Disclaimer: Basically all of the characters found in this story belong to Stephenie Meyer.
It had been a long day…well, long four weeks to be exact. Every time I thought the wedding was set, Alice had found yet another thing to pass by me. Different flowers, new place settings…it never ended. It was strange how trivial these items were compared to the big picture.
In just a few weeks, Edward and I would go off to "attend" college in Alaska. Well, that's what everyone would think. The truth was that in just a few weeks, I would be just like Edward… a monster… a vampire. In just a few weeks, I would be the one aching for the blood of humans and creatures alike, even my friends and family.
But I wanted this. I wanted to become a vampire with all my heart, to be equal, not a liability to Edward and his family. I wanted to let them stop having to risk their lives on my behalf, to stop having to protect me every minute of everyday… but the prospect still terrified me. What if I got to close to a human? What if the transformation went wrong? What if I didn't feel the same way towards Edward as I did now…?
He kept assuring me that these things would pass eventually, and that I would be able to control my thirst after time…but that didn't change the fact that the smell of blood would be stronger to me than my love for Edward. I could hardly imagine anything that I could ever want more than him.
Even though I was scared, I trusted Edward. He would never let anything happen to me. He would never let me hurt another, for it would cause me almost as much pain as I would inflict on them. Besides, how could I not trust him when he looked at me with those dazzling eyes and told me everything would be all right?
First though, I had to get through my wedding. Although Alice did all the work, I was the one who was overwhelmed. Being in the spotlight was never my thing, but I had to do this. I had to do this for Charlie, for Renee, for Edward and Alice…, and for myself. This was the last time I would see my friends and family… The family that had attempted to keep me going through my personal dark ages, the friends who had loyally stood by me through my depression and problems… I needed to give myself a chance to say one last goodbye.
One last goodbye…
After that, I would be Edward's eternally in every human way possible. And soon, very soon, in every nonhuman way. Eternity with Edward. Those three words were all I ever wanted. All I ever would want. All I ever could want.
After all that we had been through, I had always known that my love for him would never change. I wanted him forever. No, I needed him forever. He was my life, my love, the reason for my existence. Jacob had once said that he was my drug…
Jacob…
I couldn't think about him anymore. I had promised myself that I would never let Edward see me shed another tear for Jacob Black. I had already cried that part of my heart out. The part of my heart that belonged to him, my Jacob, my personal sun… I knew that Jacob would always be on my heart. He was a wound that with much time and tears was healing, but would always leave a scar.
He would always be a scar on my heart. A scar on the very heart that, in just a few weeks, would stop beating forever…
So, this is my first Twilight fanfiction!! I had this weird dose of inspiration that made me want to begin one and voila! here it is so far. Please review!!