullen was a guy that every girl had a thing for, but most would never actually try for. He had his issues. He didn't like anyone, and tended to get into fights. There were a lot of rumors of supposed drug use, though I didn't know how based in truth those were. I didn't really know him personally, but I had a few classes with him—when he actually showed to his classes.

He truly was one of the most beautiful men—on the outside, that I had ever seen. He had an amazing mess of bronze hair, a perfect jaw, a drool inducing body, and the most intense emerald green eyes I had ever seen. However, I also knew not to talk to him. If he didn't like anyone else, I knew he wouldn't like me either. Plus, I had my own reasons for keeping people at arm's length.

As the day went on, I considered the party tonight. I didn't usually go to these parties, because it was filled with people who I didn't like. Not to mention, I never knew when they were. Honestly though, weekends were the worst time for me. I had to go home eventually, and Charlie stayed up later on the weekends. I couldn't avoid him entirely, and so weekends always meant pain. Maybe a party was a perfect way to burn some of the time I would be stuck walking around, or worse—stuck at home with him.

By lunch time, I had decided, that I would go. If nothing else, I could just burn some time, maybe even have fun.

When the bell rang for lunch time to end, I made my way out of the cafeteria, and headed towards my Bio class. I sat down in my lab table, and was surprised to find Edward sitting there as well. He was my lab partner, but he hardly ever showed up to class, so it was odd to see him here, especially on a Friday. I didn't say anything though, as I mentioned before, we didn't talk. We were not friends, even if he did make the scenery significantly nicer. I knew my place.

"Today, you will be doing a lab, determining the phases of Mitosis on the slides. When everyone gets the slides, you can start." Mr. Banner, our teacher explained before going around the room handing out the materials needed. "Nice to see you've joined us for once, Mr. Cullen." The teacher said sarcastically to Edward.

"Always happy to please." He said with a slight smirk as Mr. Banner handed us our slides.

I took the slides, and started doing the assignment, not expecting Edward to help, since I usually was stuck doing it myself anyway.

"You know, I think I should get to have a look too, considering I am being graded for it as well." He said with a smirk at me. I felt my cheeks heat up in response to him talking to me.

"I wasn't aware you really cared about your grades." I said back, letting a small smile flirt at the edges of my lips. "However, if you think you can give it a try, go right on ahead."

He scowls a little at my retort, before taking the microscope and looking. "Metaphase." He said. I took the microscope, and was surprised to find out he was correct. How he ever learned this, I don't know, since I think this is the only time he has actually even been here this week.

Sure enough, by the end, we were both done, and he had actually done his part. To say I was surprised would have been an understatement.

"You going to that lame ass party tonight?" he asked, staring at the clock while tapping his hands.

I was so taken aback by the social question coming from him that it took me a moment to answer. "Y-Yeah. It seems like a mildly more entertaining way to kill boredom than my usual ways." I said.

"Heh. I didn't expect that. I haven't seen you at any of the parties before. I always figured a cop's daughter would be too straight and narrow to go to a party filled with underage drinking." He smirks again, still staring at the clock.

"Wow, assumptions much, Cullen? I haven't gone before because I haven't had the chance. Tonight I have the chance." I said, trying, and probably failing, to play it cool.

"Heh, don't do anything daddy wouldn't want you doing." He grins, finally looking at me, something akin to intrigue in his eyes.

I glared back at him, his words hitting a spot that he would never know he touched on. "I don't particularly care what Daddy wants me to do. I do as I please." I said, spitting the word daddy out like venom. However, it was a complete lie that I did as I pleased. I rarely did what I wanted. What I wanted to do, was to go home every day, do normal stuff, eat full meals, and be safe every night.

"Wow, we have a little rebel in the making, don't we? Well, if you are as badass as you are trying to act like you are, come find me tonight." He said with a smirk, getting up as the bell rang.

I watched him get up, contemplating. I couldn't believe Edward had just asked me to find him at a party tonight. I couldn't believe he had even talked to me to begin with. My mind was blown.

Part of me knew it was probably a bad idea to go to the party, and especially to seek out Edward, which would more than definitely lead to trouble, but a larger part didn't care. I knew what I was getting into, and I had a hard time believing my life could get worse. Maybe some partying would raise it up a notch in the tolerable level.

Once school was over, I trudged home, trying to get there before Charlie. I would need to change if I was going to a party tonight. Not to mention, it probably wasn't a good idea to drink on an empty stomach.

I got home and quickly went up and changed into my nicest clothes, which weren't great, but at least they were in slightly better condition than the rest of my clothes.

I had to put on a belt with the jeans that used to be form fitting. It appears I had lost more weight, but that was inevitable. I barely got in 400 calories a day, if that. I was bound to lose weight between that and all the walking I did.

I paired the jeans with a rolling stones tank top and a zip up hoodie that I left unzipped to cover my bruises, but still show the shirt.

I immediately went downstairs to make myself another sandwich, but realized it wasn't a possibility when I found that the bread and sandwich makings were gone. Charlie must have finished them off this morning.

I sighed and just headed out, so I wouldn't be there when Charlie got home.

I wandered around until it got dark. I figured then the party would be starting, so I headed towards where I knew Tyler Crowley's house was. I hadn't been there before, but in a town this small, pretty much everyone knew where everyone lived.

When I arrived, I knew I had made it to the right destination by the loud rap music emanating from inside, and the massive amount of cars parked outside.

I made way inside. Luckily, it didn't appear as if anyone noticed me come in, which was good, because I wasn't sure I was technically 'invited'. All the students of the school it seemed were all packed in, dancing, making out, and drinking. I immediately made my way towards the kitchen where I guessed the alcohol was, and poured myself a cup of punch which I pounded before pouring myself another. Once I had my second cup ready, I started searching around for Edward, my heart beating from loud music, the proximity of everyone, and the fear of what I was about to get myself into.

After a little while of searching, I spotted a mess of bronze hair down by the entrance to what I assumed was the basement. He looked like he was looking around for someone.

I made my way over, and tapped him hesitantly on the shoulder from behind. He quickly spun around, and gave me a crooked grin. I felt my face flush, that grin was amazing.

"Still up for corrupting the innocent?" I said, quirking an eyebrow at him. I was trying to act cocky, though I my heart was beating a million beats per minute, and my palms were sweating with nerves.

"Heh, I didn't think you would actually show, Swan. Ready when you are." He grins a little, and I nod. He motions then for me to head downstairs, and I hesitantly do.

When I get downstairs, I see a guy from the reservation on LA Push that I knew as Jacob Black. He had long black hair and russet colored skin. He was the son of a man Charlie used to be friends with. Next to him was a Jasper Hale, a man with messy honey blonde hair, and blue eyes, and a 90's grunge look about him. There were also a few other faces I didn't know. One was an Italian looking guy with shoulder length black hair and dark eyes, and one was a guy with long greasy blonde hair in a ponytail and grey eyes. Next to him was a black man with dread locks, and finally, a girl with curly red hair and feral looking green eyes.

As I made my way over to them, some of them regarded me with interest, others with distrust.

"Hey." I said, stuffing my hands in my pockets as nerves got a hold of me.

"What are you doing down here?" The girl with the red hair asked.

"I uh—"

"She's with me." I heard from behind me. Edward had just made it down, before walking around me, and sitting down. He motioned to a seat next to him, and I looked at him, nodding. "This is Bella."

The red haired girl looked at me with disdain before glaring the other way. The man with the long greasy blonde hair hadn't taken his eyes off me since I got down here, an almost hungry look in them.

"What happens down here, stays down here." I heard Jasper say, as he assessed me. "If you aren't cool with that, then you can leave now. If that's fine, then welcome."

"That won't be a problem. I'm fort Nox of shit no one will ever know." I said.

The others regard me with a little less hostility then, before some of them nod.

"Just realize, Bella, that if anyone were to find out of the activities of tonight, we would know exactly who to look for." The Italian man said.

"I promise I won't say a word." I said quietly.

Edward then clears his throat. "Now that we have that settled, lets get to it already." He grins.

Jasper looks at me, then pulls out a bag of weed and rolls a joint. I scoff a little to myself. This is what they are being so secretive about? Fucking Pot? Seriously?

They light up, and pass the joint around. I take a hit when it gets to me, and I end up sputtering and coughing on it. Some of them laugh at me, and I stick my middle finger up at them.

After a few joints have gone around, and we have all had a few drinks, I am feeling pretty damned good. The high mixed with the drunk has the world fuzzy and slightly spinning.

I hear another bag as the Italian one I have come to find is named Marcus pulls out a bag filled with a white powder. I cock my eyebrow at it curiously before glancing at Edward.

He assesses me, and then glances at the bag a moment before shaking his head.

"Next time." Is all he said. Then I realized, he was only going to let me try the pot. He probably thought I was a light weight.

"What is it?" I say quietly to him

"Coke. Next time. I am guessing you have never even smoked pot before. I don't think it's a good idea to mix your first time." He said.

James, the guy with the greasy blonde hair smirks a little. "Why not? I think it will be fun. You wanted to show her a good time, right? This is the best time."

Edward lets out a low growl at him. "I said No, not this time. Jasper, why don't you roll up another joint for Bella, so she has something to do while we have this."

"Sure man", he grins, before shooting me a small smile.

I sighed a little, but took it for what it was. Someone actually looking out for me, for once. It was fucked up that it was people doing drugs who were the first ones to look out for me, but I appreciated it. I immediately felt a certain loyalty.

Hours later, we could hear the music turning off as the house got much quieter. Everyone had sniffed several lines of coke, and some had done some other stuff that I didn't know what it was. Edward and Jasper kept me to liquor and weed though.

"We should head out. Looks like Crowley is closing the party down." Jacob, the guy from the res said.

"Yeah. Bella, you gonna be okay getting home?" he asked, staring at me.

I wasn't sure honestly. I was more drunk than I had ever been, and the world just felt spinny and off kilter. The high just intensified the drunk. However, even if I didn't make it home, honestly I was probably safer wherever I ended up than at home.

"Yeah, I'll be fine." I said, giving him a small smile. "Thanks though."

"Alright. Catch ya Monday." He said before getting up.

Jasper gave me a hug as he got up, and followed Edward out. I blinked, suddenly overwhelmed. It was brief, and purely to make me feel welcome, but it was some of the first positive physical attention I had had in years.

We all filed out after that, and left to go to our respective homes.

I knew from that moment on, that no matter what, I would see them again. I didn't care about the drugs. I wanted the acceptance. They were almost familial. I wanted that. I craved it.

So I know there was another story that I promised I was starting on, that I haven't even begun to post yet. I Actually wanted to completely redo what I have already done on that, but for now, things are so chaotic around here, I was craving some uber angst again.

This Story is going to be a bit of a stretch for me, because I have never written about drug abuse or anything like that. I have done my research on it, but this is a new subject. I also do love me a good Evil Charlie. I don't know why, but it is still one of my favorite things. However, though it is an important plot element, this is not the main plot of this story.

I look forward to reviews!

Also, if anyone wants to beta for me, that would be amazing, because I find sometimes if I sit there and edit a lot, I lose my flow, and it takes me awhile to get it back. Anyone interested, just PM me. ^-^ Have fun!