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Lets Blame Fate One Last Time

Kensi walked through the front door slamming it behind her. It had been a tough case at work and the case really hit home for Kensi more than the others. She slid down the door to exhausted to take another step. Unshed tears threaten to fall as she thought about the case. A marine was killed before he got a chance to say how much he loved his coworker and it got Kensi thinking about her attitude towards Deeks. She had to admit to herself that this is not where she imaged herself in ten years. She imaged that she would be married to Jack, even have a couple of kids, and be the team mom. The realization hurt yes but, she just can't get over him yet. Some mornings she still wakes up and expects to see him next to her. She knows she can't just blame fate and how may be she was just meant to be that crazy cat lady. She never believed in fate so she couldn't start to blame it now, even thought she really wants to. Every night lying in bed she thinks about him. She's read a few love stories to know that it's not meant to be easy and that everyone has some sort of revaluation eventually but, every time she thinks about love her partner comes into the picture. She doesn't know why but she can't take it any more. So she grabs her phone out of her pocket and sends him a quick and simple text.

Not Fine. Please Come Over. K

She knows by what she wrote that her partner will be there in five minutes, he always is and she hopes always will be. She gets up and go washes her face, so she doesn't look like she's been crying because he'll have a fit about it. As soon as she is done her door bell rings, she takes a deep breath and prepares herself for what's to come. She opens the door and meets with a pair of very worried cerulean eyes.

"Hey are you ok?"

"No" I said as I invite him in.

"What's wrong is it about how I made that joke earlier about doughnuts because it's true."

"Deeks don't coy with me I'm serious. Don't laugh at me when I say this but where do you see yourself in ten years."

Married to you. He wanted to say but didn't so he said a more realistic answer. "I don't know"

"I am so sick of dissembling about how I feel about you." Kensi stated bluntly throwing Deeks for a loop.

"What!" he said not quite sure he hear her right but before he could question she intervened. "I don't think I heard you right."

"I am sick of the banter benign flirting, the lying to myself. I can't take it anymore I want to move on. I want to be with you. We only live once and I for one have wasted enough time. I have writhed myself out of enough moments with you. For once I just want to be with you. I don't want to be scrutinized for standing up for you or teasing you with jokes. I want the jokes to end. I want the world, our team, our family to see us together. I want us to see us together. I know you love me. You have made that quite clear every day and I don't want to pretend that I don't care see it anymore. I love you Deeks. I want to move on. I am ready to take the leap of faith. I just have one question. Are you?"

"Yes I was always ready. I was just waiting on you Princess." Deeks said. For the first time in his life he wore a genuine smile.