This begins in my version of Breaking Dawn, after Bella has married Edward. The two of them have to get away from Forks to change Bella, so Jacob's werewolf pack won't try to start a war. So Edward and Bella are driving up to Alaska, to the Cullen's new house.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight (as much as i would like to), and i am not Stephenie Meyer.

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Chapter 1. Transformation

I felt a gentle shaking on my arm. My eyes opened slowly to see Edward's glorious face just inches from mine. His warm, butterscotch eyes scorched as the crooked smile I loved best stretch across his face.

"Welcome home," he said softly, his breath blowing softly against my face.

"Mmm . . . " I mumbled as my heart restarted.

The door to the Volvo opened and the cool Alaskan air woke me up completely. The breeze cleared my head and I straightened up to see what "Home" was. I turned my head to where Edward was looking and gasped.

The big, white house in front of the car was beautiful. It was old and Victorian somehow. I immediately thought of the Cullen's old house on the river. There were tall trees surrounding it, parting only where the long drive went up to the house.

"Ready?" Edward asked. I sighed. Knowing Alice, the house was going to be over the top, with beautiful rooms and elegant furniture.

"Let's go."

We walked up to the pretty house and opened the tall wooden door. I knew it. The house was beautiful. I was a lot like the old house on the river; very wide, and open. The front room was mostly the same, too, with white furniture and Edward's piano resting in the corner.

We explored the house a little bit, Edward held my hand as we went through all the rooms. The house was beautiful, but I wasn't paying very much attention. I was trying to listen for the return of the rest of the Cullens. I knew it was hopeless, but I listened carefully anyway. Suddenly, Edward stopped and held my face in his hands. "Will you please tell me what you are thinking?" he asked softly.

"Im trying to listen for everyone."

His face was curious and frustrated. "Why?" he muttered. Then I saw his eyes tighten the tiniest bit. "Oh." He knew I was waiting for Carlisle.

"Yeah." I said softly.

"Are you sure you want to do this today?"

"Yes." My voice cracked.

Edward's head snapped up. They were home. Gulp. I knew this is what I wanted more than everything else put together, but I was terrified at the same time. I remembered the pain, the fire in my veins. . searing. . .

Then the door opened behind us slowly and Alice skipped in, followed by the rest of the Cullens.

"Bella!" she squealed and she was right behind me before I could finish turning around. She gave me a hug and a quick kiss on my cheek.

"Hi, Alice."

"I haven't seen you in weeks! You disappeared right after the wedding . . . Oh, but didn't you love it! You looked so pretty in your dress and everything turned out perfect! Everyone was so happy to see you and then after was so fun. . . ." Alice went on. I looked past her to the other Cullens. Emmett was laughing silently watching her, next to Jasper who was smiling. Carlisle and Esme were absolutely ecstatic, and even Rosalie smiled shyly at me. I looked back at Alice, who was still babbling, " . . . and the honeymoon! Didn't you love it? I thought Edward chose a great place and I bet you had the best time! Oh, and do you like the house? We all chose it together, I hope you like it, it reminded me of our old house." Then she stopped for at least a minute, thinking. She looked at me, her eyes wary. "When are you going to. . . . ?"

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Edward glare at her, I'm sure because she reminded me of what we were doing today. I guess the fear came back into my face because Edward muttered, "Thanks, Alice."

The day went on, though I wasn't aware of it. Edward talked to Carlisle and Esme, while Jasper, Emmett, and Alice talked and laughed. Rosalie was quiet. Edward said my name once, but I wasn't listening. I wasn't really sure what we were doing. I wasn't paying attention, until Edward and I were alone again.

"Are you okay, Bella?" He murmured softly.

"Yeah, I am. I want to do this." My voice jumped up an octave.

"Not yet, love." I opened my mouth to protest but he held up his hand. "It's okay, just sleep now."

"After?"

"Only if you want."

"Okay." I gulped.

So I laid next to him, and started falling asleep. I didn't want to think about what was going to happen when I woke up, but it was inevitable. So I thought about after. The strength, speed and beauty. As I thought about it, I fell asleep in Edward's marble arms.

My arm shook for the second time that day, and my eyes flew open. Edward was there, his eyes careful. "Ready?" he asked.

"Yes," I lied, but I knew he didn't believe me. I sat up and slid off the bed. I walked out of our room, and down the hall. I was almost to the stairs when Edward caught me and turned me around. I flushed and walked the other way into a room at the end of the hall. It was almost a blank room, except for a table with blankets.

I sat down and mentally prepared myself for what was about to happen. Carlisle walked into the room. I took a deep breath while he explained what we were doing. He finished talking and looked at me. I nodded, terrified, and turned to Edward.

"Bella, are you sure this is what you want?"

I was ready. I swallowed loudly and answered, "Yes." I could see Edward's eyes tighten.

"Im fine." I said, resting my hand on his cheek.

"I love you." He murmured, then leaned down to kiss me until I was dizzy.

"Don't watch." I could detect the pain in his voice.

My eyes closed slowly. Edward leaned down and kissed my neck. "Forgive me, Love." He murmured against the skin, and he bit me. His sharp teeth broke through my skin. The pain came then, fire in my veins, burning. The pain intensified as he bit me again. I could hear bloodcurdling screams, and I realized it was me. The bites continued and the pain seared through me, my veins were on fire, and I couldn't remember anything or think of anything. I wanted to die. Nothing could be compared to the feeling of white-hot venom, streaking through my body. The screams continued, ringing in my ears. I felt tears streaming relentlessly down my face. I wanted nothing more than to die. I felt nothing but the stinging, burning, searing fire in my veins and the pain everywhere in my body. I realized as I heard the words, that I was begging Edward to stop, to kill me, to please stop. It flooded through me and I wanted nothing more than to die. I wanted it to stop. I wanted everything to stop. For what felt like hours could be seconds. It didn't stop.

For what seemed like an eternity, the pain went on. Finally, it started to ease up, slowly but surely, and things became more clear every passing minute. I heard voices.

"Edward you have to leave sometime. She will be okay."

"No," he snarled, "I'm not leaving her." His soft, velvet voice was weak. For once, he could not control the intense pain in his voice.

Soon the other voices stopped and it was just him. He repeatedly murmured, "I'm sorry, Bella, I'm so sorry, my love."

"It's almost over, it will stop, I promise." He soothed me. Every time he spoke, I could hear the sadness and pain in his gentle voice. And I knew he was right. Every moment things got clearer and the pain slowed. Eventually, the screams stopped too.

So I laid there. I laid there next to him and he never left me. As I laid there, feeling the pain leave my body, feeling my heart beat slowly, unevenly, for the last few times. My heart continued to slow as the time passed by, and I waited.