KISS THE SUN
by swythangel
PAIRING: gareasxernest
WARNING: shonen ai-ish?
You reach out with your hands to touch the sun, knowing he could burn you in his heat, blind you with its brightness, knowing that it is impossible. Still you do so.
It is a need that you cannot explain, a desire you cannot understand but it is an integral part of your life, much like breathing and eating. So you stretch your arms in a beseeching pose, a coaxing gentle smile on your face, as if you want the sun to understand your need, as if you want the sun to come down from where he is and take your hand.
He will never do so. No matter what you do, he never will. His face is turned towards something far beyond the ground, fixed to the stars where his dreams lie. At times, he will look back and he will see you looking up, he will know that you will always be there and, knowing that, he will warm you with his presence, filling you with the light and warmth that you have come to expect.
You bask in his presence, knowing that he does so because he needs you as well. The sun needs you to reaffirm his presence, strengthen himself from the darkness of the universe that feels so large and frightening. His fierce hotness, while real and dangerous to contend with, is also just a façade for the weakness that lies beneath. And in you, with all of your weakness, he has found the strength to fortify himself from the trials of the galaxy.
You see the road he wants to take, knowing that he will follow it at any cost. And you want, above all else, to protect him, if not from the elements outside then from his own self. You want to protect him from the weakness ingrained in his very being, weaknesses that can also be viewed as strengths at the right light. You want to be there to see him shine and burn at his hottest, be there to defend him should the universe see those weaknesses and decide to exploit them.
You want to protect him because, of all the things in this world, he had been the only one to reach out with his shining light to enfold you in his warmth, uncaring of the protests that you had given, unmindful of the wall you had thought you had perfected through the years. His bright warm light had been your tenuous tie to the outside world. Back when every touch had meant an invasion the forceful light had become solace. Now, you would do anything to prevent him from burning off.
This is your goal: to protect this shining sun and ensure that nothing can hurt him. If you need to become the moon in order to preserve the sun, you would do so. You would do anything for the sun though he will not know that you do this for him and not for yourself.
One day you will be stronger and then maybe you will not need to reach out too long or too hard to be where he is. One day, he will find that you have reached him in his place up in space as he shines down on all of the planets in his vicinity and without him noticing, you will hover ever-near to protect his light.
Then maybe, just maybe, you can do the impossible and kiss the sun.
The time isn't now, however, so you rouse yourself from your contemplation of his features to shake his shoulders and wake him up from where he lies beside you on the grass.
"Garu, wake up. Its almost time for class."
Not now but maybe someday you can achieve the impossible and kiss the sun.
=================================
Thank you, Tor, for editing and for the inspiration from that lovely Garu ficlet. Ju and Kay for reading it rough. Hell, its still rough but I've been dormant for so long I needed to poke myself just to see if I'm still alive.
Comments welcome. (Aren't they always?) ^__~
by swythangel
PAIRING: gareasxernest
WARNING: shonen ai-ish?
You reach out with your hands to touch the sun, knowing he could burn you in his heat, blind you with its brightness, knowing that it is impossible. Still you do so.
It is a need that you cannot explain, a desire you cannot understand but it is an integral part of your life, much like breathing and eating. So you stretch your arms in a beseeching pose, a coaxing gentle smile on your face, as if you want the sun to understand your need, as if you want the sun to come down from where he is and take your hand.
He will never do so. No matter what you do, he never will. His face is turned towards something far beyond the ground, fixed to the stars where his dreams lie. At times, he will look back and he will see you looking up, he will know that you will always be there and, knowing that, he will warm you with his presence, filling you with the light and warmth that you have come to expect.
You bask in his presence, knowing that he does so because he needs you as well. The sun needs you to reaffirm his presence, strengthen himself from the darkness of the universe that feels so large and frightening. His fierce hotness, while real and dangerous to contend with, is also just a façade for the weakness that lies beneath. And in you, with all of your weakness, he has found the strength to fortify himself from the trials of the galaxy.
You see the road he wants to take, knowing that he will follow it at any cost. And you want, above all else, to protect him, if not from the elements outside then from his own self. You want to protect him from the weakness ingrained in his very being, weaknesses that can also be viewed as strengths at the right light. You want to be there to see him shine and burn at his hottest, be there to defend him should the universe see those weaknesses and decide to exploit them.
You want to protect him because, of all the things in this world, he had been the only one to reach out with his shining light to enfold you in his warmth, uncaring of the protests that you had given, unmindful of the wall you had thought you had perfected through the years. His bright warm light had been your tenuous tie to the outside world. Back when every touch had meant an invasion the forceful light had become solace. Now, you would do anything to prevent him from burning off.
This is your goal: to protect this shining sun and ensure that nothing can hurt him. If you need to become the moon in order to preserve the sun, you would do so. You would do anything for the sun though he will not know that you do this for him and not for yourself.
One day you will be stronger and then maybe you will not need to reach out too long or too hard to be where he is. One day, he will find that you have reached him in his place up in space as he shines down on all of the planets in his vicinity and without him noticing, you will hover ever-near to protect his light.
Then maybe, just maybe, you can do the impossible and kiss the sun.
The time isn't now, however, so you rouse yourself from your contemplation of his features to shake his shoulders and wake him up from where he lies beside you on the grass.
"Garu, wake up. Its almost time for class."
Not now but maybe someday you can achieve the impossible and kiss the sun.
=================================
Thank you, Tor, for editing and for the inspiration from that lovely Garu ficlet. Ju and Kay for reading it rough. Hell, its still rough but I've been dormant for so long I needed to poke myself just to see if I'm still alive.
Comments welcome. (Aren't they always?) ^__~