Title: All That I Want
Summary: Sequel to A Love Like This. Starts off two weeks after Derek propose to Meredith. Will have the wedding planning. The Shepherd Clan invasion of Seattle Grace.
Author Note: Since today is my birthday. I thought I would share with all of you my new story. I hope you like it.
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It was going to be okay.
Meredith decided as she looked nervously at her watch and the nurse stations. Her mother was due to arrive at any moment now. She had left Meredith a message last night to expect her today.
She hadn't been ready to see her Meredith just yet. She wanted to enjoy her engagement for a little while more. Before Ellis Grey dropped the infamous left shoe. Her mother didn't believe in love or happily ever after's. After her parents divorce her mother had become jaded. Love, she had told a young Meredith, was for the ordinary.
"Sweetheart?" Derek questioned her as he stopped in front of her. His brow quirked upward as he tucked his phone back in the pocket of his pocket.
"Hi." Meredith gave him a small smile. "I'm waiting for Ellis Grey to grace us with her presence."
"She won't be that bad." Derek promised to which Meredith just stared at him in amazement. "Okay but will get though it. There isn't anything your mother can say to stop me from marrying you."
"I'm being stupid." She replied softly, "I love you Derek and I love Gavin I don't want my mother to taint that."
"She won't. I'll even get Izzie to take him for the night or something."
"No don't do that." Meredith said.
"Okay I won't." He said taking her hand his thumbing tracing her engagement ring. "We have to set a date."
It had been two weeks since they had become engaged, and since then they had been enjoying the haze of becoming a family.
"I know." Meredith sighed, "Izzie is already bridal books and Cristina is telling me what type of dress she doesn't want to wear."
"I'm sorry." Derek told her, "But at least you don't have Mark offering to officiate."
"Seriously?" She questioned him looking amused, "When did Mark Sloane get ordained?"
"A couple of friends of his had a civil service and Mark wanted to do something helpful. So he signed up online."
"That could be considered." Meredith said and enjoyed the look of surprise from her fiancé. "Imagine you, me, Gavin and Cooper on the top of are land."
"That does sound nice." Derek said repressing the urge to wrap her around his arms. "Although Gavin will try to only wear jeans and t-shirts."
Before Meredith could say anything else she heard the familiar voice of her two friends.
"Is she here yet?" Izzie questioned her eyes wide in amazement.
"Yeah what Blondie said?" Cristina added as she stood on the other side of Meredith.
"No not yet." Derek offered helpfully.
"I can't believe that Ellis Grey is going to be here." Cristina said happier then Derek had ever seen her. "Mer had all her tapes when we were interns. She was like a amazing."
"I don't think I've ever seen you quite so happy Cristina." Derek teased her of all Meredith's friends she was the one that was the hardest to read.
"It's not ever day you get to see a living legend."
"Hush." Meredith ordered the two of them as the elevator door dinged open revealing her mother.
It had been two and a half years since she had last seen her mother. And that was in passing when she had gone back to Boston to see a college friends wedding. But she looked the same. There was a bit more gray then she remembered but Ellis Grey still looked formidable.
"Are you going down there?" Derek asked her quietly.
"Yes of course." Meredith said she was suddenly feeling anxious and unsure of herself.
"Come on Mer." He said his hand on the small of her back as he led her down the stairs. Cristina and Izzie following closer.
"Dr. Grey." Derek said as they approach Meredith behind him. "You might not re…." He started to say but was cut off.
"Of course I remember you Dr. Shepherd." Ellis said holding out her hand, "I had heard a rumor that you came out to Seattle. How are you liking it here?"
"It's a great hospital. A lot of great cases coming though here."
"That's good a talent like yours shouldn't be wasted." Meredith had to suppress a giggle, "Meredith are you just going to stand there?" And just like her giggle impulse died.
"Hi mom." She said stepping from behind Derek. She didn't know exactly what to do and she could feel the eyes of the nurses and the other doctors on their small group of people.
"Meredith." Ellis said steeping closer to squeeze her daughter's hands. "You look we…" She trailed off her eyes going wide as she felt the engagement ring. "Were you going to tell me?"
"Of course I was." Meredith stuttered, "I was just…"
"I stopped her." Derek stepped in, "It's only been two weeks and we've been keeping it to ourselves." His smile was charming and his voice confident.
"You and Dr. Shepherd are getting married."
"Yes." Meredith took a deep breath, "We dated while I was in med school and…"
"Yes I know. Will talk about this later Meredith." She said giving her daughter a sharp nod of her head. "Dr. Yang, Dr. Dr. Stevens." She said nodding in the directions of her friends.
"Well you survived." Derek told helpfully kissing her cheek. He looked down at his beeping pager. "I have to get down to the pit."
He told her walking away. Meredith took a deep breath as she ran a hand though her hair.
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"I'll get it!" Gavin exclaimed as he heard the doorbell.
"Wait Gav!" Meredith called him, "We have to see who it is first." Meredith told him stopping him before he could hurry off toward the door. "Mom," Meredith said in surprise as she opened the front door of her house.
"Hello Meredith." Her mother said her hands inside of her black trench coat.
"Whose that?" Gavin questioned reminding Meredith of his present.
"Mo—Mom this is Gavin, Derek's son." She moved the young boy in front of her, "Gavin this is my mom Dr. Ellis Grey." She said and smiled as Gavin held out his hand.
"It's nice to meet you." He said holding out his little hand for her to shake.
"It's nice to meet you too Gavin." She said grasping his hand.
"Mer, can I go take Cooper out for a walk?"
"Yeah go ahead. Be careful on the edges." Meredith told him as she whistled for his dog. He put the leash on him and walked out of the house.
"He seems like a smart little boy." Ellis said looking unsure for the first time in Meredith's life.
"Yes he is." Meredith replied, "Come on inside." Stepping back Meredith gestured her mother inside.
"This is a nice house."
"Yes. Derek and I designed it ourselves."
"I didn't realized. What are you going to do with house?"
"I think I'll rent it out for a while. For some of the interns they really need a place close to the hospital." Her mother nodded her head and then they fell into an uneasy silence. Meredith worried about she should do next, "Would you like a drink mom?"
"Just some water." Ellis said seating on one of the bar seats. "Were is Gavin's mothers?" She asked suddenly after Meredith put the water glass down in front of her.
"No small talk then." Meredith muttered to herself, "Gavin's mother isn't in the picture. She gave away her rights shortly after he was born."
"So your ready to be a full time mom and a surgeon?"
"Yes." Meredith said her voice firm and sure, "Gavin is a great boy and I would be happy to have ten more just like him."
"You can't have ten children and be a world class surgeon."
"You had one and you were a world class surgeon." Meredith said, "But then again you didn't really take care of me." She said bitterly as she turned her back to her mother. Fighting back the bitter emotion that this conversation where bringing up.
"Meredith," Her mother said standing up behind her, "I didn't come here to argue with you."
"What did you come here for?" She asked looking into her mother eyes.
"I came to…I'm not one of those women Meredith. I haven't dreamed of my daughters wedding day. I'm not going to help you pick out a dress or anything like that." She said and Meredith couldn't help but smile.
"I don't want you to do that." Meredith said, "I don't even want to do that. I just want you to be happy for me."
"I am happy for you." Ellis said touching her shoulder, "Derek is a good man."
"He is." She brushed away a tear out of her eyes. "I really love him mom."
"That's all that matters then." Ellis said softly and went back to her seat to slowly drink her glass of water.
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"Meredith?" Gavin questions her as they watched Ellis drive away.
"Yes." She replied opening the door allowing Cooper to run in a head of them.
"You have a mommy." He stated.
"That's right you just met her." She smiled at him not sure were this conversation was going.
"And daddy's got a mommy."
"Yeah." She said uneasily as she slowly began to understand.
"Do I have a mommy?"
"You have a mommy." Meredith told him as he sat down on the sofa. She sat beside him brushing back his hair.
"Were is she? Doesn't she want to see me?" His voice was shakily and unsure. It was the first time she had every seen him like that. She sighed inwardly as she looked at the little boy.
"Gavin I think it's better if you ask your dad that." Meredith told him.
"But…" Gavin trailed off as Cooper walked toward him and licked his hand. The boy then just nodded his head. "I'm going upstairs."
"Okay." Meredith said turning on the television. She hoped that she was right.
Derek walked into his house with concern.
It was quite.
His house was never quite.
Not with an active six year old, a puppy, and a fiancé who liked have her music on the highest level. With a sigh he sat down his laptop case and took off his coat.
"Mer?" He questioned as he saw her standing in front of the fridge.
"Hi Derek." She smiled at him as he walked forward kissing her softly.
"Why's it so quite in here?" He questioned her stepping back.
"My mother came by."
"Oh." He raised his brow.
"Yeah. Her visit was fine. Gavin seemed to like her and vice versa."
"And?" He asked her.
"Gavin asked me about his mom."
"Oh." Derek sighed running his hand though his hair. "I'll go up and talk to him."
"Okay." Meredith said putting her hand on his chest, "But just be careful okay. I don't want to screw him up like me."
"Your not screw up." He told her kissing her forehead.
"Okay. But I do have daddy abandonment issues."
"I'll keep that in mind." He promised her walking out of the kitchen.
Gavin sat on the floor.
Playing with his racecar as Cooper watched from o top of the bed.
"Hey buddy." Derek greeted his son. Kissing the top of his head and sat down beside him.
"Hi dad." Gavin replied.
"I heard you and Mer had a visitor today."
"Ellis." Gavin nodded, "She's Meredith's mommy."
"Yeah that's right." Derek agreed, "You wanted to ask me a question?"
"About my mommy?"
"Yeah about your mom."
"Why don't I know her?" Derek sighed as Gavin looked over at him.
"Come here." Derek told him putting him on his lap. "Sometimes a mom isn't ready to be a mom. So they let someone who is ready to raise the baby."
"So she doesn't hate me?"
"No. No one can ever hate you." Derek told him, "As a matter of fact let me show you something." Gavin scooted off his fathers lap so he could stand up. Derek laid him down to the master bedroom. Gavin watched as his father opened his closet and pulled down a shoebox.
"I know it's in here." Derek said opening the box. He reached down and pulled out a polaroid. It was a picture of a brunette woman holding a tiny bundle. She was smiling as she started at the camera.
"What this?" Gavin asked holding the picture.
"This is a picture of you and your mom when you were just a few hours old."
"Really?"
"Yes really." He told him.
"Thanks daddy." Gavin hugged him and took the picture.
"No problem Gavin." Derek told him letting him go, "You can talk to me about anything you know that."
"I know." Gavin nodded his head.
"Good. I'm going to go change out of my work clothes and then we can go downstairs and watch a movie?"
"Okay." Gavin said walking out of the room. Closing the box back and walking back into the closet.
He felt arms wrapping around his chest and a kissing on his cheek.
"What's that for?" He questioned her.
"You're a great dad." Meredith simply told him. And walked out of his closet.
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Author Note: Chapter One of my sequel. If you are new to this series I suggest you read A Love Like This. It's in my author profile and it will make the last part of this chapter easier to understand. Hopefully the birthday fairy will bring me a new laptop so I can update quicker.
Anyway As Always,
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