Authors Note: I haven't written in so long, so please bare with me. I hope you enjoy. P.S: Name of the story may change

Desolation

Leah was over Sam, well over him. She had been for a very long time. He was only the beginning of the long list of heartbreaks she has had to endure. The pack wonders why she is how she is. It's because of them and most of all, it's because of Embry Call

"Why are you such a bitch, Leah?" Paul growled at me as I, once again, refused to come into the house of Sam and Emily. It shouldn't be much of a surprise to them, I deny their offer every day and have done since I first phased.

I looked around and noticed a few of the pack members were nodding in agreement with Paul. I glared at all of them while remaining silent, hoping that Paul would just drop it. I wasn't in the mood to answer to them today. I didn't want them to know the real reason why I avoided everything to do with anything outside the 'Pack duties' they already assumed it was because of Sam and Emily's relationship, but I was far over that. I wouldn't let any of them know the real reason why my personality changed drastically.

"Is it because Sam left you?" Jared spoke up with mockery in his voice. I let a growl escape past my lips as I looked up to glare at him, only for him to be looking at Paul with a smirk on his face. "Why don't you just get over it already? Get over the fact that you weren't good enough for him and get over the fact that he has someone else. Just move on!"

Truth is, I am over it. Maybe not to the point where I am comfortable to be around them, but I have learned to forgive them and move past all of this and the pain that had been causing me.

As I went to stand up, I heard a low growl from beside me, my brother had locked his eyes on Jared and looked like he was ready to tear his head off. Truth it, I would have loved to see that, but im not in the mood. I placed my hand on Seth's shoulder and gave him a slight smile, "It's okay, Seth. I got this."

I walked closer to Jared, every time I spoke one word, I would move a step closer, "I am over it, asshole!"

"That's a lie," Paul chimed in, instantly stopping me in my tracks. I swiftly began heading in his direction. "If you were, you wouldn't continue to bitch and moan about every little thing the pack has to do!"

"That's rich, coming from you fuckwit," I sneered, my face reddining with anger as I felt my body start to tremble. Instinctively, my hands balled up into fists and my eyes closed.

"Then why are you so pissed all the time, Leah?" this time it was Quill that spoke up. He spoke softly, almost as if he was genuinely concerned.

I opened my eyed to find everyone's eyes on me, everyone but Seth and Embry. I turned to face Quill and glanced at him for a brief second, "You don't want to know Quill. You won't like it, none of you will. Especially not Jacob!"

"What the hell do you mean, especially not Jacob?" Jacob sneered as he looked in my direction, "Nothing you could say or do could make me like you even less,"

"Want a bet?" I couldn't help but have a smirk on my face as I looked at him. Almost as if I was accepting a challenge he never even started.

"Tell us Leah," it was Sam this time, he came out hand in hand with Emily – of course- they're glues to each other.

I shook my head and began to walk towards the clearing of the forest, "It's nothing that concerns any of you…" I trailed off as I felt myself being pulled back by Jacob Black.

"What. The. Fuck. Is. Your. Problem?!" Jake spoke angrily as his grip on my arm tightened.

"First of all," I said as I shoved his hand angrily off my arm, "Don't fucking touch me like that ever again and second of all," I shoved a finger into his chest, "You want to know what's going on in my fucking head. Fine! I don't understand why we have to keep fighting for Bella! There I said it!"

Jacob began shaking as he started walking towards me, only to be shoved back by Seth. I hadn't noticed Seth come and stand beside me, but as I looked up at him, he stared down at me protectively.

"I don't get why I specifically have to help you save her? What's the fucking point! She's going to die anyway. You have to accept it, she chose Edward, Jake. Not you! So I don't get why we have to fight to save her!" I yelled.

"Because she's still human," Jake growled as he took steps towards me. I saw Seth take a step forward in a protective manner. I can take care of myself, so I stepped forward as well, almost as if I was challenging Jake. "… and don't you EVER tell me to get over something while you still haven't gotten over the fact that your precious Sam imprinted on your cousin, who is better than you will ever be!"

"That's enough Jacob," Sam commanded. Jake shrunk back while his eyes continued to shoot daggers at me.

"Why does everyone assume I'm still in love with Sam. I got over him a long time ago," I growled as I flung my hands up in the air.

"Sure, whatever you say." Came the voice of the one and only Embry Call. My eyes bulged in anger as I looked over at him. As I stared into his eyes, I felt the sensation of tears coming, that was until I tried my hardest to push those feeling aside.

"Shut the fuck up, Call!" I yelled, "All of you just shut up!"

"Aw, is the B-"

"Paul, Shut it!" Sam commanded.

Thoughts were flooding my brain a hundred miles a minute, I couldn't think and what I could think of was everything that made me to be what I am today, the bitter harpy, as some of the pack have dubbed me. I felt my knees beginning to get weak from all the emotions I began to feel, I made my way towards the foot of Emily and Sam's house and sat down, placing my elbows on my knees and resting my head in my hands.

"I got over Sam a while ago…" I trailed off, I was sick of holding this all in "Sam was just the start of the heartbreak I began to feel. Then there was…"

I cut myself off before I glanced around at the confused members of the pack.

"Then what, Lee…" Seth whispered in my ear. I just shook my head and closed my eyes.

"Then what?" this time it came from Embry, almost as if he was daring me to say what only he knew. But I couldn't. I wouldn't open those gates up, not now, not ever…

"What the fuck is going on with you, Leah?" Jake argued.

"You care why? Last time I checked the only person that cared about me is Seth. He's the only one! No one else. So why should I waste my time explaining to you what is going on with me when none of you give a shit about me!" I yelled as Seth placed a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"Because none of us want to have to deal with your bitchy ass attitude anymore, Clearwater" Paul sneered.

I glanced at Emrby before I began speaking, his eyes met mine for a brief second before he closed his eyes and looked away from me.

Looking around, I began to speak softly, they wanted to hear it, so they would.

"It wasn't just Sam and Emily…" I began, a hint of anger lacing my words, "It was all of you, excluding Seth,"

"Us, what are you-"

"Where were all of you when I needed you?" I yelled, anger and sadness lacing my voice, "Where were all of you when my father passed away? I had NO ONE!"

My eyes filled with tears ad the thought of my father, my best friend, "Where were you all? I had phased, you all knew that. But you chose to stay away from me! You were all there for Seth and my mother, but not me!"

"Because no one could stand to be around you, Leah" Jared spoke, of course, he had to get his dig in while I was at my most vulnerable.

Seth growled at Jared until I began speaking again.

"I was in my room, listening to everything you all said downstairs. You gave comforting words to my brother, to my mother but did ANY of you come up to see if I was fine? If I was okay?

"I needed someone to be there for me too you know! I needed someone to tell me everything was going to be alright. I needed all of you. But none of you were there. My mother was too heartbroken to be there for me. Seth was there but he was hurting just as much as I was. The difference is, he had the support of all of you. I didn't."

A tear slipped out of my eye and I didn't even attempt to wipe it away. What's the point?

"Leah, we-" began Quill.

"What? You didn't know I was hurting?" a bitter laugh escaped my lips, "I'm there for you all, fighting all your battles and no one was there to help me find mine," I then turned to Jacob, "So no Jacob, I am not happy to fight to save Bella Swan, because aside from Seth, no one was there to help save me…" I glanced around the room before I continued, "So no, I don't want to help fight for Bella, but I will because it's my obligation…"

"Why didn't you tell us, Leah?" Embry glanced at me. His word hitting me like bullets.

"I-I thought you would have known. You of all people should have known. You are all supposed to be my pack brothers," I then turned to Embry as yet another tear past my eyes, "But above all of that, Embry. You are the main reason why my life fell apart,"

Desolation

So I began writing this story 5 years ago and I even uploaded a couple of chapters on here, however I realised how absolute shit it was so I wanted to re-write it as I have recently been getting back into writing. This was previously known as "Space in my heart" so if you were around reading fanfiction back the and this sounds familiar to you, you may have read it before. I am also formally known as the username "XxFutureWWEDivaxX"