Disclaimer: I do not own CCS.
Pairings: None.
Summery: They say mirrors show the reflection of your true self…
Author's Notes: I got this plotbunny while watching the Bloody Mary episode of Supernatural.
Re-uploaded as of 1/07/07
True Self
Who am I exactly?
Am I just Clow Reed's reincarnation? Am I Eriol Hiirigizawa? Am I both?
Everybody keeps making comparisons between Clow and me… and I hate it.
And Kaho… she isn't in love with me. She is in love with a dead man. A man that I was and can never be in this lifetime. Not for her and certainly not for me.
I looked into the mirror. Pale skin, gray eyes, (1) navy colored hair. Glasses. Sharp features.
Whenever I looked in that one mirror I can only see him. Shoulder length hair and sharp features. And yet…and yet whenever I feel my hair, it felt short and when I feel my face it is still rounded with baby fat.
Why can't I see myself in this mirror? Why can I never see my reflection on its surface? Every time I look at that simple mirror, or anything that belonged to him or was ever associated with him, I could only see Clow Reed.
How pathetic is that? Stuck in the shadow of a dead man. A dead man who I once was.
They say that a person's eyes are the windows to their souls. Do I have a soul? A true soul? A soul that is entirely mine and not something recycled from a different lifetime?
I looked in the mirror again, watching as it manifested into his face, the same face that smirked back at me as I try to smile. Mocking me all the while as I try to see myself.
Smile, Master. Look in the mirror. Now aren't you a handsome little fellow?
My dear nanny, if only you knew back then.
They say mirrors can show your true self. If that's true, does that mean I am a Clow Reed clone? A doppelganger? A simulacrum? Just a shell for his soul perhaps?
Or simply just Eriol Hiirigizawa?
Legend has it that mirrors can trap a soul. The reason why all mirrors are covered when a loved one dies is so their soul doesn't get trapped within one. If a soul happens to get trapped within a mirror, the only way to release the soul is to break the mirror.
I wonder if that is what happened to Clow Reed? When he died, was there a mirror in the room?
If I break that mirror, without his magic, will it show my reflection on its shards?
The mirror shattered as I stared at the reflection on its bloody shards. I wonder if it's mine.
I heard his laughter all around me.
Owari
Author's Notes: This wasn't quite what I had in mind when I got this plotbunny but I suppose it's okay. R and R! (Read and Review)
(1)Okay I know in the anime he has blue eyes but other people has referred to him as having gray eyes and it fit the story so… yeah.