I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
Guilt kicks in and I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your nightgown used to be
The song played on repeat for what seemed like hours. AJ couldn't break himself away from the song, the lyrics reminded him of his former flame in everyway possible. It made him realize that he made a mistake by letting Kelly walk out of his life.
I told myself I won't miss you
Those words brought tears to AJ's eye. No matter how hard he convinced himself that he wouldn't miss the blonde, he just missed her more. He missed her smile, her laugh, the way she would hug him after a long day. All he did was miss her.
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
Memories of the two together on the couch flashed back in his head. The feeling he got when Kelly was beside him, couldn't be described with words. Having that one special person in his arms, made the love inside him grow. Now that he was all alone, his heart ached for the love he once had.
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
The truth was, Kelly did deserve better than him. AJ was nothing more than a wrestler who had a anger problem. It wasn't fair to her that he would lash out on her. It wasn't fair that he would go weeks without talking to her. Every single thing he did to her, wasn't fair. Kelly deserved to have somebody better, somebody who could love her more than he ever could.
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't wanna lose
That time at the mall
You and me in the dressing room.
A smile suddenly appeared on AJ's face as he remembered trying on halloween costumes. It was just an ordinary day that turned into something a bit strange. Kelly ended up trying on every male costume, whilst he tried on the women's costumes. They shared numerous laughs that day. "Oh, what I wouldn't give to go back to the simpler times." AJ sighed.
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me.
Kelly's innocence was one of the things that AJ loved the most. The blonde was sweet, caring, and compassionate, no matter what people did to her. She was just one of those generally nice people. It sometimes amazed AJ how he ended up with somebody so loving, while he was so mean.
The bed I'm lying is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend...
The lyrics ran through his head, and he sighed. If he would have never ended things, she would still be in his arms. The woman he loved would still be at his side.
I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end...
"This isn't the end." AJ told himself. He was going to fight for Kelly, no matter what it took to get her back. He loved the woman to death and a life without her, was a life like hell.