This came to me one night as I was binge watching the show. I always feel bad at the way Christopher lost Adriana and wanted a different story for him. If she really loved him, she would have been willing to go to jail for him, so I created a character who was. I own nothing and please let me know what you think.

Chapter 1

This wasn't where she'd pictured herself when she'd thought of her life. Roxanne Morella had always thought she meet a guy, fall in love, maybe even have a couple of kids, but she hadn't pictured this. This moment in a hotel room with the man she loved their future looming over them completely out of control. It made her numb even as it chilled her. It made her feel cold, not just her skin, but no matter how much she wrapped herself in warmth, she couldn't get warm. It was like her body was preparing her something, she just didn't know what. Maybe it was because she knew what was coming, maybe it was because of the sacrifice she was making for the man she loved, but as she stood there, looking in the mirror at herself, she had no answers. And yet she regretted nothing.

"Rox?" Christopher said her name in that moment his shadow appearing in the doorway behind her, but she didn't move, only looking at him in the mirror, still regretting nothing because she loved him that was why she was going away, giving up everything she had worked for. Yes, she had helped him, she had gone to make that drop, but even as she might go to prison for it, she didn't regret it.

"Roxanne?" Christopher repeated her name his eyes worried for her as they met hers in the mirror as he entered the light of the bathroom.

"Christopher?" Roxanne said his name in the same way, knowing from the look in his eyes what he wanted to say, but didn't as his arms went around her as his lips kissed her neck with love making her eyes close.

"Talk to me. What's going on in that mind of yours? I need to know if you're okay" Christopher said it on a breath against her neck. He held her body close to his, her back to his chest, but Roxanne didn't make a sound. She didn't want to ruin it yet, this moment, what might be their last. She just kept her arms crossed over his chest her hands touching his and she leaned back against him, her eyes still closed as she recorded this moment in her mind. When it was long gone, she wanted to remember it when she was all alone at night.

"Sure, I'm gonna be fine. I'm just savoring my freedom, I guess" Roxanne answered finally. Her eyes finally opened, and she met his in the mirror again. She could see in them that he loved her, and she showed him her love in return. She was doing this because she loved him, because that was what you did for those you loved. She had become a new person for him, broken all her rules, and the walls she had built over the years for him. Yet, still no regrets came as she looked at him, her love for him making it worth it along with the same love he had for her. She turned to face him bringing her hands to cup his face.

"I don't want to think about what's going to happen tomorrow or any day that's coming. I want to forget about for a bit and just be with you. Because I don't know when I will again…and I love you. So, please…let's not talk about it now" exclaimed Roxanne her voice shaking as it cracked then as he nodded. He brought his forehead down to meet hers and as her arms went around his neck his held the small of her back. Their eyes closed for a moment as she took a shaky breath and she was content to let him hold her while he was content to do so.

"Okay, but you know you can if you need to" said Christopher his fingers in her hair as he kissed her temple. She nodded then, her arms around him.

"I know, babe…just not now. It feels like that's all we've been talking about when really there's nothing to do. I just want to go to bed and feel your arms around me and enjoy our time together while we're still together" exclaimed Roxanne opening her eyes to look at him. She knew he meant well that he was trying to be there in any way she needed, and she loved him for it. Christopher could see that she was heavy with emotion and he would give her whatever she needed. That was why he held her, his arms tight as they crushed her to him. He knew she was right and if this was what she wanted, what she needed it was what he would give her. She let him lead her to the bedroom then as she tried to keep from crying.

As he led her to the bed, neither of them was sure of anything. Roxanne wasn't sure of what she wanted then as she lay on her side on the bed. She was torn between wanting him to make love to her for what could be the last time and just laying there with his arms around her. If he initiated anything, she knew she wouldn't turn him down, but when he didn't, she honestly didn't care. She was content just laying there with him, as they'd done many times before in far better times, and laying there then, she couldn't help thinking that she would miss simply laying with him. She would miss the sound of his voice in her ear as she fell asleep. The way he always stroked his fingers through her hair after they made love and the way he hummed first thing in the morning when they were just waking up. She would miss so many things about him that was her thought as she felt the bed dip under his weight. Christopher didn't try to make love to her at all as he touched her with a soft gentle touch. Instead, he did what she really wanted deep down, and she didn't even need to tell him.

"I'm going to miss you…miss this" whispered Roxanne suddenly her voice low as she laid on her side, one arm tucked beneath her head. Christopher joined her, his body warm as it laid beside hers, her back against his chest as his arm wrapped around her to take her hand.

"It's gonna be alright" whispered Christopher his lips kissing her neck as he propped an elbow on the bed before laying his head there to watch her.

Roxanne nodded, but it didn't reach her eyes. Christopher could see she was scared, it almost startled him because he'd never seen her that way before. The woman before him was fearless from the moment he met her, but he couldn't blame her for her fear now. He knew the sacrifice she was making for him and holding her close, he breathed her in.

"Babe, would you look at me, please. I want to see your face. I want to remember this beautiful face" Christopher said it so low she almost didn't hear him. She felt his lips as he spoke. They kissed the back of her neck then up to her head and something inside her seemed to quiver. It would be awhile before he did that again. Roxanne felt the tears as they gathered without falling in her eyes.

When her body moved beside his, Christopher held her still his hand moving along her side as she turned to face him. She found herself cuddling close to him, her eyes meeting his as her breasts pressed close against his chest then before suddenly a single tear broke free. Roxanne hid her face in his neck then refusing to let him see her cry, but Christopher only kissed her cheek. He made her look at him, wanting her to know that she didn't have to be strong all the time especially not now. She still tried to hide her tears, but he saw them all the same. Christopher didn't care about them though as he kissed her forehead then her cheeks then finally her lips. She could be vulnerable with him and he wanted her to know that as more tears fell from her eyes.

"Christopher" exclaimed Roxanne saying his name like an apology as tears ran down her cheeks.

"Don't apologize or say your sorry, baby…you are doing something that I never thought someone would love me enough to do. You cry if it's what you need to do. Don't hold it in…talk to me if it's what you need" said Christopher his own voice cracking as his emotions built up inside him. He stroked her face then making her smile for just a second as she looked at him. When he took her face in his hands her own hands covering his after a moment. Roxanne felt took as she felt his hands on her face. She had always tried to be so strong, to take care of herself, and not let anyone see her break even him. She piled it all inside and it had taken him forever to break the walls she'd built so precisely inside herself, but he did. That was why she finally looked into his eyes. He still looked at her with such love in his eyes and suddenly with just that, her tears overcame her to flow more freely over her face.

"Christopher, I love you…I'm doing this because I love you, but…I'm scared. Scared of what's going to happen tomorrow and the day after that. Before now I've never ever been to jail…I'm just so scared…I…I don't know" Roxanne shook with every word as she shook in his arms. Christopher pressed her closer her face buried in his chest now as he soothed her. He let her cry, his eyes closing as she broke there with him, and he knew she wouldn't have done so in front of anyone else. It proved her love for him and that she trusted him as he kissed her wherever he could reach.

"I know, Rox, I know…don't be worried or scared. I'm not gonna let anything happen to you this doesn't change that. I love you, nothing's gonna happen to you. I love you so much and no matter what happens tomorrow it's gonna be alright" exclaimed Christopher his arms holding her with a strength she reveled in as she cried then as his own guilt gnawed at him for letting her go through with this. If he could go back, he would have taken her place. He wouldn't have let her make that drop especially if he'd known one of the guys was a cop. He never would have bothered her with it. He knew she'd only done it to protect him from falling back into his addiction, but as he held her, he didn't think losing her was worth it. Staying sober, he knew she'd argue, but she meant more to him then that. She was the woman he loved, and nothing was more important then her. It was his business and yet, he had let her go, and now, she was sacrificing who knew how many years for him. Christopher thought about a lot as he held her, letting her cry, and he kissed her then because he really truly loved her. With all his heart, in a way that he'd thought he'd never love again after everything with Adriana. Then he'd met her, fallen for her, and somehow, she did the same. Only to lose her now as she dared to do what another wouldn't. It made his love for her know no bounds and yet, it also ate him up inside, and laying there with her Christopher hated himself for having to lose her this way. For having to even ask her to do this. For sending her to do his business at all.

"I love you, Christopher" said Roxanne into the skin of his neck loving her right back even as he didn't say it back not needing to; after all, how could he not love her, the woman willing to go to prison for him. And he didn't want her to.

"I love you, you know that right" whispered Christopher making her look at him. Roxanne smiled at him then, her eyes shining with tears still as she touched his face. She didn't need to answer either. All she had to do was bring him to kiss her, their lips moving in sync as his hand touched the back of her neck. That was good enough sign that they loved each other deeply.

"I love you too" whispered Roxanne letting him hold her until she slept, his eyes never closing as the next day loomed.

The ending of her trial had been quick. Soon, Christopher found himself with her outside of the courtroom as they waited for the verdict to come back. He was scared and so was she, but he handled it better. Roxanne paced in front of him as he leaned against a pillar in the hall. The hallway around them was rowdy, but they heard none of it as they waited for the deciding moment to come.

"It's gonna be alright. Just stay calm, babe" Christopher's voice came to her, but as it did it sounded like it was coming from far away. Her thoughts were clouding everything. She could already hear the words being said, the guilty that would come, and with it she could feel the handcuffs as they locked around her wrists. She was so lost in the thought, she jumped when Christopher grabbed her hand to bring her into his arms, and sighing, she just shook her head trying to find even a semblance of calm.

"Christopher" Roxanne said his name on a breath as her head fell to lay on his chest his hands on her shoulders as she felt his head as he laid it across hers both hearing faint footsteps as her lawyer then two guards approached them.

"The verdict is in" said her lawyer as she turned to face them his arm around her.

"Once the verdict is read, you'll be handcuffed, and led out of the courtroom. I suggest you say your goodbyes now" said one of the guards smirking as she walked away with the second guard on her tail. Roxanne felt numb then, not hearing anything around her as she processed this moment. She felt almost certain that she was going to prison today and with that, she looked at Christopher.

"We don't know it's gonna be guilty. We don't know anything until we're in there and it's announced. Don't be thinking the worst yet" said Christopher trying to convince both himself as well as her as he looked upon her knowing she wasn't buying it when she touched his face in a way that felt too much like a goodbye for his liking.

"Babe, don't pay attention to them, look at me" whispered Roxanne making him look at her.

"I am…I just…I love you. I love you and I don't wanna let you go" whispered Christopher taking her in his arms then and crushing her body to his.

"I know, just as long as you don't forget about me in there…because I don't want to lose you either" Roxanne said it with a shudder to her voice. Her arms were suddenly around his neck then as she held him to her almost as tight as he held her. He was tempted to take her and run then, but he knew it was too late now. The time for that had passed and kissing her shoulder, he saw her lawyer behind him then silently telling him they needed to hurry it along. The court would not wait for them.

"Christopher" whispered Roxanne her tears in her voice seconds before he pulled away attacking her lips with his until he let them part again.

"I love you, I could never forget you" whispered Christopher turning as the guards cleared their throats. They walked back into the court with her hand in his, but when he walked out, he was alone. They had found her guilty and it had been as the guards said, they took her away without another word. When Christopher sat down at the bar that night, Tony then Silvio next to him, he didn't say anything, neither did they.