The shower was running the warm water hitting my cold flesh.
My tears feel cold as they roll down my cheek.
All I had told myself was wrong.
He didn't want to protect me he just wanted to get into my pants.
He has hurt me time and time again yet I believed he would change.
I just wanted to feel that I was worth something to him.
No one else mattered.
Plenty of others wanted my hand but he had my heart and much more.
I wanted no one else though.
I just wanted his attention.
I just wanted his warmth.
Though he rather have me on my knees then have me by his side.
I knew at the beginning this would not end well but its not till the end I would knew how much it would hurt.
I felt stupid to think that I would be some special girl that he would choose me from all the others.
I'm just another girl out there.
Like all the others feeling heart broken.
Feeling like something is gone.
That your heart is no longer your own.
That your thoughts are no where close to stopping.
The tears finally stop though when the water starts to run cold.
You feel yourself lifted.
You have little choices.
The warm towel wraps around your numb body.
Your feet slowly move towards your room and you see your bed.
The made you made earlier in the morning and now this is where you must now lay.