Pairing: Mitko
Summary: Mitsui's thoughts after loosing his beloved Kogure and how he truly blamed himself for their loss after such a long period of time.
A/N: I wrote this because I was inspired by the song 'Easier to Run' by Linkin Park from their new album, Meteora. This is my very first songfic so I hope you like it. Don't forget to review. I do hope my first mitko is nice, it's a one-shot anyways so, I do hope you like it, and try to hear the song, its really nice, that's why I decided to make this mitko for once…^_____^;; Thanks for reading…
Disclaimer: I don't own any anime, whatsoever just the fanfics…
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Easier to Run
By: KaedeRukawa_kill
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**start**
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
My mind has insisted to leave basketball for all eternity yet after years of such confusion my heart stood in denial. Never erasing the passion I felt for it, patiently waiting for the right time. Until my own feet led me to the basketball court, I once loved and hated, where my dreams were built and shattered.
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Without realizing the course of events, I found myself falling deeply in love with Kogure Kiminobu, something I once told myself never to do.
Something has been taken
From deep inside me
A secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see
He was the only one who can see right through me. And before I knew again, both of us found understanding and love was conquered after years of wasted time.
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years they've played
We spent some years in college together until he fell sick. Every pain he felt, was hurting me the same way. Fate clearly repeats itself, and again took away my precious Kimi-chan I learned to love. I blame myself for such a loss, if only the years I spent in the wrong path, was spent for Kimi-chan.
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If this was my punishment, I clearly wish it was me who suffered not him, not anyone. I more than deserve it that Kimi-chan. His smiles that could bring the whole team at peace, a kind-heart, and the care he showed me along the way.
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
He was the only one who gave me a second chance, believed in me and supported me in every way. But now, what will I do, each member of the team came to comfort me yet what's the use. You will never come back to me, and I feel the same old me.
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave
I feel alone, confused and lost. Every single memory of you hunting me, how you'd lead me to such place. But I'm just a normal being and I can never do anything to help you from such pain.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
If I could hide from everything, I'd gladly would. If I could protect you from the pain, I'd gladly have it for myself than let someone like an angel suffer.
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Death could have been my answer but there are still some answers I seek from the world. The answer I found from you and lost again.
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didn't have
If only I realized sooner, I could have prevented myself from doing such cruelty to others. My gangster years were such a mess, memories which came to hunt me the same way your easy smile came to me. And I found no answers to stop them from coming back.
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
But every time, I tried to say good-bye, I feel I'm turning you away after all the things you did for me and I can't help but look back and remember what went before. If I stop creating my future, I fell I'm turning your hardships away and stopping you from helping me forget and again I can't help remembering the precedent times.
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
I truly blame myself for the crucial events that happened to Kimi-chan and yet my image still seemed peaceful and happy to him. He never blame me for such happenings. Love…
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
I love him so much; he was the only one who cared for me. Helped me come back to the present and even let me change and feel the warmth of his sincere love.
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave
But everything shattered and disappeared when he fell to a terrible sickness even me was too shocked. I have found the answers yet I do not care anymore cause it was also taken away…love…Kogure Kiminobu.
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don't feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
The ocean's vast water spread that relaxes everyone who is deep in thought, lost and confused. The plants and animals that God created 'til a certain time just like me and Kimi-chan. The life we learned to progress and take good care of, the life we shared to our lovers, the inspiration it once emitted.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
Now each single pain has engulfed me, loneliness I truly feel cause of the loss Kimi-chan. The same thing that occurred when I lost basketball. Everything you love is taken away from you, especially from me. Death…
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
I jumped to the cold ocean water; let my body drift by the great bodies of water. Be swallowed by fishes that came to rest at shore. The pain I felt in my lungs, lack of oxygen will soon be gone. I want to be with my Kimi-chan, the place I truly found myself.
It's easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
The light from the sky, under the waters is truly blinding, each dream I once hoped has been shattered, each pain I felt while leaving will soon be gone. Good-bye…to the world, I lived my life; I learned to survive, dream, care, understand, hope and love for the very last time.
It's easier to go
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave
And as finally darkness engulfed my senses, and my soul left me…death has come to be my last choice. Kimi-chan…aishiteru…
A/N: I hope you liked the fic, don't know what came over me and wrote this fic…the song was really nice and the whole album too…don't forget to review ne? Tell me what you think…thanks and have a nice vacation…^______^;;