It had been years since I had seen the family that ripped my heart out and drug it through
dirt, it had been years since I last cried over them, and it had been years since I had been changed into one of them. Yes, that's right, I, Bella Swan, am a vampire…and you know what? I'm a damn good one. I decided that it was time I told my story; recent events have caused me to feel the need to finally open up and spill the beans…so to say. I know everyone is dying to know if I'm back with the Cullens, but I'm not ready to talk about that yet. For you all to understand where I am today, you need to know about all the things that have happened to me since the Cullens left. I'll warn you, this isn't a pretty story. I didn't go through the change with ease, and I had a few slip ups. I'm not writing this story to give you all warm fuzzies, I'm writing this story to entertain and inform you. I hope that reading about my trials and tribulations might help someone else out there, and that's all I really want is to help other people. I'll also let you know that I don't want you to feel sorry for me. I don't need your pity, I've felt plenty of pity for myself and it didn't do me any good.
I guess the best place to start would be at the beginning, isn't that where all good stories begin? Ha…Well, on with the beginning then. Everyone knows about my relationship with Edward. You all know about the love, the danger, and the fact that he left me standing alone in the forest completely broken. Everyone know about that right? Okay, after Edward left I started doing things that were a little….one could say….dangerous. Part of me desired to hear the voice that only came to me when I was doing something reckless, and part of me wanted to make him feel terrible for what he did. I had it in the back of my mind that he did still love me, and that if he got word that I had been hurt he would never forgive himself, I know it's a little melodramatic of me, but I wanted him to hurt as bad as I was. The day my life took a turn, for the different, I was searching for our meadow. I had been lost in the dense green forest for what felt like hours. The knees of my jeans were soiled with dirt from how many times I tripped over stumps and rocks, and my hands were bloodied and scraped from catching myself as I fell. I was damp and disheartened. I thought I knew where I was going, but obviously I didn't and I was utterly lost. I wanted to cry.
This search wasn't supposed to leave me feeling this way; I was hoping to get some closure, but being lost in the woods just made me feel more alone. I decided to take a break and I sat down on a big rock that was covered in a dense moss and pulled a water bottle out of my backpack, at least I had been smart enough to bring some food and water. The cool water soothed the burning sensation in my throat and I wondered if this is what it felt like to thirst for blood, I concluded that it probably wasn't even close. As I sat on the rock stretching my sore muscles I got the eerie feeling that someone was watching me, you know when all the hairs on the back of your neck stand up and you become super alert, yeah, that's the feeling. I turned to the left, nothing but miles and miles of green. So I turned to the right and my breath caught in my throat. About 3 inches from my face was a face. The face had the whitest teeth I had ever seen, smooth skin that I could imagine existing, and blood red eyes.
"Hello sweet Bella" purred Laurent.
He walked around to stand in front of me, he looked much like he had the last time I saw him. He was wearing the same tattered jacket that he had been wearing that day, and his hair was still in dread locks, he was still pale and beautiful…but something about him looked different. The look in his eyes was different but I couldn't tell what was off about it. I must have stared at him for a while because he picked up on my puzzled expression.
"Something wrong?" he asked tilting his head to the side as a cat might do when it's feeling a little confused.
"I…Uh…Nothing." Was the pathetic reply I managed to squeak out.
"I see you're a little shocked" he smirked. HA. Understatement of the year!
"Just a little" I whispered.
Just a little might have been the biggest lie I had ever told. I didn't really understand why Laurent was still here, hadn't the Cullens made sure the land was vamp free before they left me unprotected?
"Just a little, mmm…" he stated, he seemed to get lost in thought as he began walking in a circle around me, "Why are you out here all alone Miss Bella? Where is your protector?"
He seemed to sneer the last word out. Well it looks like I now knew why he was here, it didn't take a rocket scientist to interpret the vibes he was giving off. He despised the Cullens, I just didn't understand why.
"Good question." I replied. "I haven't seen any of them in weeks." I don't know what made me tell him, I guess it was my own little death wish that I was signing. If he knew that the Cullens weren't here he I was as good as dead, but now that I look back I'm glad I told him. I mean undead is better than dead right? "Do you mean that the Cullens have left you dear?" he purred into my ear. I shuddered partly from his cold sweet smelling breath on my neck and partly because I was being forced to remember that the Cullens had left me. "Yes, they left" I whimpered and began to sob. I suddenly felt a cool hand on my shoulder, and I felt an overwhelming sense of comfort from this simple gesture. I collapsed into Laurent's chest and cried for a very long time. I could tell from the way his body stiffened underneath me that he was not expecting me to do that. It is kind of funny if you think about it, I was sure he was just about to drain me dry, and yet he was letting me cry on his chest. At least he was a compassionate vampire. Needless to say, I cried a lot. I cried for myself, I cried for the Cullens, and I cried for Charlie. I was sure at this point that Laurent wasn't going to let me go. I just hoped that Charlie wasn't the one who had to find my body.
I cried and cried and cried, I only stopped when I heard a twig snap not far away. I looked up suddenly, whipping the tears from my eyes and the snot from my nose, and wouldn't you know, there was the other vamp I that I was sure would have a hand in my untimely demise, the moody red head herself not 5 feet away. She didn't look too pleased to see me….which just made me feel even more sure that my life was about to end. Laurent stood up and walked to Victoria leaving me alone again. I watched as he spoke to her so quite that I couldn't make out what he was saying, but I was sure she heard every word. Stupid vampires and their stupid abilities, ugh. They kept looking over at me, which made me very uncomfortable, and for half a second I considered running for it, but I knew it would only make it worse for me. I was so angry in this moment. How could Edward have left me here alone knowing that these two bottom feeders were still lurking around in the shadows? He really must not care an ounce about me, and that realization ripped the thin scab that had formed over the hole in my heart right off. I sat and cried, while the two vampires that held my life in their hands discussed how they were going to drain my blood from my body.
I watched them as they talked. Their movements were so graceful, and even though I knew how evil they were I couldn't help but be mesmerized by their beauty. They were the ultimate predator, Edward had said that to me once…he had said that he was the ultimate predator, but I had never believed him. I did now, watching the beautiful movements of the two vampires that were about to kill me made me actually want to be close to them, weird I know. Victoria looked at me and smiled, it wasn't smile of hatred, or a smile that said "I'm about to suck your blood." It was a smile that was full of menace. I had seen that smile before, once Alice had done it right before she forced me into a chair and put highlights into my hair. Ugh…I shuddered thinking about how bad that stuff had burned my scalp…
"Bella" the soft voice snapped me back to reality. "Bella love" Victoria smiled as she walked towards me, "I am sure you aren't a stupid girl, you know what is coming don't you…"
I shock my head, to scared to talk.
"Well I have a surprise for you," she smiled clasping her hands in front of her in shear joy…and I awaited to hear what she had planned for me.