Author's Notes: Ficlet. AU. Character's aren't mine. Inspired by 'World Spins Madly On' by The Weepies.
Dear Diary,
He left me. That's all I can think about these days.
He left me. I love him so much and I know he loves me the same.
He left me. Said it was for my own good and protection. He told me that he was putting me in unnecessary danger by associating with me. I understand that he's scared. I understand that he can't bear losing the people he loves. But right now I could tear into him and hurt him until I stop hurting. Right now I hate him so much. I know he's afraid that everyone he loves is going to get killed because him but I wish he'd stop pushing everyone away.
If I am pursued and hunted down by Death Eaters, there's a chance that it may be because of our relationship but it might as well be for being a blood traitor. They're not going to stop just because Harry Potter cuts all his ties. I wish he'd understand that he's hurting not only me or himself but everyone.
He left me to go on a (probably dangerous) trip with Ron and Hermione. Doesn't he realise that one more person might make a huge difference? I don't know what they're up to, I don't know what Dumbledore told him, but now is not the time to push your family away in order to follow Dumbledore's orders. We're supposed to stick together, aren't we? Why, for Merlin's sake, did he have to leave me?
I'm not saying that the fourth person should've been me, you know. I'll keep fighting for our side no matter where I am and who I am with, but I feel so betrayed. You see, he decided that Ron was okay to come with him when he loves him as a brother and he's putting him in more danger than ever before. They don't even have the support of the Order if something happens wherever they may be. They only have each other and who knows whether or not Ron and Hermione are going to get their act together. He might as well be alone if that happens.
I don't want to whine about how unfair it is that he didn't take me with him. I know it's not fair on him when they're been best friends forever. They're like their own family. It's always been Ron over anyone else in our family for Harry. I'm not going to change that and I don't really want to. He deserves a family like that. I just wish he hadn't cast me aside for my protection and broken up with me. There could've been other ways to keep us safe. Breaking up is not going to change You-Know-Who's opinion or that of his Death Eaters. They won't stop until they've hunted down the very last of us.
And being left by him won't change that I love him.