Okay, I've pretty much lost my writing "talent" if I ever had any to begin with. I haven't updated in like what...3 months? Wow. So you guys don't expect much from me now. 

I'm starting from the END OF EPISODE 8. Hope you like. And please review.

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After Derek walked out of the elevator, Meredith was left there standing like a complete and total failure. She felt as if she'd never feel happy ever again and basically her life had just tumbled down a steep, steep hill and that Addison was just a huge, red headed log in the way.

Meredith slowly got out of the elevator, looked both ways hoping to see that Derek was still there, she really needed to talk to him and just pour her heart out. But Derek was no where to be seen. She sighed deeply and headed for the locker rooms, getting ready to head home after another put down.

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Derek had a lot of trouble making himself walk out the elevator. He truly didn't want to, but he knew he must, of course after all, he DID choose Addison instead. Derek thought he would never life this down unless he went back and talked to her, he had just turned the corner around the chairs, but he stopped, thought for a moment and went back towards the elevators. And there was Meredith…

"Mer! Wait!" Derek yelled out, hoping that she would actually turn around and say something to him.

"What do you want NOW!" Even though she still cared for him, at that moment she really could have cared less. "Just leave me alone. Don't bother 'apologizing' like you always do, it's not gonna work this time."

"Meredith, I want to talk to you, I NEED to talk to you."

He sounded so desperate; she just couldn't hold it back anymore, sighed and practically sobbed out, "Derek, I miss you. I miss you a lot. Nothing's right anymore, I'm not right anymore."

"Meredith…shhhhh, just shhhhhhh." Derek was quite speechless, he had no idea what to do, he never expected her to do this, and he was just unprepared for all that excess emotions. He pulled her towards him, and just held her, kissed her forehead.

"I can't! I just can't take it anymore! I'm sick and tired of being the 'totally fine person' because you know what! I'm not fine. The least finest person ever to be alive at this exact moment." Meredith pulled away, wiped the tears that were steadily rolling down her cheek, she walked briskly to the locker rooms and didn't bother turning back.

"Damn it." He cursed under his breath and said to himself. "Why do you have to be such a jerk Derek? Why…? The one time she is sober enough to tell the truth, you let her slip away. Dude! Go after her!"

"Meredith! Meredith wait!" He raced after her, hoping she would answer back. He caught her just in time, she was stepping into the locker rooms when he grabbed her arm gently. "Meredith, go out to dinner with me, please?"

There ya go you guys. I do hope you liked it… Please send reviews. I'll post more soon…

-Yuxin (and that's really my name )