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B.O.V

I give up…

I flopped myself down onto my bed and lay there. It seemed only fit to do so. Why couldn't life be as easy as this? Why was I the only person, who seemed to get hurt so badly over this?

''Hey tiny, what's up?''

I peeked through my eye closest to my door. Jasper was leaning against it with a smug smile on his face. I chucked a pillow at him and moaned.

'' Go away big brother. You know perfectly well what happened.''

I heard him chuckle at my failed attempt to hit him with the pillow. I then felt something sit against my bed.

''Aww, hey kido. Don't beat yourself up about this. I mean… you have the cute neighbor across the road and then there's always…OW!''

Jazz was now rubbing his head. He knew it annoyed me, but he still did it anyway. I rolled my eyes and thought to myself, ' Big brothers. What do they know?'

He pouted, but then composed his face. Jasper was always brilliant at controlling his emotions. Then without a word, he passed me something black in my hands.

''Call them up. I know it helps.''

I smiled, and he smiled back ruffling my hair. I squealed trying to defend myself, but he just laughed and left the room. Laughing quietly, I then thought 'Okay… they do know a little.'

Dialing the first number that reached my fingertips I waited patiently.

''Hello? Hale residents.''

It was Roses Mum.

''Hello Mrs. Hale, its Bella'' I said slightly sniffling.

''Oh hello Bella dear. Let me get Rosalie for you.'' And within a second Rose had hold of the phone.

''Oh Bella. It's going to be okay. I promise. Your so young. Don't worry. There's going to be a guy out there that won't do what you know who (emphasizing these words with such hatred) did. We're all here for you sweetheart. Your so strong. It's going to be okay.''

I burst into tears that very moment. She was always such a big help, and she was always there for me.

''Now listen to me. Tomorrow, Alice and I are going to take you out, and your going to have some fun. You need to forget about this. Okay?''

''Mhm…'' I murmured quietly.

''Good. Now try and smile for me. Alice wants you to call her after this, so I'm going to go now. Remember what I said, okay Bella? We all love you very much.''

''Love you too Rosey..'' I replied, with a slight croak to my voice.

I then dialed Alice's number and waited once again. Only this time Alice picked up immediately.

''Bella! Oh, Bella! You talked to Rose just then didn't you? Listen to what she said okay? Because its all true. I'm so sorry Bella. About everything. But, everything's going to be okay soon. Now, tell Renee about tomorrow okay? Cheer up, because you're a strong girl, and we need you to smile. If our Bella doesn't smile… we're all DOOMED!'' She giggled.

I laughed a little too, despite myself.

''Okay, Alice. Thank you. Bye''

''Bye, Bella.''

The phone went dead, and I lay back on my bed once more. It was twilight, and the stars were just coming out. I sighed at the sight, but this wasn't good for me. Being alone… made my mind wander. And I knew what I was going to think about…

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Earlier Today…

''Tiny! Wake up woman! You're going to be late for school!''

I covered my ears, not wanting to get up.

Wrong.

I felt a cold wind whip past me, and my bed sheets were gone before I could grab them.

''Jazz! Seriously, I was getting up!''

''Yeah right. C'mon, mum's going to leave in twenty minutes. And what's going to happen with your 100% attendance, huh?''

I poked my tongue out at him, and he left laughing.

I sighed and got dressed for school ten minutes later. Everything was packed, and there was no rush. I frowned, looking at myself in the mirror. I was plain, and simple.

There was nothing pretty about me or anything. Applying the last brush of mascara, I quickly applied my favourite lip-gloss, grabbed my bag and left the room.

I stole the last piece of toast from Jasper's plate, giving him an innocent looking smile. I ducked as he tried to mess up my hair.

''Meanie!''

I spun around, and began walking away from him. Big Mistake!

I fell down, and landed onto a pile of washing that flew everywhere. Jasper died of laughter at what I had just done, and Renee just shook her head.

Ugh! I hated being clumsy! It sucked…

Picking up all the clothes I had dispensed around the room, we all left.

I yawned, as Jasper and I trudged up to the school gates.

''I hate school'' I grumbled.

Jasper chuckled. '' No, you don't. If you did, you wouldn't come here every single day. You just hate it because you have ice – skating for sport this whole term.''

He grinned mockingly at me and I whacked him lightly on the shoulder.

''Yeah.. okay fine!''

''When am I ever wrong, Bells?''

I rolled my eyes.

''Uh oh. Here come the two twins of hell and heaven. I better run''

I laughed. He was so mean.

'' Okay, bye Big Brother''

He waved and went off into the Year 11 area.

''Bella!''

I heard two voices sing. I giggled. My two best friends, who I also called my sisters. Rosalie Hale, the most beautiful, loving, caring person I have ever met. And Alice Brandon, the loveliest, sweetest, sometimes a tiny bit scary, funny, shopaholic sister. I hugged them both and smiled.

''Hey, you two. So what are we –''

I got cut off. Two strong arms were suddenly wrapped around my waist. I felt blood run up to my cheeks, and I smiled the biggest smile I had that day. He was here.

''Good morning, love'' His voice whispered into my ear.

I giggled.

''Good morning, fine sir. Trying to scare me today James?''

I felt him shrug, which was odd. Then I replayed the first words he had said to me this morning and turned around sharply. I knew it.

Reddened cheeks, slightly puffy eyes, and sadness. Pure sadness filled his eyes.

Oh dear god. Something was terribly wrong.

I pulled him away from the others and hugged him tightly again. He buried his face into my hair.

''James. James, what's wrong?''

''Bella… he's in hospital.''

''Who is?''

''My brother. He was out late and… an accident happened.''

I felt tears spill over my cheeks.

Oh no. No.

Not Emmet. He was like a big brother to me. Dear god…

''James he'll be okay. It's going to be okay. He's strong. He'll get through this.''

He just nodded slightly and pulled away from me. He looked towards the front gates of our school. He was so worried, so stressed out. I felt like I needed to defend him from everything bad. It made him look so vulnerable. It pained me, because he was in pain.

I wrapped my small arms around him again, hoping it would be some comfort. But then… he did something unusual. He pulled away. Like it hurt. I dropped my arms, but remained silently worried.

I stayed with him until we had to go to class. I couldn't stop thinking about him. Alice and Rose tried to get something out of me, but I retained my silence.

It was like time was against me being able to see James. And it wasn't until my 6th class, and my last class for the day, that I finally caught up with him. I hoped he would be okay, but he still had the same pained look.

I took my seat quietly beside him. I looked up to see that my history teacher thought it might be a good day for a movie. Thank god.

Once we were ten minutes into the movie, I decided to talk to James.

''James, love? Are you okay?''

He didn't reply. He just shrugged. Just like this morning. I bit my bottom lip, hoping that I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't want to worsen his pain. I waited another ten minutes before I asked another question.

''James…''

I started reluctantly.

''James, are you mad at me? It seems like you are… and I'm just worried. Your acting… a little strange.''

Later on, I would realize what a mistake those words would be.

His whole face seemed to change. Darkened. Became so fierce, that I became scared.

''Do I really, Bella?'' he hissed through clenched teeth.

''Does it seem to you like I'm acting strange? For god sakes Bella, my brothers in hospital!''

I flinched badly. I moved myself away slightly, keeping tears from my eyes.

'' I know… I know he is. And he's going to be okay… James-''

''Stop it. Stop making it seem like every little thing is about me'' he said in the same fierce voice, as before.

My eyes widened in disbelief. I couldn't believe this. James had never acted like this. Not when he was mad at me or anyone, and I have seen him mad before. Furious. This… This was nothing compared to that. I had kept quiet for a while now, believing that I was in anaphylactic shock.

I heard James take a deep breath. Like he was preparing for something.

"Look Bella. Your birthday is coming up so soon. You need to concentrate on your studies too. And… and I think it would be better if you just… forgot about all this. Everything that's troubled you, including me.''

He could see that I was about to protest, but he stopped me.

''I'm going to the hospital after school. So I won't be able to walk you home today.''

And with that the school bell rang, and he got up swiftly and out the door, leaving me breaking with every step he took.

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I shook my head roughly, breaking myself out of my own revere. Tears were pouring down my cheeks, like an endless stream. It was no use wiping them away. For tonight, I was a broken girl. Lost in darkness, as she watched her whole world shatter in front of her eyes.

And it was all her fault.

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