Title: Afraid of the Woods
Fandom: Criminal Minds
Pairing: JJ/Emily
Rating: M / NC-17 Due to the femslash and some rape-related and adult issues. (And just because I don't think it's save to say no teenager would get any ideas from this. And I just don't want to cause that.)
Spoilers: None
Background: JJ and Will are together, but some things change now JJ had been abducted during one of the BAU investications.
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I do not own anything which has to do with Criminal Minds, its storyline or its characters. This is obviously, since I would NEVER EVER had AJ nor Paget reduced or cut back from the show. I just wouldn't. And not only because I love messing around with their characters... =)

A/N #1: I'm not a native and I don't have a beta so if there are any mistakes don't hesitate to tell me. I'm just trying to learn writing this.
A/N #2: If you have suggestions, things I should do better, please review/comment! I've never wrote fan fiction before, so it's nice to get feedback! (And if you like it, well yeah, sure you can say that in a comment to!)
A/N #3: This is the first story I'm planned to be more than a drabble or a one-shot. As I said before, I'm doing this because I want to learn from it (and because I like to mess with characters). Anyway, it could take a while before I post again, since work is a pain in my vacation-ass, but I really hope you'll see another post 'round here next week. I'll give it my very best shot at least ;)
A/N #4: HAVE FUN READING =D

PROLOGUE

Standing in front of Emily's door, JJ doubted if she should knock. She was scared as hell. She didn't want to talk but she knew she would have to. She had to open up now, otherwise it would only get harder and if she didn't.. She knew it would kill her.

Standing there in front of Emily's door, the past months run over her. Everything. And even though she was already aware of how much everything changed, she knew now was the time to change it even more, just to get her live on the rails again.

In her mind, JJ could still hear Emily scream "JJ! Thank God you're alright!" and even though JJ hadn't seen her, because of the darkness in the dungeon she was in, she felt safe knowing Emily was there. It had been the first time she actually was aware of how much she trusted Emily. It was the kind of trust you have for you closest family and considering Emily was part of her working family; she hadn't really cared about it.

Later on she noticed that she could just talk to well about what happened during her abduction with Emily – which meant nothing more than that she could talk about it, a bit - and she was just glad about it. They'd spend a lot of time together and JJ felt like they're much more than friends. She smiled weakly at the thought they're definitely BFF's, considering Reid's face when he first heard about the existence of that kind of friendship. But it wasn't just that, JJ thought. They're more. They understood each other and the last time they'd seen each other had just made that clear. Thinking about it, JJ's smile got a little less weak. She'd felt like a teenager, making out with her best friend was not something she'd have done when she was a teenager anyway, but the feeling it gave. Yeah.

But than Emily had to leave for a case. Two long, exhausting weeks JJ had to go through everything without seeing her. Without being able to even talk to her, since Will had changed into this weird, hateful guy. He was changed after her abduction, just like JJ, but he seemed to like possession of her while JJ really needed to get away from him. Thinking about Will made JJ's smile fade away really quick, considering what had happened just now.

JJ really didn't know what she was doing here, in front of Emily's door. But she needed to be safe and this was the only place she could think of. Drying the tears she'd cried while standing in front of the door, she decided it was now or never, and she knocked at the door.

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Opening the door, Emily was shocked. It had been a while since she'd last seen JJ. JJ had have a lot of time off, to recover of her abduction, and the last case Emily and the rest of the team had, lasted for almost two exhausting weeks. During these weeks Emily had desperately tried to call JJ, but she hadn't succeeded: The phone was already busy or Will had said JJ was away for the moment.

"Jayje, what's going on?"

Emily saw the dry tears on JJ's face, her unwashed hair.. No. It was obvious that it was an understatement to say JJ wasn't doing well.

"I, can I come in?"

"Sure."

Letting JJ step into her apartment, Emily took a better look at JJ. What the.. I knew JJ wasn't doing great. But.. this is not the JJ I left before the case! Seeing JJ walking straight to the couch, Emily was a bit surprised. When JJ didn't seem to care if Emily sat next to her, Emily lay an arm around her friend. Feeling JJ shiver made Emily speak softly, but honest and clearly.

"Jay, you know I'm here for you right."

The silent nod made clear JJ knew what Emily was talking about.

"And you also know I hate seeing you like this and how much I want to help you and how much I regret it I didn't kill that bastard. And I know I don't know half of what happened, but if you need to talk or stay here for a while to get your rest, you know that's fine with me."

Another nod was a sign for Emily that JJ also got the last part.

"I'ld do anything to see you smiling again Jay. Anything."

As Emily spoke that last world, slowly, JJ raised her head.

"You're sure Em?"

"I think we'll agree 'bout the limits."

"Don't say that Em.."

"Why?"

JJ shook her head. Making Emily clear she wasn't able to talk 'bout that, yet.

Sitting there, with one of Emily's arms around her shoulder and the other one lying down on her knee, JJ finally felt herself able to relax. Leaning back towards Emily JJ fell asleep, without any talking, trusting Emily completely that it would be OK.