Chapter 1

Hey everyone! This is my first ever fanfiction and I am so excited to write! I know there are a lot of Spoby fanfictions out right now since what happened in 7x07. I wanted to thank everyone for taking time out of their day to read this story. I'll admit, the first chapter stinks. But the following chapters are amazing so if you keep reading I promise you won't be disappointed :)

Disclaimer: I don't own Pretty Little Liars. Not a penny of it. The title of this story is from "The Backpack Song" by Bear Attack. Its a great song. Set after 7x07. There will be spoilers, you have been warned.

"Goodbye" she whispered after collapsing against the white wooden door of the barn.

He still loved her.

She still loved him.

If only it were that simple. But he also loves someone else. Someone he was already committed to. Someone he was engaged to. It didn't make sense. But then again, what does?

It made sense for him to leave. That way he could protect Yvonne. That way he could protect himself. She told herself that she should be happy. That she should be glad that he was finally going to be safe. But she wasn't. Spencer Hastings was completely and totally destroyed by the fact that now they could never be together. No matter how much they loved each other.

Spencer woke up thinking that last night was a dream. That Toby never came to say goodbye. That Yvonne's house wasn't originally meant for Spencer. That he didn't still love her.

While pondering last night's dream, Spencer sat up in bed so she could think better. While sitting up she noticed in the mirror across from her bed that her mascara was all over the place. She knew that just sleeping could not of caused the kind of damage that was smudged across her face. With a shudder she realized that her dream was real.

She knew that Toby still loved her.

But she also knew that he was leaving. Because she convinced him to.

Nothing has ever really surprised Spencer Hastings. When she was eleven, her parents tried to throw a surprise party for her birthday. As soon as she got home form school that day she knew that they were throwing a party for her. When you see fifteen cars parked in front of your driveway you start to get suspicious.

The one thing that did surprise Spencer was Toby's confession. She kept replaying the previous evening over and over again in her aching head.

"I didn't start building the house for Yvonne, I was building it for you."

As she sat on the sofa in her caffeine deprived state she thought about what she was going to do next. But Aria Montgomery decided that for her.

Spencer got up from the couch once she heard the loud ringtone that was reserved for her tiny friend.

"Hey Aria" Spencer said mid-yawn.

"Spencer, somethings wrong." Aria declared at an alarmingly fast rate.

"What happened, are you okay? Is Ezra okay? Did you miss your flight?" Spencer replied, suddenly woken up by the urgency in her friend's voice.

"Well, something like that. The FBI came to Ezra's place last night before we could leave for Tuscany." Aria choked out.

"What the hell, the FBI! Aria, what happened!" Spencer exclaimed.

"I would of called you sooner but I had to console Ezra, turns out that Nicole still might be alive."

"Wow." Spencer said. She walked over to the coffee machine to get some caffeine. Spencer couldn't think straight without it.

"That was my reaction." Aria stated.

"Well, how is this going to affect your relationship?" Spencer inquired while taking a sip of her coffee.

"I don't know." Aria bluntly stated.

Spencer was about to ask her for some advice about Toby's confession but Aria interrupted.

"Listen Spence, I've gotta go. Ezra is going to start wondering how long I can possibly be in the bathroom."

"Okay, bye." Spencer tried to add in but Aria had already hung up.

Once again alone with her thoughts, Spencer began to think about Toby.

Knowing that thinking about Toby would just lead to emotional turmoil, she decided to call Emily, who knew Toby second best out of the group. Her being number one on that list of course.

Emily picked up on the first ring, like always.

"Hey Spencer, whats up?" Emily said in an optimistic tone.

"I need your advice."

"Okay, what about?" Emily inquired, always eager to help.

"Toby came over last night." Spencer revealed.

"Ooh, did you guys have a slip?" Emily nonchalantly asked.

"Really Emily." Spencer said. "I normally would expect that from Hannah, but from you?" Spencer jokingly accused.

Spencer heard Emily's high pitched laughter on the other end of the phone.

"Just checking." Emily said, still giggling.

"Well no, we did not slip. Toby came to say goodbye."

Spencer heard a gasp on the other end of the phone.

"He also said that he originally was building that house for me, not Yvonne." Spencer continued,"He came to say that he still loved me, but he also loved Yvonne. Toby said he realized that while he was rushing to the hospital to see her. Earlier in the day I told him that he should leave. Keep Yvonne from A's dirty games and leave. He took my advice. They are moving to Maine." Spencer said with tears forming in her eyes.

"When?" Emily asked, her voice suddenly a whisper.

"I don't know. After that he left." Spencer replied solemnly.

"Well come over to my house. I'll call him and ask." Emily declared.

"Okay, thanks." Spencer said, her voice barely above a whisper.

And with that. She left for Emily's place.

Thank you so much for reading! I wanted to thank everyone for reading and say please keep reading, I promise it gets better! Please like, review, comment, follow, and favorite!