First and last and always
by Belladonna
He stood outside, behind the mansion
and the sun was at the verge of disappearing behind the horizon while it
deepened the whole grounds into an orange-red light, at some points it even
drew some more redder dots onto the grass or onto the huge mansion, whose
actually red stones shone even more intensive. The evening was beautiful, some
birds sang in the distance and on the other side of the garden some crickets
made silent chirping sounds, that a normal human could never hear from this
distance. But for the man who stood here on this evening this made no
hindrance. The crickets could be heard as good for him, they could as well have
been chirping right next to him.
But they were not and otherwise on
this evening everything was silent here on the mansion grounds, a silent breeze
came over the mansion and there lay a certain peace above the grounds. This
evening seemed to be perfect, the colours of the nearing fall and the setting
sun gave it a special light and meaning, a truly perfect evening, like there
hadn't been much lately.
The man simply stood there, he said
nothing and in his hand, he held a single red rose.
No watcher might notice something
strange here nor might he notice something out of the ordinary, for it was
almost like on every evening of the past year.
No watcher, who might watch over the
grounds this night would know or notice that this evening was certainly not
like all the others before, that this evening might be a special evening for
the man named Logan.
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Everything is
peaceful here right now, so silent and in complete harmony. It is a moment,
that is made for never wanting to end, at least that is it that I wish for
right now, that it might never end for me here, now that I am united with you,
Jean. For you are my life, all I live for and for what I'd give mine. Never
before I have felt these deep emotions for anybody, never before I have felt
something this pure and honest in my life. My love for you is something that
gives my soul peace and calmness, that makes me the man I am now and the one
who wants to spend his life with you, now and then and for all time.
From the beginning on, the very
first moment I have seen you, I have been fascinated of you, have I felt drawn
towards you and been caught by your beautiful eyes and your gentle smile. From
the very first moment on, I knew that you were something special, that you
would be something special and that it would be you, who would change my life
forever, only you.
And you have done that, Jean,
because of you I have become a different person than I had been before and I
would never change anything about this, for nothing in the world would I take
anything back I have said to you. I would never take back to have told you how
much you mean to me, how much I love you.
You, Jean, are the first thought I
have when I wake up in the morning and the last one before I close my eyes for
the night, when I am lying next to you. From the first moment on, I knew that
you would be the woman, I want to spend my life with, for from that first
moment on you caught my heart and never given up your hold on it. It will be
you, that will be on my mind one day when I will have to die, the one my
thoughts belong to, when I will close my eyes forever, for in that case I will
die happily.
Oh, Jean, I love you more than
anything else in the world, more than I could ever have loved or ever will love
another woman, and nothing or nobody in the world will be able to change that,
never.
I loved you from the first moment on
I saw you and I will until the last one of my life, when I will take my final
breath one day. My heart will always belong to you, it has already at the
beginning and will belong until the end, for ever. I love you so much, Jean.
At first and at last. I always will.
~fin~
to be continued in
" A day to remember" or in
"Forever"
Author's notes: As you might have seen now, this
story continues in two different ones. I have come up with two different
endings for this one and the storyline, and I know which one you might probably
prefer, I definitely know which one's my favourite. But I will give out both of
them, so you can make your own picture of it for yourself. So far a few things
about them, spoilers if you wish. The sequels to this one have one for which
you, if you have read all the previous stories of "A study in Romance", my
Jean/Logan romance storyline, might definitely need some Kleenex, well for the
other one probably, too. But I don't want to give too much away, so hope you
liked this one and I hope you will like the ending in the next story, the one
you like better, at least for now.
First and last and always
By: Belladonna