So I'm sure you all want to know how I came to decide to leave Brian. It wasn't easy. I loved him with all my heart, but I still left him. Because it's what I thought I needed to do to gain happiness. But, if you want to know the specific moment I decided, well here it goes.
So I was sitting in front of the computer while he tried on clubbing attire. He was really pissing me off talking about the guy who rejected him. He said something about, his decline beginning or some shit. When he finished his little speech there was silence then I spoke.
"You know when I was in L.A. fucking round it was fun and all. But when I came back here and you said I should move back in and put my stuff in the drawer. I thought it meant something. That we were finally going to be a real couple. Like Michael and Ben. A house. Maybe even a family."
All I heard was silence.
He needed to say something and fast.
Before I made the decision that would tear my heart to pieces.
I needed him to say something ANYTHING that would convince me to stay.
But that didn't happen.
Because after a few moments, he smoothed his shirt and asked,
"How's this?"
That's what clinched it. That right there was how I made up my mind.
If I wanted to get things like a house and a family I had to leave while I still had a chance.
Even though I would never truly love the person that I found after Brian. I would try to be happy.
So there it is ladies and gents.
That is how I made the decision to leave Brian Kinney.