Title: If You Could See Me Now
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I own nothing, characters, songs, places.
A/N: Inspired by the book "If You Could See Me Now" By Cecelia Ahern. Beautiful story, cried like hell though but it was definitely worth it.
P R O L O G U E
Kids.
They are amazing aren't they? they're imagination is beautiful, intoxicating, contagious. You have to love everything about them; The way the simplest things could make them smile so big that you can't help but smile yourself. They seem to have this vibe around them. No matter how bad they hit you with their baseball bat you seem to always forgive them, simply because you can't not to. Their innocence is so obvious that you watch your words carefully to not make it go away. I used to love kids, they were my everything, I still do, just not as much. I loved my job more than anything, it was what kept me going for all these years. It used to make me happy, it used to make me feel important, it used to make me feel alive, like I had no care in the world.
That is, until I met her.
At first I thought I was just shocked by the fact that she wasn't a child, and that she needed my help. I wasn't used to working with adults, it was always children, always. So imagine my reaction when I found myself looking at a beautiful eighteen-year-old brunette with the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen. I was breathless, I couldn't possibly think of anything that might be wrong with her, she was peaceful and fragile, it was as if anything could harm her, I was afraid that I would harm her.
So my first decision was to back out. But as I continued staring at her I couldn't bring myself to leave her like this, her eyes looked dull and pained, but beautiful never the less, her frown was noticeable. She was sitting on the kitchen table staring at the ground, she looked like she was lost in thought. It reminded me of the looks toddlers get when they're being punished, I wanted to help her so badly you can't even imagine.
And that was when I realized it:
I wanted to know her, I wanted her to know me.
At the time, the fact that it was impossible for her to see me killed me. I was so angry at the life I was living, I wanted to be normal like her, not invisible. I wanted her to see me, but I knew that it would take time., She had to want to see me too, and that wasn't gonna happen easily.
So I took the risk.
I should have known better to not to let my heart out that easily, but I was stupid, I still am. But can you blame me? she was amazing and I was stupid enough to fall in love with her.
So I had to pay for being an idiot, and trust me it was a painfull punishment.
Who am I? I'm Nathaniel Jerry Gray.
And I just got my heart ripped out and smashed to pieces by the perfect, innocent Miley Stewart.
Who today, will stop seeing me.
Forever.