Depression
A/N: This is the fourth part of my five-part one-shot series. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. This is Depression.
Six.
Six people.
Six people are dead.
Six people are dead because of me.
Victor.
I am a Victor.
I am a Victor from District 1.
I am a Victor from District 1 and my family hates me for it.
Family.
I have a family.
I have a family, a mother and father, three brothers, a girlfriend.
I have a family, a mother and father, three brothers, a girlfriend with a child on the way.
Child.
My child.
My child who is in the belly of the girl I love.
My child who is in the belly of the girl I love, who no longer loves me.
The Capitol.
The Capitol owns me.
The Capitol owns me and forces me to be a prize.
The Capitol owns me and forces me to be a prize to protect the ones I love.
Love.
Love is what I had.
Love is what I had and lost.
Love is what I had and lost and will never get back.
Depression.
I have depression.
I have depression the real disease.
I have depression the real disease and everything hurts all the time.
The girl.
The girl from Three.
The girl from Three, both from Five, the boy from Seven, the girl from Nine, and the little girl from Eleven.
The girl from Three, both from Five, the boy from Seven, the girl from Nine, and the little girl from Eleven are all dead.
Death.
Death is what I choose.
Death is what I choose as I put this pistol into my mouth.
Death is what I choose as I put this pistol into my mouth and squeeze the trigger.