Suicide
Run into the house.
Quickly lock the door.
Stumble to the bathroom.
I don't want to live anymore.
Look at my reflection.
Tears dripping down.
I wonder what they'll think of me,
When I'm finally found.
Gripping firm, the razor.
Warm wrist to sharp and cold.
I will never see the day
Of when I grow old.
This depression taking over me.
As the blood trickles out.
Gun is taken from the drawer,
Now they'll hear my shout.
Freezing metal inmy mouth.
BANG! Goes the sound.
Head explodes.
And I plumit down.
Sprawled upon the floor.
My heart has now been tainted.
Nobody can hurt me anymore.
Crimson these walls have been painted.
I am dead!
I am gone!
I am finished!
Like I had sworn!
Somebody
Somebody help me, somebody save me
Somebody heal me and please dont play me
Somebody hit me and take the real pain away
Somebody hold me close until the break of the day
Somebody i need you please! I must scream
Somebody please love me and fufill my dream...
Somebody... please... I beg you...
Happily Ever After
I just wanted his hand in mine.
I just wanted to hear his heartbeat in my ear.
I just wanted to be his and no one elses.
I just wanted it to be different this time.
I just wanted him to never leave my side, I wouldn't leave his.
I just wanted a "Happily Ever After" ending..../3
Untitled
Everything bad always seems to happen to me....
Everytime I'm with you, you seem to make me smile....
You make me forget of all my sins and this horrible world....
Thank you for all that you have done, but now it's time to say goodbye...
Love me.
Hate me.
Leave me.
Trust me.
Abuse me.
Anger me.
Destroy me.
Make me.
Murder me.
Idolise me.
Shape me.
Help me.
Slaughter me.
Sick of Crying..
Tired of Trying..
Yeah, I'm smiling, but on the inside...
xxxI'm Dyingxxx
I Thought
I thought I finally received a brea Only to see the sun fall My eyes will not see what they longed to see My lips will not taste what they longed to taste Why does life have to be like this Full of hatred and pain Instead of joy and bliss
It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.
It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.
It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.
But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I hurt alone