AN: Well, this is my first Grey's Anatomy fic, and although I wasn't sure about it, I posted it anyways. Please R&R.

Chapter 1

"Who's presenting?

Meredith Grey stepped forward. "Renae Edwards, 19 year old female, sustained head trauma from a car accident. CT showed a tumor in the right frontal lobe. Derek Shepard looked at Meredith. "What do we do?" "The tumor is in her frontal lobe. Surgery can remove it, but it is highly risky. She has about a 45 chance of making it off the table." "From the scans it seems that she has about 4 weeks to live without the surgery." Derek looked down at the young woman. "Do you have any questions Ms. Edwards?"

"Can someone call Paige Bryans and have her pick up my son from daycare. They called and asked me to come."

"Of course."

"I think he is coming down with something, he was feeling sick today, but I have to work so I had to take him to daycare."

"When he gets here we'll check him out okay?"

"Okay." Derek and everyone but Meredith leaves.

"Do you have any questions about your diagnosis?"

"Why didn't they see it earlier? I mean, if its so bad, why couldn't my doctor have known, I had a physical less than 3 months ago."

"Sometimes you wont have any symptoms. You didn't." Meredith looked down at her. "Do you need anything else?"

"Yeah, I think I'm going to write a letter to my family, just incase I don't get to tell them in person. Can you help me?"

"Of course. Let me go get some paper and then I'll be back." Meredith smiled as she left the room. A few moments Meredith reentered the room. "Okay. Got it. Whenever your ready to begin." Slowly Renae started speaking, "Lucas, my baby, I love you. The day you were born was the best day of my life. I know we don't talk about your daddy, but when the time is right, Nana will tell you about him. He was wonderful. I want you to run around and get dirty. Laugh till your stomach hurts. Be kind, and respectful to your elders. Smile everyday, even if everything in your life is going wrong. Be happy my son. Life is what you make it. Don't be afraid to cry, it doesn't make you weak. Fall for the girl of your dreams, and cherish her with all you have. Lucas Michael, I love you, you will never be alone, because I will also be with you. I love you always and forever, Mommy." Meredith looked up and noticed the tears running down Renae's cheeks.

"Would you like to take a break?"

"Yes please." Meredith nodded.

"When you want to continue, have the nurse page me." All Renae could do was nod.

Meredith went down to the interns hallway, and sat down on one of the gurneys. Finally she let the tears fall.

15 minutes later

Beep Beep Beep

Meredith looked down at her pager. Room 3073. Meredith made her way back up to Renae's room to help her finish saying goodbye. On her way there she ran into Derek. "Is she going to have the surgery?"

"Yeah, but she needs some time first, she's writing a goodbye letter and she wants to make arrangements for her son. She knows that there is a chance she wont make it, but she would rather take the chance than not."

"Hey" Derek rubbed his hand along her cheek, "are you okay, you look like you were crying."

"I'm fine Derek, where's your wife?" Meredith turned around and left, being near him was too hard when she couldn't have him.

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"Hey Renae, do you want to continue?"

"Yeah. I want to be done before Luke gets here." Meredith nodded and sat down. Renae took a deep breath and began,

"Mom, take care of Rose, tell her about me. Show her pictures and tell her stories. Make her laugh, often. Let her play in the rain, like you let us. Let her experience life and let her have fun. Take care of yourself. Never doubt that you are a wonderful mother, because you are. You are my hero. Never forget that I love you. Help to take care of Luke, and tell him about my Michael one day. I love you.

"Dawn, your in the middle now, be the mediator. Take care of Rose and Marie, and of little David. Love with all you have and live life like there's no tomorrow. Believe in everything you do. I love you, take care of yourself and have faith that everything will work out in the end.

"Marie, be a great mom to David, he will become a wonderful man if you guide him. Remind him of his Auntie Renae and tell him that I love him. Please take care of yourself and make sure that you love David with all you have. I love you.

"Dad, I love you and hope that you have a good life. Please take care and be a good grandpa. I love you.

"Lynn, I love you. Please give James a kiss for me, even though he doesn't remember me. Love him with all you have because that little boy deserves it. I love you guys.

"Lisa, kiss my lil' bug for me. Tell Kathryn I love her. Let her run around and let her experience life. Show her the beauty of a butterfly, or a raindrop. Be the wonderful mother I know you can be. Teach her about love and life. I love you.

"Paige, I love you so much. Thank you for being there every step of the way with Luke. I'm so sorry that I couldn't be Jamie's godmother. If I could have a I would have. Tell her about me, I'll be her godmother from heaven. I love you.

"Anne, you are one of my oldest and best friends. I love you. Remember all the good times that we had, like on my birthday in the hotel room years ago, that was great. I need you to take care of my little boy for me. I'm entrusting you with his care because I know you will raise him like he should be raised. Let him run and have fun. If anything should happen to you, please allow Paige to look after him. Let him spend lots of time with his Nana, they are close. Please look after Rose and Dawn too. I love you. Don't forget me please.

"I love you all, and hope that you wont forget to remember me."

Meredith let her tears fall as she listened to the young woman give her son away. She was still writing down what Renae had said.

"Dr. Grey, thank you so much. I don't think that I would have been able to do that by myself. As soon as my baby boy gets here I will have the surgery, but I have to tell him I love him one last time." Meredith couldn't say anything, so she nodded and left the room. She went into the closest on-call room and locked the door behind her. She sank down into the bed and sobbed. When her tears subsided she placed a hand on her stomach and smiled. She hoped she was as good a mother as Renae.