Broken
A/N: I do not own 'House M.D.' or any of its characters.
A/N: I got the idea for this fic when I was listening to Kelly Clarkson's song "Because of You"
Chapter 1 Damaged
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I think sometimes he would confuse me with himself. We don't have many things in common; the only thing I can see that ties us both is that we tend to trust the wrong person. And we break when things don't work out.
I think that's why he refused to have feelings for me! Because it would hurt too much when something went wrong, when eventually one of us would hurt the other.
I'm not him. I'm possibly the farthest thing from Gregory House there is.
And he is scared I'm going to follow in his footsteps. I'll fall in love, he'll hurt me and I won't be able to forgive him, and then I'll turn into a sour self-centered person.
I won't.
I promised him I wouldn't and he wouldn't believe me.
I'm too fragile. That's always his answer.
I won't turn into him. I promised myself that, for in the end, I'm already broken and no one can repair the damage.
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"What makes you think I'm not as damaged as you?" I asked. Foreman and Chase had left already and I had to finish paperwork, while House's only excuse was his current Gameboy addiction. "Because you still care," he replied without even looking up.
I never knew just how much Stacy had hurt him, just how much he had cared for her. That night it was all over his face. And his hurt scared me.
I realized he was much more damaged than he let people believe. He could be a sarcastic jerk, all a ruse in which to cover up his true feelings. He pushed me away; he hurt me so I wouldn't turn out like him.
So that I wouldn't turn around and hurt all the ones I cared about. He did it so I could still be able to love.
"I won't turn out like you House. I would know when to stop," I whispered as he got up to leave. He stopped but didn't say anything he just shook his head.
I felt like I should cry, like I should yell or punch something.
But inside everything was just….hollow. I felt as empty as him.
And I decided that maybe falling in love with Gregory House had been a very bad idea.
He wasn't who I thought he was; he didn't save people because he cared or because it was right, or even because he had the intelligence to.
No, he saved people so he could try and feel human again, he fixed them to try and fix himself.
And I realized I had started to do that as well.
That night I decided not to renew my fellowship.
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So till next chapter….
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